Anxious About My Future

Hello everybody.

I am Stavros, I am from Greece and I am new to Tinitus.I am 16 years old and I can't imagine living with this for my whole life.I am too pesimistic and I also have slight depression so I cannot pretty mu h help my self at all.My hope is in this forum.
My tinitus first appeared when I had my ears examined in order to complete an application thst would allow a teenager to work.The doctor said that my right eardrum was a it damaged.He noticed that I hadn't taken the otitis vacine,something necessery to complete the examination,so he did the vacine.When I returned to my home,I wanted to watch a show and then relax.At some point I started listening to a sound like the one that flashbangs make in some games when they explode.Some minutes ago,it went away.When I fell to sleep I could only hear it if I covered my ear with my pillow,so I just didn't do it.Some days ago it just went off..When I started working as a waiter,there was a day that there was too loud music due to an event.I could really feel the irtitating sound and I was consistently covering my ears.Late in the night,when I returned home,I just layed on the bed and slept in two minutes.Three hours ago I woke up and the ringing was loud as hell.I panicked,I thought that I was crazy.The next day I quit the job and went to the doctor whose speciality was in ear problems.The previous one wasn't something like this.The doctor examined a damaged eardrum and a hear loss of five decibels.I asked if there are recovery possibilities.She said that there are as I am not that old.She said that I sgould start taking some gingko biloba capsules.So I did.Some days ago I could barely feel the ringing if I covered my ears.Even at nightime.Some days after that.I went to a concert because my father was working there as a security guard.It was a one chance opportunity because it was free for me due to my father working there and there would be my favourite singer too.So I went.The concert took place in an open area at the beach so I stayed away from the speakers.When I went home I could feel a ringing in my ears,,slightly increased than the previous one.I expected this to happen but still,it got better again.On 23 of August I went another concert with my ftiends because it was my birthday.This time it was a closed area with too loud noises.I rwally knew the consequences but I still went due to being pressured by my friends to do so.I didnt go in until I wanted to drink something.I was covering my ears while waiting for the drink.When I started going towards the exit,the crowd stopped me as it was huge.Then the singer staryed singing and I was next to him.And there I was.Unable to move next to the singer and the speakers.When I went back home I could feel the same loud ringing as the first time I came back from work.It took me some time to sleep