Where Can I Find Peace?

I hear it everywhere. Its not a nice sound. Like scratching finger nails on metal. Very instrusive. Been six months. No peace. Where can i take a break? How can i go on like this? I feel no joy. I just go thru the motions. I know u think its depression. Its not. I am beyond depression. I am just numb. It has become too meaningless. I hear it all the time. Its worse when it spikes. Anyone out there been here? How to get better? I am desperate. I am.beyond panic attacks and crying. It does not help anyway. Nothing helps. How to live with a brain taken over by an insane scream? No LOL. Just ranting. No light at the end of my tunnel.

 

Aww sgguy,
I feel for you.... do you have a option to use maskers or getting hearing aids in your country

 

@glynis thanks for your constant care. I am very unstable today.

 

If you have no access to hearing aids or maskers then it you have a pm3 or phone with apps ,down load white noise and set it below your tinnitus sound and play that when your like this.
wish we could talk.
We have the NHS and audiology can provide people with maskers and hearing aids and Im lucky to have them free on the NHS.

I know its mental torture for you and emotionally low and You need all the support in place to help you .
Talking therapy for emotional support and a device to play sound therapy into your ears to give you a break........
Do what you can to stay calm ...
Lots of love glynis x

 

I am sorry. I hear it all the time too and nothing really masks it for me either. Please do know that there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Spring always come after Fall... live goes on... and you will start feeling better and better. There will be good and bad days. It is a roller coaster of emotions but hold your ground! See if you can take something that will help you sleep and relax. Reach out to family and friends... take on a hobby... distract your mind, get busy with your life again. Everyday I hear it from the moment I wake up 'til he moment I go to sleep... and yes everyday I wish and pray it will go away. It sucks yes... but you can still have a beautiful life. You can still find joy, and there is always hope.... Don't give up. We are here to help you.

 

@glynis yes it is constant mental torture. I never imagine people can live like this. I always thought pain is something that happens and then goes away. I never knew you can have constant pain.
@OnceUponaTime you hear it all the time too ? how long have you had it? i feel really low today (last few days).

 

All the time except in the shower or when I am doing dishes. Which I do happily, just for the peace and calming feeling it brings... I do dishes looking out my window to a beautiful lake...and its therapy for me. At least for a few minutes.. I have T for 4 years now. I am glad it is low for you today! See, that is a light at the end of the tunnel. Enjoy this day.

 

@OnceUponaTime ... i meant i am feeling really low (as in bad) today.....

 

Ohh.. I am sorry. I'll say a prayer for you. Like I said... try to find peace and joy in the people and things you love ... look around and see that there is beauty and peace regardless of this noise in your head. When I do dishes I look out my window and see beauty and it makes me smile. We have been given a heavy load to bear....Is there anyone you can talk to today or do something to distract you?? I enjoy watching comedy on TV. I'll watch " Americas Funniest Videos" and I laugh with my kids and it relaxes me for a bit... I try to be busy all day...I do sometimes feel sad and different and almost numb like you said before... but don't stay dwelling in those feelings and moments...snap out and get out of there because it is not helpful. Find courage and strength that YOU can do this and live!.

 

thank you

 

Haha..here's my window!!! Thought I'd make u smile with silliness... Where are you located?? It is a beautiful Fall here in NY and the trees are changing color.... just magnificent scenery. Have a blessed day!

 

Wow!!!! What a view that is. All I see out of my window is a concrete jungle.

 

Lovely photos ...
I live in a built up area....lots of love glynis

 

wow ... i live in tropic singapore .... no 4 seasons. always hot and humid.

 

Think that could make a great off topic thread...pictures from your window.....lots of love glynis

 

@OnceUponaTime nice view!! Ny has some beautiful lakes.

 

@Sgguy46 Hi, You will feel better. Don't give up. Theres too much too live for. MAKE SURE you take care of your ears so it doesn't get worse. For me I cut out caffeine Advil less sweets, salt. It has helped

 

@Robert44 thanks. I feeling pretty down today. The relentless screaming for months on months and the prospect of this neverending

 

You live in the city??? Snap a picture and send it over!

Oh I like the warm weather... not looking forward for winter here. Brrr

Yes, that is a nice idea.... should I start one??

 

Will do as soon as it gets lighter outside.

 

from my bedroom window

 

Not bad. Is that a builders merchant in the background?

 

Oh my gosh glyinis.... not one tree I can see. I used to live in NYC for many years. All I saw was buildings. Thanx for sharing. Maybe you can put a vase full of flowers by your window!

 

Yes,we have a lovely home but in a built up area .
With in two mins walk we are by fields and a small lake...lots of love glynis

 

I take Ambien and sleep when I need to escape, which sadly I do far too often, I'm worried my GP isn't going to give me another prescription.

 

Yes start one,onceuponatime

 

I too escape using sleep. But i don't use drugs to sleep. When i sleep, the sound becomes softer and may even go away. Even when i am half conscious, it is not there. I live in my dreams now. I have had so many weird dreams since having T. In none of them do i have T. Maybe i should cryogenically freeze myself till they find a cure. I may have many nice dreams.

 

That's good, that you don't need the drugs and the good dreams

I had insomnia before this nightmare began so there is no sleep for me without medication, T only made it worse, as it does with everything.

 

I have insomnia too. I just lie in bed fof hours till i fall asleep. Takes a few hours.

Everyday i sleep i hope it is the last T day of my life.

 

Pills, accupressure, ENT's, vitamins, masking, etc.. I tried 'em all for decades.
I tried something new last year and stuck with it and I only respond to my T now when I hear it, which is once every few days. My T was vicious. Now I'M in control. Try it -
https://www.tinnitustalk.com/threads/back-to-silence.7172/