convolution

https://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-9513973/At-1-500-people-complain-developed-ringing-ears-vaccine.html

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2021/apr/17/tinnitus-helpline-reports-a-surge-in-calls-since-start-of-covid-coronavirus-pandemic

I joined a tinnitus group on LinkedIn and there is literally P. Jastreboff advertising his TRT courses LMAO. Left the group IMMEDIATELY

Found out that a postdoc at my department had tinnitus for two years. The tinnitus faded (!!!), but the depression it triggered did not :/

Almost 5 months in, I still struggle. I can go days without being bothered much, but sometimes (like today) I feel deep sense of sadness...

I watched a Czech movie titled "Tiché doteky - A Certain Kind of Silence"... Yeah mf, _my_ silence is one of those eeeeeeee kind of silences

Intermittent chirps seem to be gone, but now I have some tickling/electrical sensation in my l ear... Why can't this shit just be constant?

Another good t week with my gf. It was really pushed in the background. Next week I'll be alone, I'm sure my brain will amplify it again

In the past days high pitch became sometimes a lower hiss. However, almost at the same time, my left ear started to chirp/be unstable

I have a random intermittent chirp in my left ear now. Like a little bird chirping. Very low volume. Anybody else? It's been few days

Again: one week with my girlfriend and I was basically cured. Back alone, t. comes back. Brain/mood seem to play a huge role here.

Three days with my girlfriend - t was pushed so in the background that I could not care less. Now alone again: I cannot take my mind off it

Finally found a nice studio flat. I'll live on my own for the next year or so. No more loud flatmates. Moving in next week :)

A snoring person bothers me more than my t. I had to sleep with muffs AND plugs last night. Hallucinogenic experience.

T. or not t. I think I must re-engage in life. My research is waiting and I have a PhD dissertation to begin. Goodbye my friends!

I fell asleep with headphones playing white noise and t. came the day after. I am so mad at me rn, why nobody ever told me about this shit?

Had a boardgame session with my Italian friends (loud af), so I had to religiously protect my ears. I had good time, I guess this helps too

I hear my t. everywhere (not loud, but can't be masked). It's just there whispering "hey pos, if you misbehave I'll annihilate your life"

My cat woke me up at 4:30 am. I experienced complete silence for the first time in a month. But then I slept again and the t. came back :/