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Thinking about soundproofing my room once my parents go back to work Sep 18, 2021 at 9:51 AM
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After becoming bedridden in early 2020 with severe CFS/ME, I accidentally blasted myself with my airpods on full volume. I now had two depilitating deceases for which there were no answers.
The pain in my ears started slowly. It was just noticable in the kitchen and the shower. Then the phone began to hurt. Music hurt. Phonecalls hurt. I went to the doctor and his voice hurt. My voice hurt. I began plugging up. There was a bunch of progress and a bunch of setbacks during this time. What ultimately did me in was my dog barking right outside my window. I was confident at this point. The days up to this point had been good, and thought I’d just let him bark. “My ears can probably handle it”. They couldn’t. It came on like a shock through my skull. After this day forward I was no longer able to plug up, the sound of my heart beat felt like needles in my ears. And because it had gotten so severe I wasn’t able to stay home either. I had to get away
During this time I was also battling severe CFS. It’s a neurological disease, and it’s real serious if you get a bad case of it. I wasn’t able to use my phone, to go on reddit and other support groups, to ask for guidance or anything like that. i eventually called my doctor, explained to him my situation and asked to be placed at a psych ward. The place I got there was great. Real silent, no disturbances. There was a fan in the ceiling, and I’m pretty sure it must have helped me out somehow, because even though it was quite loud, two weeks later I could listen to music again. I went home, and continued doing this. Then one day I got into an arguement over the phone. My dad yelled and I felt another shock. I realized now that hyperacusis is cumulative. And even though you may not feel pain from the things you’re doing with your ears, it is still causing damage, one tiny marker at a time. Music was off now. People’s voices began hurting again. My own voice hurt. Thankfully I was still able to wear plugs, so I put them back and they haven’t been out since.
Fastforward a couple of months into my second setback of my hyperacusis journey. Early 2021. I found that I was able to listen to music on my phone for an hour or so, a couple of times a day, with my plugs in. I did this despite of the occasional discomfort. I thought as long as my hyperacusis wasn’t spiking, every thing was alright, and I continued to do so for a couple of more months. At some point there was tinnitus. It wasn’t very severe, I didn’t think much of it, so I continued in my ways. After some time the tinnitus increased, it became severe, and it was reactive. I stopped with the music. I had to stop going it. I can’t shower anymore. I can’t speak, or listen to people talk. I’m basically stuck. Right now I’m just focusing on resting and healing, and hoping that it will resolve. I’m probably not gonna kill myself. I’m too self-involved, feel myself to be too important for the world to end it. My optimism is also helping. The way I see it, the worse it gets - the better it becomes. The longer I suffer - the better it’s gonna feel once I’m finally free. 10 years down the line I might come to think of this as the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. I don’t want to miss out on that.