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Tentative, but I feel like my spike may be subsiding. I was able to sleep normally, and when I woke up this morning, it was markedly quiet. Oct 13, 2019 at 12:31 PM

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    1. magicant
      magicant
      Tentative, but I feel like my spike may be subsiding. I was able to sleep normally, and when I woke up this morning, it was markedly quiet.
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      3. magicant
        magicant
        I also ordered and just received a decibel sound meter. It's not to be paranoid, but I just want to be completely safe this time around. It also helps to alleviate my phonophobia some, since I can see clearly now that I am overestimating certain sound levels.
        Oct 13, 2019 at 3:27 PM
      4. Striveon
        Striveon
        Which sound machine did you order? I'd like to order one too :) I hope our T spike subsides !
        Oct 13, 2019 at 7:18 PM
      5. magicant
        magicant
        Oct 13, 2019 at 8:07 PM
    2. magicant
      magicant
      Psilocybin didn't do anything for my T also. Though, I'm wondering if the reason I'm feeling somewhat better suddenly is because of it.
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    3. magicant
      magicant
      Going to try whatever I can for now. Extracting impacted wisdom teeth for one Wednesday.
    4. magicant
      magicant
      Back to being suicidal, I guess. I'm not sure if I can hold out another year before there's improvement, and that's assumning there'll be.
      1. HeavyMantra
        HeavyMantra
        This doesn't have to mean you're starting from zero. Who knows how you'll feel in a month, or even a week? It honestly doesn't sound like you exposed yourself to something damaging and most spikes go down according to people writing here
        Oct 11, 2019 at 4:40 PM
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    5. magicant
      magicant
      Really struggling. I feel like it's worse than onset.
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      2. Striveon
        Striveon
        I'm struggling too :(
        Oct 10, 2019 at 9:01 PM
    6. magicant
      magicant
      Hrm. Wondering if this spike could actually be caused by my neck right now.
      1. magicant
        magicant
        That same week, I recall slipping into the bad habit of sleeping on my stomach, which was a habit I broke after getting T, sleeping on my side instead. My neck feels pretty strained right now (on the left side, too, where my T is incredibly loud.)
        Oct 10, 2019 at 12:42 AM
      2. Julien87
        Julien87
        I also notice an increase of my tinnitus when my neck is stiff/strained (after several hours with a bad posture at my desk for example)
        Oct 10, 2019 at 9:02 AM
    7. magicant
      magicant
      I feel terrible because of this spike. Haha. Really, I thought I was so safe. I even completely stopped using headphones and whatnot.
    8. magicant
      magicant
      Welp. Guess I messed up. Went to the cinema (not the first time) with earplugs. Switched to ear defenders even in the latter half.
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      2. magicant
        magicant
        Thanks. Yeah, I just hope that being completely and utterly safe from here on can make a difference still.
        Oct 8, 2019 at 4:47 PM
      3. Bill Bauer
        Bill Bauer
        Just try to avoid live music and movie theaters for the next year or two. Hopefully you will become more resilient as you heal.
        Oct 8, 2019 at 5:35 PM
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      4. magicant
        magicant
        I avoid live music completely. Did so even before getting tinnitus. Movie theaters was really it, actually. (My cause of T is because of an outer ear infection rather than loud noise exposure.) But yeah, I definitely intend to avoid it all of it completely now. As for my current T... It sounds like it did about when I first got it.
        Oct 8, 2019 at 5:43 PM
    9. magicant
      magicant
      I should mention that I started feeling better around the time that I stopped plugging my ears to listen to my T.
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      2. magicant
        magicant
        It's a habit I completely cut about eight months in. Before then, I was actually despairing - about that it'd been eight months already, and yet I still felt so bad. Only about two weeks after cutting that habit, I started feeling A LOT better. If you have mild/moderate T, and I can only speak from my own experiences, then this is definitely a must for improvement.
        Sep 23, 2019
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    10. magiccat
      magiccat
      We kind of have the same username! happy to hear yours is fading and that your feeling better. Mine is not unfortunately, it was caused by loud noise, hopefully something happens soon. Keep up the good work :)
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      2. magicant
        magicant
        Oh! I noticed before, actually. Haha. Hrm. Well, I can't really give any advice. I do think optimizing your nutrition is definitely a way to start, though, if at least improve your chances. Better a balanced diet than just taking supplements, too.
        Sep 25, 2019
    11. magicant
      magicant
      It's already been over a year of T now. But I have my life back, much to my own surprise.
      1. Striveon
        Striveon
        Did it improve?? If so, any change in lifestyle that helped???
        Sep 23, 2019
    12. magicant
      magicant
      Tentative, but I think that my T may actually be slowly fading. It's now at that stage where I can only really hear it in quiet rooms.
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      2. Rb86
        Rb86
        So jealous. If I reach this stage I'd be pretty happy. Also seems you're on the road to maybe getting real silence one day.
        Aug 17, 2019
      3. HeavyMantra
        HeavyMantra
        All the time? Congratulations! Also, EARTHBOUND!
        Aug 17, 2019
      4. magicant
        magicant
        It still varies a bit, but it hasn't been on my mind for quite some time now. If I sit in my room with the small water fountain on, I can still vaguely hear it, but it's not at all a particularly annoying noise.
        Aug 19, 2019
    13. magicant
      magicant
      I can wear earmuffs and the sound won't give me anxiety like it did before. Obviously, I don't enjoy it, but there are times I forget it.
    14. magicant
      magicant
      Still feeling pretty good. There are some definite moments I forget I even have T.
    15. magicant
      magicant
      Maybe my T is fading. Maybe it's habituation. Just now, I was out at 5 AM. T I could hear, but barely.
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      2. magicant
        magicant
        I feel like "tranquility" is finally something I can actually experience again. I even woke up the other day, and it took me 15 minutes before I noticed my tinnitus rather than immediately.
        Jul 21, 2019
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      3. Fire2Flowers
        Fire2Flowers
        Keep the faith, you can push through it! I believe in you!
        Jul 22, 2019
    16. magicant
      magicant
      Maybe my T really is fading... Can't say so with certainty, though. Either way, I don't really feel all that anxious anymore.
      1. magicant
        magicant
        It amuses me, though, since I was so pessimistic. I was already depressed and had generalized anxiety disorder, so I felt like it was just... impossible for someone like me to ever get to this point. Even talk of "habituation" would make me angry, honestly; I didn't want to accept it. I felt like everyone was just trying desperately to convince themselves.
        Jul 19, 2019
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      2. magicant
        magicant
        But now... Well, I don't know. I feel like I've finally overcome it. Yes, I still want it gone. It would be nice to just hear silence again, after all. It's not like I'm completely comfortable with it, but there're many things I'm not completely comfortable with, and I can just live with those things without feeling like my suicide is inevitable.
        Jul 19, 2019
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    17. magicant
      magicant
      Survived my last dentist trip for now. No spike, it seems. Now I can finally rest some lmao
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    18. magicant
      magicant
      Still in disbelief. I'd even despaired over that I would never habituate after 8 months or so, and yet now, I'm just living again.
      1. Bill Bauer
        Bill Bauer
        Often it takes 18-24 months to habituate.
        Jul 10, 2019
      2. MarkX
        MarkX
        Has yours reduced at all within the 8 months.
        Jul 10, 2019
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      3. magicant
        magicant
        I'm not sure if it has reduced, honestly. Not enough for me to say it with certainty at any rate.
        Jul 11, 2019
    19. magicant
      magicant
      Never thought that it'd ever happen, but either my T is starting to fade or I'm starting to habituate. Seems more likely to be the latter.
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      2. Yugal Rai
        Yugal Rai
        I hope it’s fading!! I’m still yet to experience fading or... habituate.
        Jul 2, 2019
      3. magicant
        magicant
        It took me almost a year, but I noticed primarily a change once I stopped plugging my ears to check for it and so on. Still anxious about going to the dentist, though, but overall, I feel... alright again.
        Jul 2, 2019
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    20. magicant
      magicant
      T in right ear is mostly gone now. T in left ear is the same as ever but hasn't bothered me as much recently for some reason.
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    21. magicant
      magicant
      Despite that my tinnitus can't be effectively masked, I realize I've never had much trouble sleeping because of it.
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      2. Striveon
        Striveon
        Lucky you! Any tips?
        Apr 22, 2019
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      3. magicant
        magicant
        Before I go to bed, I drink chamomile tea and have some drops of CBD oil. But even without that, when I am sufficiently tired, I just fall asleep. I still sometimes get anxious about the prospect of attempting to sleep, and I am a bit more now with the new noise in my right ear, but it seems it's a needless worry.
        Apr 23, 2019
    22. magicant
      magicant
      Determined to make some changes to my life. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do, but I want to take back what I can still enjoy.
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      2. New Guy
        New Guy
        Go get 'em! I feel the same way.
        Apr 20, 2019
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    23. Bill Bauer
      Bill Bauer
      >There are times where it's quiet enough that it doesn't bother me at all

      Have you had times like that 5 months ago?
      1. magicant
        magicant
        I think so, yeah. Well, "not at all" might be an exaggeration. The knowledge that it's there to begin with bothers me, but while it's typically nigh-unmaskable with everyday sounds, I can hardly hear it during those times. Even in absolute silence, it'll be markedly quieter. Just this unstable faint hiss.
        Apr 19, 2019
      2. Bill Bauer
        Bill Bauer
        Hopefully in another year those quiet times will be longer than they are now.
        Apr 19, 2019
      3. magicant
        magicant
        I hope so, too. I intend to take care of some things. I still need to get my jaw looked at for one. I also am buying this and that to ensure I have proper posture. (my neck feels stiff almost every day)
        Apr 19, 2019
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    24. magicant
      magicant
      T in right ear now. Happened after one of my birds chirped (gently) near it. Didn't at all hurt or bring discomfort, but it happened.
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      2. Bill Bauer
        Bill Bauer
        Have you experienced any fading, compared to how it was 5 months ago?
        Apr 19, 2019
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      3. magicant
        magicant
        I'm not entirely sure. My T fluctuates, so it's been hard to tell. But I felt that I had gotten used to it. There are times where it's quiet enough that it doesn't bother me at all, but then it always increases near the end of the day. It's made it hard for me to tell if it's changed.
        Apr 19, 2019
      4. magicant
        magicant
        I'm thinking it's possible this could be my first spike also. Apparently, in my first post, I mentioned that I had T in both ears. Maybe I eventually forgot since, at some point, I was so used to it being in exclusively in my left ear that.
        Apr 19, 2019
    25. magicant
      magicant
      Thinking I might have ETD..? Consistent and rather audible crackling in left ear (T afflicted) whenever I talk, sing, swallow, etc.
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    26. magicant
      magicant
      Still struggling, but getting better. The information and the support has been helpful. but I think I'll stop obsessively visiting now.
    27. magicant
      magicant
      Gradually overcoming the panic and suicidal ideation after two weeks.
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    Gender:
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    Tinnitus Since:
    08/2018
    Cause of Tinnitus:
    Outer Ear Infection..?