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Maybe my T really is fading... Can't say so with certainty, though. Either way, I don't really feel all that anxious anymore. Jul 19, 2019 at 2:17 AM

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    1. magicant
      magicant
      Maybe my T really is fading... Can't say so with certainty, though. Either way, I don't really feel all that anxious anymore.
      1. magicant
        magicant
        It amuses me, though, since I was so pessimistic. I was already depressed and had generalized anxiety disorder, so I felt like it was just... impossible for someone like me to ever get to this point. Even talk of "habituation" would make me angry, honestly; I didn't want to accept it. I felt like everyone was just trying desperately to convince themselves.
        Jul 19, 2019 at 2:18 AM
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      2. magicant
        magicant
        But now... Well, I don't know. I feel like I've finally overcome it. Yes, I still want it gone. It would be nice to just hear silence again, after all. It's not like I'm completely comfortable with it, but there're many things I'm not completely comfortable with, and I can just live with those things without feeling like my suicide is inevitable.
        Jul 19, 2019 at 2:20 AM
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    2. magicant
      magicant
      Survived my last dentist trip for now. No spike, it seems. Now I can finally rest some lmao
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    3. magicant
      magicant
      Still in disbelief. I'd even despaired over that I would never habituate after 8 months or so, and yet now, I'm just living again.
      1. Bill Bauer
        Bill Bauer
        Often it takes 18-24 months to habituate.
        Jul 10, 2019
      2. MarkX
        MarkX
        Has yours reduced at all within the 8 months.
        Jul 10, 2019
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      3. magicant
        magicant
        I'm not sure if it has reduced, honestly. Not enough for me to say it with certainty at any rate.
        Jul 11, 2019
    4. magicant
      magicant
      Never thought that it'd ever happen, but either my T is starting to fade or I'm starting to habituate. Seems more likely to be the latter.
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      2. Yugal Rai
        Yugal Rai
        I hope it’s fading!! I’m still yet to experience fading or... habituate.
        Jul 2, 2019
      3. magicant
        magicant
        It took me almost a year, but I noticed primarily a change once I stopped plugging my ears to check for it and so on. Still anxious about going to the dentist, though, but overall, I feel... alright again.
        Jul 2, 2019
    5. magicant
      magicant
      T in right ear is mostly gone now. T in left ear is the same as ever but hasn't bothered me as much recently for some reason.
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    6. magicant
      magicant
      Despite that my tinnitus can't be effectively masked, I realize I've never had much trouble sleeping because of it.
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      2. Striveon
        Striveon
        Lucky you! Any tips?
        Apr 22, 2019
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      3. magicant
        magicant
        Before I go to bed, I drink chamomile tea and have some drops of CBD oil. But even without that, when I am sufficiently tired, I just fall asleep. I still sometimes get anxious about the prospect of attempting to sleep, and I am a bit more now with the new noise in my right ear, but it seems it's a needless worry.
        Apr 23, 2019
    7. magicant
      magicant
      Determined to make some changes to my life. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do, but I want to take back what I can still enjoy.
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      2. New Guy
        New Guy
        Go get 'em! I feel the same way.
        Apr 20, 2019
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    8. Bill Bauer
      Bill Bauer
      >There are times where it's quiet enough that it doesn't bother me at all

      Have you had times like that 5 months ago?
      1. magicant
        magicant
        I think so, yeah. Well, "not at all" might be an exaggeration. The knowledge that it's there to begin with bothers me, but while it's typically nigh-unmaskable with everyday sounds, I can hardly hear it during those times. Even in absolute silence, it'll be markedly quieter. Just this unstable faint hiss.
        Apr 19, 2019
      2. Bill Bauer
        Bill Bauer
        Hopefully in another year those quiet times will be longer than they are now.
        Apr 19, 2019
      3. magicant
        magicant
        I hope so, too. I intend to take care of some things. I still need to get my jaw looked at for one. I also am buying this and that to ensure I have proper posture. (my neck feels stiff almost every day)
        Apr 19, 2019
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    9. magicant
      magicant
      T in right ear now. Happened after one of my birds chirped (gently) near it. Didn't at all hurt or bring discomfort, but it happened.
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      2. Bill Bauer
        Bill Bauer
        Have you experienced any fading, compared to how it was 5 months ago?
        Apr 19, 2019
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      3. magicant
        magicant
        I'm not entirely sure. My T fluctuates, so it's been hard to tell. But I felt that I had gotten used to it. There are times where it's quiet enough that it doesn't bother me at all, but then it always increases near the end of the day. It's made it hard for me to tell if it's changed.
        Apr 19, 2019
      4. magicant
        magicant
        I'm thinking it's possible this could be my first spike also. Apparently, in my first post, I mentioned that I had T in both ears. Maybe I eventually forgot since, at some point, I was so used to it being in exclusively in my left ear that.
        Apr 19, 2019
    10. magicant
      magicant
      Thinking I might have ETD..? Consistent and rather audible crackling in left ear (T afflicted) whenever I talk, sing, swallow, etc.
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    11. magicant
      magicant
      Still struggling, but getting better. The information and the support has been helpful. but I think I'll stop obsessively visiting now.
    12. magicant
      magicant
      Gradually overcoming the panic and suicidal ideation after two weeks.
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    Gender:
    Male
    Tinnitus Since:
    08/2018
    Cause of Tinnitus:
    Outer Ear Infection..?