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Stacken77

Member, Male, from Sweden

This never ending battle is getting tiresome. Soon 5 months of full-time work. I'll probably go on sick leave soon to take some rest. Oct 20, 2021 at 3:28 PM

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    1. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      This never ending battle is getting tiresome. Soon 5 months of full-time work. I'll probably go on sick leave soon to take some rest.
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      3. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        @Damocles Hahah, I'd say stocks and poker is pretty much the same thing; gambling with one's savings. I prefer to safely "earn" money than gamble my way to it. Every single time I've invested in stocks, I've got burned(last one was FREQ lol, still holding though). ;)
        Oct 20, 2021 at 7:12 PM
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      4. Damocles
        Damocles
        Exactly @Stacken77. I suppose the point I was trying to make with that remark, is that they're both gambling, but at least Poker is just straight up gambling, with no dress up or excuses.

        Stocks on the other hand are gambling with respectability. They're a good way for people with a problem to hide the fact, and insist there's a "strategy" to it.
        Oct 20, 2021 at 9:56 PM
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      5. Damocles
        Damocles
        The only people who know THE "strategy", are the people that are running the whole thing... just like.. you guessed it: The Casinos.

        :/
        Oct 20, 2021 at 9:57 PM
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    2. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      Getting pretty nostalgic over the initial 3 months after onset when T was under control and life still was really good. How short it was...
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      3. Foamearplugssuck
        Foamearplugssuck
        same. it's funny because I was so miserable when I first got my T. I'd take it back in a heartbeat though.
        Oct 17, 2021 at 4:33 AM
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      4. Vassili
        Vassili
        To be honest, I don't remember how it was before my T. I forgot how it is to be normal. In some weird way it helps.
        Oct 17, 2021 at 11:17 AM
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      5. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        @Wrfortiscue Agreed. How're you managing nowadays, man? Has the spiking reduced anything?
        Oct 18, 2021 at 5:55 PM
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    3. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      Wow! My TTTS has now improved to the point where I can type pretty hastily on a keyboard without hard spasms. Really wonderful.
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      3. Damocles
        Damocles
        Knew you could do it @Stacken77!

        Proud of you my man!
        Sep 25, 2021
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      4. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        Thanks @Damocles mate. My spikes are still my main tormentor, so I still have a long road ahead of me, but hopefully this is an indication of things going in a good direction.
        Sep 26, 2021
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      5. Charburchar
        Charburchar
        Great news mate!
        Sep 26, 2021
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    4. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      @Christian78 fellow Swede! I've read some of your posts before. How are you nowadays? Any improvements?
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      3. Damocles
        Damocles
        Agreed. He seemed cool as a cucumber when he checked in with us last Tuesday. It's quite the mystery.

        Maybe try asking some of the people he follows, see if they know anything about how he's doing? or got some other contact details for him?
        Sep 29, 2021
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      4. Damocles
        Damocles
        If anyone can crack this case, it's you @Stacken77 mate!

        ┴┬┴┤ʖ̯ ▀ ) ├┬┴┬┴
        Sep 29, 2021
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      5. Stacken77
        Stacken77
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    5. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      Tinnitus doesn't make sense!!
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      2. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        @PortugalTheMan Because the datacenter was so loud that they had to talk a lot louder.
        Sep 21, 2021
      3. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        @danielthor A few days has passed, so luckily it doesn't seem like it. It's weird because I've kinda experienced improvements 3 times now due to periods of incremental sound exposure. I rarely get spikes that lasts several days anymore, like I used to, and my T doesn't get severe at 9 pm. I think T&H can be really weird, each case being different. I think I'm onto something, but the road ahead is long.
        Sep 21, 2021
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      4. ZFire
        ZFire
        Yeah my tinnitus is unpredictable as well. When I get hit with some moderately loud sounds, I think crap its gonna spike soon, but then It doesn’t happen. Before I would spike, but it’s happening a little bit less. I’m thinking time is the what makes it get better, but we could mistake it for something else
        Sep 21, 2021
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    6. Damocles
      Damocles
      Have a good weekend @Stacken77 my friend!

      I'm sure you will have undoubtedly earnt it.
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      2. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        Thank you so much @Damocles and I hope you have a wonderful weekend too. I actually ordered up some kebab yesterday; delicious.
        Sep 18, 2021
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    7. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      Have never touched a canvas before, but has just recently picked up painting. It's kinda therapeutic.
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      2. Steph1710
        Steph1710
        @Stacken77 amazing! I draw sometimes and I find it very therapeutic.. though I’m not great at it. My partner is a tattooist, and he started painting during lockdown last year, and of course, he had to be brilliant at it -_-
        Sep 12, 2021
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      3. Leila
        Leila
        Good on you, it's always good to learn something new and challenge yourself a little :) I love to write and draw / paint myself and doing so sometimes even draws me in so much that everything else just goes away for a while. I hope the same might hold true for you!
        Sep 12, 2021
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      4. Exit
        Exit
        Cool!
        Sep 15, 2021
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    8. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      @Charburchar Glad to hear it. They've helped me a great deal! I'm on my second pack of 200 pairs lol.
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      2. Deamon22
        Deamon22
        I am already on my 3rd pack of 200. I‘d recommend them to anyone. Best ones I found until now.
        Sep 1, 2021
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      3. Damocles
        Damocles
        Okay cool, but just going off what @TheDanishGirl said, these don't sound suitable for those of us with narrow/@Labyrinthine, ear canals.

        I'll just add, for anyone like me with delicate and artistic ear canals, THESE are the foam plugs you want: https://amzn.to/3zG4KAv
        Sep 1, 2021
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      4. Damocles
        Damocles
        Yes they are called "Dream Girl" Ear Plugs. No I am not a Girl.

        Although I am Dreamy..... (˘◡˘ )
        Sep 1, 2021
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    9. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      @Kriszti I consider my baseline T moderate. I don't care at all for improvements -just want it to not get worse. I'd settle for habituation!
      1. Tanni
        Tanni
        I would absolutely choose a guaranteed no worsening over improvements. I accept that I have tinnitus now - I just hate the fluctuations!
        Aug 31, 2021
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      2. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        @Tanni Completely agree. I've basically habituated to this cacophony; I've accepted it. The fluctuations is what has stolen my freedom.
        Aug 31, 2021
      3. transient18
        transient18
        I concur as well… but feels sad as I say that I concur..
        Aug 31, 2021
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      2. Damocles
        Damocles
        @Stacken77 my friend, it has been a pleasure helping you the little amount I have been able to.

        It's so great to hear you're already seeing a small amount of progress. Just keep your faith, know that God has great plans for you (and me) and remember that this is a challenge, not an end to our stories.

        Same here mate, really look forward to the day we can finally meet.
        Sep 1, 2021
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      3. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        Thank you for your kind words @Damocles. Not to pry, but do you have faith in God? If so, do you feel this helped you in your journey? It feels like my faith is being tested and toughened for the better. If I make it to the other side, I'll not be the man I used to be, if you know what I mean.
        Sep 2, 2021
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      4. Damocles
        Damocles
        Well, my family are Irish Catholic, but I have identified as agnostic since I was a teenager. Despite being agnostic though, I always had an inclination to believe there was a reason for all things; a larger plan, or fate.

        As I'm getting older, I'm seeing and experiencing, more and more events that are strengthening my faith.
        So yes, I definitely know what you mean.
        Sep 5, 2021
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    11. PortugalTheMan
      PortugalTheMan
      @Stacken77
      I read that your T has gotten worse when exposed to 50db, what do the doctors have to say about that?
      Can't you do some sound therapy to see if you get better?
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      3. Bill Bauer
        Bill Bauer
        @Stacken77 If I were you, I would listen to the signals given to me by my body and avoid all sounds that don't feel right or that give me spikes. I had done that, and eventually fewer and fewer sounds felt wrong to me.
        Aug 21, 2021
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      4. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        @Bill Bauer Thanks for your reply. The problem is i started to spike due to sound deprivation in February. And because of the advice to avoid spikes, I've become increasingly sensitive. I spike to every noise except my breathing and heartbeat now. As I see it, the only way to reduce the spiking is to reintroduce sound again, but the line is extremely fine.
        Aug 21, 2021
      5. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        @Bill Bauer I began to deprive myself of sound because I got a new tone in my formerly good ear and became anxious. I went from letting in a lot of everyday sounds without spiking to wear hearing protection literally 24/7, and this was extremely stupid. My hyperacusis which had largely resolved crept back within a week and i began to spike to everything.
        Aug 21, 2021
    12. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      If there's one thing I've learned, it's that there's no given formula for success - we have to figure out our very own way of tackling this
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      3. Damocles
        Damocles
        Exactly mate! You'll navigate this condition just the way I did: 90% on your own and 10% with a bit of help from those of us on TT who have been exactly where you're at.

        At the end of the day, I wouldn't waste my words on people I didn't think were intelligent and/or resilient enough to make it through this nightmare.
        Aug 17, 2021
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      4. Damocles
        Damocles
        You're going to make it to the other side, and one day me and you are going to be reminiscing about this merry hell like old war veterans!
        Aug 17, 2021
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      5. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        Exactly my thoughts @Damocles. Of course, the tips and insights given here have been invaluable, but I'll have to figure out a way to introduce sound again that my auditory system is alright with, and it seems like a bigger challenge than I thought.

        Reminiscing like war veterans is a great comparison. This definitely feels like a war for survival.
        Aug 18, 2021
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    13. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      Everyone around me has unlimited freedom while my freedom has been robbed completely, yet we still share the same reality. Kinda unreal...
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      3. Damocles
        Damocles
        Makes me think of Black Mirror's "White Christmas" episode.

        If you've never seen it, what I've said makes sense at the end.
        Aug 15, 2021
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      4. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        Exactly my thoughts @danielthor, hopefully we'll get there, someday...
        Aug 15, 2021
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      5. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        It is just simply unreal, the reflections on life, death, love - everything, it's just otherworldly. I'd love to put my feelings down in a fictional novel, but it's hard, and tinnitus doesn't make it easier.
        Aug 15, 2021
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    14. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      Watching through a lot of Disney movies(on mute) after work nowadays. You guys have any favorites?
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      3. Damocles
        Damocles
        1. The Emperor's New Groove
        2. The Black Cauldron
        3. Beauty and the Beast
        4. Dragonslayer
        5. Lilo & Stitch
        6. WALL-E
        Aug 15, 2021
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      4. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        That's some real good titles @Damocles mate.
        I've been enjoying some 101 Dalmatians, Lady and the Tramp, Oliver & Company and Emperor's New Groove.

        The Disney+ subscription has really come to use. The Netflix one seems to leach my money more or less.
        Aug 15, 2021
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      5. Hamsti
        Hamsti
        Dumbo! Always makes me cry x)
        Aug 19, 2021
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    15. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      It seems the angle grinder has left the right ear and moved to the left, somehow... Give me a break.
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    16. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      Severe spike from pink noise seems to be back to "baseline" in the right ear, partially in the left. Will probably not attempt that again...
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      2. JPGL
        JPGL
        el pico fue de escuchar ruido rosa? por mucho tiempo?
        Aug 14, 2021
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      3. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        @JPGL (Utilizando un traductor) Toqué ruido rosa durante 30 minutos, lo que provocó un empeoramiento del tinnitus que duró varios días. Mejoró al final, pero volvió a empeorar por otras razones.
        Aug 15, 2021
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    17. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      I'm thinking about ditching earplugs for a whole day in my <30 dB room, but insanely scared to turn my now moderate tinnitus severe.
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    18. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      Momentarily taking off the hearing protection feels(sounds) unreal. For 6 months, I've only heard a narrow band of frequencies.
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      3. TheDanishGirl
        TheDanishGirl
        Yeah, at this point the world sounds more normal with ear plugs in, then without :/ When I dare take them out very briefly it's like woahh!......it sounds weird and totally overhvelming without ear plugs.
        Jul 30, 2021
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      4. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        @Wrfortiscue Pretty much. Either single protection or double protection literally 24/7 for 5 months. I'm currently exploring whether or not the protection has been the culprit behind my sensitivity all along, but it sure is scary.
        Jul 30, 2021
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      5. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        @TheDanishGirl Exactly my experience. The richness of all sounds sure is weird once the auditory system has been accustomed to the lack there of.
        Jul 30, 2021
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    19. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      Dang, another round of angle grinder in the right ear. Must persevere.
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      3. Steph1710
        Steph1710
        @Damocles you’re so funny. I would totally date you haha!

        Sorry @Stacken77 just flirting on your thread. ;)
        Jul 28, 2021
      4. Damocles
        Damocles
        lol, Steph!

        @aura's gonna kill me!

        Also yes, sorry for this Stacken XD
        Jul 29, 2021
      5. Steph1710
        Steph1710
        @Damocles don’t worry @aura is good at sharing.

        Right, I’ll stop hijacking the thread now.

        @Damocles you should jump in on the ‘chit chat and all that thread.’ ;)
        Jul 29, 2021
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    20. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      My auditory threshold has gone completely bonkers due to over-protection. Everything sounds SO much louder. Auditory gain turned to 11...
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      2. Christiaan
        Christiaan
        I'm really sorry to read about your recent struggle @Stacken77 and I hope you'll get better soon. There's always a chance that it can spike and then lower to its previous level. Although my cause was different, I too had something like that a month ago with my H and it got better. Fingers crossed it will go the same way for you
        Jul 20, 2021
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      3. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        Thank you @Christiaan, your messages are always encouraging. I maintain a careful optimism that this will settle to a better place, some day, but it's undoubtedly a rough ride.
        Jul 20, 2021
      4. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        Thank you @PortugalTheMan. Yes, I will most likely utilize hearing protection in day to day business for the rest of my life, but let me tell you; to the extent I've been doing now has not been healthy for me at least.
        Jul 20, 2021
    21. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      Just had a friend over for some coffee and a very quiet game of chess. Made my day. The small things makes all the difference.
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      3. Christiaan
        Christiaan
        Not a lot in my life, TBH Stacken. And I surely think you would kick my ass if we ever decide to play a game of chess:) I was actually one of those guys who rather played RTS games like command & Conquer, Rome: Total War and Cossacks in my younger years. Those were really the good old days. Were or are you also into those games btw?
        Jul 15, 2021
      4. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        @Christiaan I really like RTS, it's pretty much a favourite genre of mine, although it's been mostly limited to the Age Of Empires franchise. :)
        Jul 16, 2021
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      5. Christiaan
        Christiaan
        @Stacken77 I understand that completely. Who wouldn't want to chill with some nice AoE. It's so addictive:) Anyhow, I really do hope your hyperacusis settles down a bit. That stuff can be nasty at times.
        Jul 17, 2021
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    22. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      Got referred to a great ENT that listen and believes my experiences. Although there's not much to do, I admire her determination to help me.
      1. starrynights
        starrynights
        That determination and willingness to help someone makes all the different imo :)
        Jul 6, 2021
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    23. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      I'll be taking some time off from the forum. I'll give an update if I improve or worsen. I wish you all the speediest of recoveries.
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      2. convolution
        convolution
        Take care!
        Jul 3, 2021
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      3. Christiaan
        Christiaan
        You too @Stacken77 . All the best and hopefully your t&h will subside as time passes:)
        Jul 3, 2021
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    24. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      Anybody else having a hard time getting to sleep due to body sounds waking you up as you doze off? Is it the bad loudness hyperacusis??
      1. Lynny
        Lynny
        I can't really hear any (other) body sounds over my t and the fan on low, but I do get woken up violently whenever my t changes even slightly
        Jun 30, 2021
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    25. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      Ordered a bunch of Japanese 80's City Pop knowing I'll not be able to listen to it anytime soon but (hopefully) one beautiful day, I will...
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      2. danielthor
        danielthor
        Good, keep buying! I’m buying a bunch of vinyls each month. It’s to let my brain know that this won’t be forever
        Jun 28, 2021
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      3. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        Thanks @kuromi. Yeah, it brought a lot of joy, even before tinnitus. I really like Tatsuro Yamashita, Anri, Tomoko Aran and Kingo Hamada, to name a few.
        Jun 28, 2021
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      4. kuromi
        kuromi
        @Stacken77 I wish we had met in better circumstances, because I'm sure I would have loved your taste in music, lol. Those are some of my favourite artists too.
        Jun 28, 2021
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    26. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      Happy midsummer y'all, from your fellow Swede.
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    27. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      TTTS from my own voice has improved significantly. Higher frequencies still cause violent spasms.
      1. convolution
        convolution
        I think mine somehow improved too.
        Jun 25, 2021
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      2. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        I'd like to add that it has improved because I'm forced to talk to my coworkers at my new job. I still spike violently though, but I'm hoping that it will settle eventually.
        Jun 25, 2021
    28. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      You had me at my thousandth spike <3
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    29. Stacken77
      Stacken77
      @Charburchar Regarding foam earplugs; I really recommend 3M 1100. They're comfy and perform well. A pack of 200 pairs last for a while.
      1. Charburchar
        Charburchar
        Thanks for recommendation just purchased some :)
        Jun 23, 2021
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    30. kuromi
      kuromi
      Hey there. @Stacken77 I've read some of your posts recently and I want you to know that your posts and general attitude has really helped me recently. I got tinnitus around the same time as you, and I've been reading your posts recently for guidance and advice during some difficult times. I just wanted to thank you for contributing to the forum.
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      2. Stacken77
        Stacken77
        Wow, I've never thought that my posts were of much value to others! Thank you @kuromi! I'm having a pretty rough time actually, and struggling a lot, but I have hope for better days. Really happy for your improvements, take care of yourself. :)
        Jun 22, 2021
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      3. kuromi
        kuromi
        @Stacken77 I've seen that you've been struggling recently, and I know this doesn't mean much - but I believe in you, and I know things will get better. Just take it one day at a time. And thank you, I'm very grateful for my improvements. Have a good day. :)
        Jun 22, 2021
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  • About

    Gender:
    Male
    Location:
    Sweden
    Occupation:
    IT System Management / Scripting programmer
    Tinnitus Since:
    10/2020
    Cause of Tinnitus:
    Noise (likely headphones & cars), Acoustic trauma did me in
    About my tinnitus (08/04/2021)
    Acquired through an acoustic trauma, October 2020. Ran a 4-stroke engine without hearing protection for a few minutes, threw some stuff at the dumpster and blew some stuff with a compressor. Hearing felt sensitive that evening and the day after I woke up with a clear ringing tone in my right ear. I also got hyperacusis; dishes were highly uncomfortable to handle.

    The following 3 months, my tinnitus improved slightly, I habituated, and hyperacusis resolved.

    Because of a spike, I became highly anxious and started to severely over-protect, sound depriving myself for the majority of hours. My tinnitus is now worse, extremely reactive(i.e. it gets louder in response to almost any noise), and my hyperacusis is a lot worse. Along that road I walk, hopefully I'll see improvements in the months ahead.

    About me
    Recently graduated with a bachelors degree in Software Engineering. Really likes reading, although it has become harder due to tinnitus. Christ is still on the throne, despite this hell.