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Sitting in silence, still getting pain. This is ridiculous. Jun 14, 2024 at 2:17 AM

    1. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Sitting in silence, still getting pain. This is ridiculous.
      1. Sansa and L along the way like this.
    2. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Why does sound have to cause pain. This is a nightmare. Just want to wake up
    3. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Just keeps getting, worse. No way to isclolate when you have a small child. It's just a waiting game till i get worse can't cope atall as is
    4. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Fuck myself for not having th guts to kill myself. Fuck having no fucking life for 10 years, fuck not having a future. Fuck off
      1. 4Grace, tpj, Sansa and 2 others like this.
    5. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Fuck this, fuck everyone, fuck no one giving a shit about N/H, fuck people complaining who don't, fuck researchers taking forever,
      1. 4Grace, tpj, Sansa and 2 others like this.
    6. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      I really don't have long at this rate. I'm sure as shit not isolating long term again. I'd rather fcking die
      1. 4Grace and Sansa like this.
    7. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      So suicidal, this is awful. I just want to be how I was before the hyperacusis/Noxacusis worsening.
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      3. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        Jun 10, 2024 at 7:29 PM
      4. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        @cullenbohannon, I'm trying too. Cheers man. Lol might be alive forever at that rate.
        Jun 10, 2024 at 7:30 PM
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      5. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        @BB23 I stupidly took my diabetes meds to test if I could without pain, and did some gardening with double protection.
        Jun 10, 2024 at 7:31 PM
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    8. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Why is no-one giving a shit about H/N, there is literally nothing coming for it. No reaserch, fuck this world
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      3. Jenny_S
        Jenny_S
        Hope you and all of us on here see some real improvements in our own ear health and in research and treatment.
        Jun 11, 2024 at 11:34 PM
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      4. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        I don't see any hope tbh. Little to no reaserching is being done. Most here don't have Nox. I'm really losing my will atm
        Jun 12, 2024 at 2:23 AM
      5. 4Grace
        4Grace
        @utdman89 went to emergency last week told them I have Nox need to be careful then they stick a loud beeping thermometer in my ear. Rip of the heart rate arm band. They look at you like your a mental patient. Not one of them heard of this condition. Nox is hell on ear.
        Jun 14, 2024 at 2:08 AM
    9. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Why does my symptoms keep stacking up, T then H then VSS then N. What did i do so wrong
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    10. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Been in pain all week all day. This is scaring the shit out of me.
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      2. 4Grace
        4Grace
        I feel your posts. I’m missing out on life. I don’t know how much of this I can take
        Jun 14, 2024 at 2:09 AM
    11. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Nox is no joke, worsing by the day. All I was trying todo was manage my health.
      1. _Shoto_, beefling, BB23 and 3 others like this.
      2. RunningMan
        RunningMan
        Some people have suggested ginger tea. Also avoid sounds that trigger it. You said it was mild in a post very recently, so you don't want your condition to worsen like so many others.
        Jun 6, 2024
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      3. BlueMoon86
        BlueMoon86
        I can't even imagine what nox must be like. I am seriously not well over just loud tinnitus and I need to have constant sound around just to stay sane. For noises to physically hurt is another level. I think functioning ears are the lynchpin of the human body at this point.
        Jun 6, 2024
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      4. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        It's like a never ending nightmare.
        Jun 6, 2024
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    12. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      I'm gunna come off here for the foreseeable , if I'm even Around much longer. serval people feel I should be banned so congratulation.
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      2. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        @RunningMan . You don't even have nox you absolute clown of a man! How can you say you're worse. You literally can do more things than i can because of my symptoms, you're so deluded,Mild cases like yourself shouldn't really be trying to bring worse cases down, But that's what you enjoy and scaring newbies.
        Jun 4, 2024
      3. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        I never said my T is mild, must be that lack of sleep from all that fear messing with you. I have severe T and severe H, and my Nox is mild as in that moment! Dumbarse. I also have moderate VSS, But I don't expect a mild case like you to understand. I have to isclolate and can't take meds. I honestly think you wouldn't know what severe is. Maybe get ChatGPT to explain it to you?
        Jun 4, 2024
      4. RunningMan
        RunningMan
        I would put that negative mindset aside and try to have a more positive attitude and not be so rude to other members on Tinnitus Talk. I think the biggest issue for you isn't the mild T itself, but your reaction to it, always making threats to end it and not come back. I suggest seeking professional help to address the mental aspect. Good luck, we're all rooting for you.
        Jun 4, 2024
    13. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      0 quilty of life left. Just a matter of time
      1. MiaVIL and BlueMoon86 like this.
      2. AfroSnowman
        AfroSnowman
        Go see someone, see if they can’t help coping with this just a touch more tolerable. Sorry man, I know this is crazy hard.
        May 22, 2024
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      3. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        @AfroSnowman, I've been on a waiting list to see someone for 3 months now. Crazy long waiting times in the UK. Cheers dude.
        May 22, 2024
      4. crescentsky
        crescentsky
        dreadful wait to the end. everyday I walk out my door hoping someone/something ends me.
        May 22, 2024
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    14. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      If you can leave the house, work, play sport, socialise, take meds, upkeep your home, look after your kids, you're not as bad as you think
      1. MiaVIL, Heal82, _Shoto_ and 4 others like this.
      2. 4Grace
        4Grace
        Actually you are not bad at all if this is the case
        Jun 4, 2024
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      3. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        There are many who say they are though and can do all of these things
        Jun 6, 2024
    15. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      It actually sounds like a mental illness.
    16. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Imagine being in your 50s and coming on to a forum to bring people down, to try and ruin people's hope
    17. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Don't get it
    18. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      I look at my 2yo and think I want to be here for you, but I want to end it for me. I dunno why I even bother on here. There is nout and most
      1. L along the way and _Shoto_ like this.
      2. Note
        Note
        My daughter turns 2yo in a few months. Stay strong!
        May 16, 2024
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    19. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Even though they have it far less aggressive and can still live, what am I going todo
    20. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      It's just constant suffering for 18 months, you come on here for hope but have the same few who want to drag you down.
      1. L along the way and _Shoto_ like this.
    21. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      I'm a shadow, with nothing coming I'm sure it's close, I'm not like others who jump from one feeling to the next as they have rest bites
    22. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      My quality of life is hitting rock bottom. Then you got an absolute arsehole arguing with you for no reason other than his fragile ego
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      3. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        Where did we argue? Lol
        May 16, 2024
      4. kingsfan
        kingsfan
        I know that I wrote in some agreement with the person you have been arguing with. I try to be neutral and not argumentative, but I just wanted to, you know, apologize if I came off that way. I only have my own internal perception of myself that may or may not align with how the outside world views me.
        May 16, 2024
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      5. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        The person I'm arguing with likes to bring people down. But it's your choice who you agree with. No worries.
        May 16, 2024
    23. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      What thr fuck am I actually going to do. I want to end my life, but I look at my son and it breaks my heart. The suffering is endless
      1. _Shoto_ and L along the way like this.
    24. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      It sucks reading others who get better, as they have tinnitus and not hyperacusis or noxacusis or VSS, I don't see myself getting better.
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      2. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        I'm not saying it isn't, but H and N are way worse. Literally can't do anything. And then VSS on top so I feel like I'm losing my mind.
        May 15, 2024
      3. Higo
        Higo
        I've read a few success stories about hyperacusis, I'm sure you'll get there too.
        May 15, 2024
      4. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        I dunno mate. I keep getting new symptoms. I just can't catch a break
        May 15, 2024
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    25. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      So many of the same people chatting shit.. driving me crazy
    26. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Honestly can't see me surviving much longer. This eye shit is horrible on top of the hyperacusis with tinnitus aswell, what isnthr point
    27. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Health is wealth ...and I'm broke
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    28. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      I'm now getting dizzy spells. This is awful, wtf is going on
      1. Pinhead
        Pinhead
        Have you been checked for Meniere's?
        May 7, 2024
      2. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        I haven't no
        May 16, 2024
    29. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      God what I'd do to just have my old T back and mild VS
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      2. kyscrivens
        kyscrivens
        Oh okay, I just saw you say you want your old T back. What did you get yours from?
        May 5, 2024
      3. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        I meant I want my old T back as in that was all that I was suffering with then, I'm not 100% sure tbh.
        May 5, 2024
      4. Utdmad89
        Utdmad89
        Could be noise trauma, or loads if different meds I've been on. Or a steriod spray the docs gave me for a blocked middle ear. Or all of the above lol
        May 5, 2024
    30. Utdmad89
      Utdmad89
      Just shouting into the void.
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    Gender:
    Male
    Location:
    United Kingdom
    Occupation:
    Homemaker
    Tinnitus Since:
    2018
    Cause of Tinnitus:
    Not sure