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I look up to the little bird That glides across the sky He sings the clearest melody It makes me want to cry Jun 23, 2017 at 8:31 PM

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    1. vermillion
      vermillion
      I look up to the little bird That glides across the sky He sings the clearest melody It makes me want to cry
    2. vermillion
      vermillion
      My tinnitus starts getting reactive...
    3. vermillion
      vermillion
      'Maladaptive plasticity'. We've been fucked by our own brains thus we've been fucked by ourselves.
      1. Jake007
        Jake007
        Yes we have lol
        May 31, 2017
    4. vermillion
      vermillion
      Still very down. I can't see any future.
    5. vermillion
      vermillion
      There's a loud party next door. Yeahhhh! Bring it on b.....ch!
    6. vermillion
      vermillion
      Went to the park, sat on a bench, burst into tears. Feeling trapped in my body.
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      3. RonnieCarzatto
        RonnieCarzatto
        Neither do I, but I'm resigned to letting it become a part of me.
        May 7, 2017
      4. Candy
        Candy
        Been there, done that. Early days, you are still mourning the old life. But there will be a future, you will find a way. x
        May 7, 2017
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      5. vermillion
        vermillion
        May 7, 2017
    7. vermillion
      vermillion
      Where could i refer to sell my soul to the devil?
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      3. vermillion
        vermillion
        @stacey How are you doin? How's life in the noisy NYC. One year ago i remember the feeling of visiting this place for the first time. It was a childhood dream. I remember the view as the bus was approaching the city. All this skyscrapers' landscape. Couldn't believe i was there... I was happy back then. Pure happiness. What a feeling...
        May 6, 2017
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      4. stacey
        stacey
        Not good since it's so loud out here, I used to love NYC before my T and H, now I hate it.
        May 8, 2017
      5. vermillion
        vermillion
        I'm so sorry to read this @stacey. Didn't know you had H as well.
        May 8, 2017
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    8. DarrenM21
      DarrenM21
      Sorry man. I'm still new to this site and I can't find a reply button to message you back.
      1. DarrenM21
        DarrenM21
        Still not working. I can reply to the introduction message from the staff. But for some reason I can't to you. Do you have your replies to followers only? :P
        May 1, 2017
      2. vermillion
        vermillion
        @DarrenM21 No, not at all. That's weird. I checked my privacy settings. They all seem right. I never had issues before.
        May 1, 2017
    9. vermillion
      vermillion
      I wish I was a bird.
      1. Rubenslash
        Rubenslash
        Yea, I don't understand how we missed that part of evolution.
        Apr 24, 2017
      2. vermillion
        vermillion
        @Rubenslash We've been busy developing our brain. Now it got so complexed to the point we cannot fix it's damages. Well done human race!
        Apr 24, 2017
    10. vermillion
      vermillion
      That which does not kill us makes us stronger. Friedrich Nietzsche
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      2. vermillion
        vermillion
        @RaZaH... i respect and understand. I have no words to say. Feeling any better? You just made me wonder if my "coping strategies" or treatment approaches are already destructive. Please send me links of your music to listen to and try to forget... <3
        Mar 21, 2017
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      3. RaZaH
        RaZaH
        Just kidding , will send music when I make some new stuff .
        Since I got this wonderful condition I have not made much music :)
        Mar 21, 2017
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      4. vermillion
        vermillion
        @RaZaH I'm looking forward to that! Do you have a soundcloud channel? You can compose and i can make a dance piece on your music. How creative T can be :-P Hehe
        Mar 21, 2017
    11. vermillion
      vermillion
      Who knows what's next?
    12. vermillion
      vermillion
      Life's full of surprises... good or bad...
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  • About

    Gender:
    Male
    Tinnitus Since:
    12/2016
    Cause of Tinnitus:
    Unknown
    My name is Antonis. My main profession is dancing/dance instructor. Long story short a personal "orchestra" has penetrated in my head and give performances every second of my life. After visiting countless ENTs and three neurologists, i lost my hopes for finding my cause. There are many possible scenarios. Ototoxicity, music from dancing classes, stress or maybe a combination of the above. Who knows?

    I've done numerous tests. Normal and high frequency audiograms, OAE, tympanometry, 2 MRIs, CT scan and various blood tests. All clean. Hearing is good. Since the onset my T has been progressing. Started one mild tone unilateral, progressed with various noises bilateral. I remember myself when my T went bilateral, started looking up for the condition on the internet. This was when i found this forum which is a great community. I feel the need to connect with people who cope well.

    God bless you all!
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