First week of Audiology

So I've just done week one of Masters. It's so full on. I've been going to bed at 8pm every night and still waking up exhausted. Well, I've been waking up at 3am actually, but that's probably coz I went to bed at 8! We're at uni from 8-6pm every day and then after we're expected to study another 3hrs, which I haven't done even once. Tinnitus is being a real pain. Almost lost it in class today but just made it to the bathroom before I started sobbing. Then I had all "cry eyes" after and was extremely embarrassed. I still don't know how I'm (a) every going to get used to this tinnitus and (b) have enough mental strength to get through the Masters. Everyone else has just done honours in auditory science so they know so much more than me! Me? I'm just and old lady who used to be a Maths teacher. Can't keep up with the youngies! Meanwhile some girl asked me today which high school I went to. I'm like, dude, im almost 36! Haha. Anyway, im tired. I have bad tinnitus. It's never gonna get better. I hate my life. The end. Byyyyyes for now

 

Are you kidding me neenie? 35 for real? I thought you were like 27/28 or something?! You look wayyyyy younger ... No wonder they are asking about your high scool!
Keep it up, you will make it through yous master studies... The first week is always extremely hard, with or without tinnitus, you'll just have to adapt and in a months or something you won't be as exhausted anymore.

 

Shit from your photo I thought you were still in high school!

 

I thought you were way younger too!

And honestly - you are stronger than the T! Doing your masters!!! Imagian how much that would piss your T off - thinking and focusing of something bigger than it!

 

oh my god, 25 maximum i thought!

 

Hi guys!
Yer I'm not sure why I look so young. My sister is 11 years younger than me and whenever we are out everyone assumes I'm the younger sister, haha. My sister doesn't like that much! The weird thing is that I never used to look young for my age. At 20, I looked 20. But then haven't aged a day since. The only thing I can link it to was the fact that I was anorexic from ages 20-34, and all I was eating in a day was 7 strawberries (no idea why i decided 7 was the magic number..). And nothing in my body worked. I never slept. I never ate. I didn't ever have to cut my fingernails coz they didnt grow. My hair didn't grow, at all, for several years. So maybe I just stopped the aging process by not eating, and only just restarted it now? Yer, its not fun looking really young because when I was teaching Maths in highschool it was just a bit awkward because I looked like one of the students, even though I was quite old at the time and then when we had parent/teacher interviews the parents never took me seriously, and neither did the kids! And the other thing that didn't age is my mind. I still talk and act like I'm 2o!

 

Oh yer and also, so this is a photo of me right now. Sorry, no makeup and in my pj's. And I am nearly 36 in this photo

 

Hell I still act 20 and I'm 45

 

well that's at leastwhat my wife says

 

Do you think you could have gotten T from your ED?

 

ha! interesting! maybe i should stop eating again then? haha, nah, its too boring!

 

And nah, i doubt I got tinnitus from anorexia. The only thing that I can think of is that i started a bunch of new meds. But even then, I only have it in one ear, and im assuming ototoxic medication would affect both, so no idea why

 

Boring, and it will kill you!

 

neenie, im a bit worried to be honest seeing that last picture of you...you look a bit sick, pale (but not the kind of pale because you dont wear make-up,but because you dont feel good)tired and exhausted. not healthy at all ;( . nothing like in all the other pictures from better times that you have posted ;( . i tell you this not to offend you obviously, but as a little "wake-up call" for you to care more about your well-beeing..try to do what ever brings joy into your life.

 

Thanks man. Yer, it wasn't my finest photo. I was in fact very tired in that photo. How about this one, this is my 35th birthday. I got a badge that said "35" on it and yayay, I wore it all day!

 

yeees neenie! the last picture-thats it! forget what i told you before .this is how you have to look (again)- healthy and happy!

 

Michela, love your avatar!!!

 

Beautiful inside and outside, and very intelligent to boot. What a woman!

 

Just develop a routine and stick to it and before you know it staying busy and being occupied will help you cope with tinnitus.

 

ha ha, thanks gary! i thought a bit of laughing can not harm people in here!
this is me after my mri scan of my cervical spine, they said everything will be fine when i come out of the mri but as you can see -it was NOT! ha ha ha