My workplace is closed for 2 weeks and I can't work from home. I hope you (we) get through this period well and without too much bother from tinnitus and maybe hyperacusis.
Also, I recently discovered a severe food allergy--gluten--which apparently runs in my family. That means specialty foods and apparently other people with this allergy got to the grocery store before me. If only my dh wasn't in denial of this crisis we could have gone shopping sooner.
Sorry, gotta vent: I've got special food needs and I asked the POS to take me to a market again today and he went into another rage complete with bellowing and name-calling. Finally he says he'll take me "when he's ready." Well, he's chilling out in front of his beloved TV. Who knows when he'll decide he's ready. I want to go back in time before I got married and beat some sense into my younger self.
Again, sorry for using this to vent but I'm so upset. I waited two and a half hours before asking him again. He's just watching tv. Now he's screaming and calling me horrible names and saying now I will have to wait even longer to go. I have hated him for years but my hatred of him has gone through the roof now.
The things he says to me are so vile I can't use the words here. For years he's been breaking me down into this puddle of self-loathing that I am today. If not for mental illness and poverty I would have left him. I try not to anger him but that's impossible. The simplest things I say bring on rages that no one would believe. I wish I had a secret recording device.
People in the outside world think he's interesting & charming but behind closed doors he's a monster. I hate him with every fiber of my being and I am trapped with the POS for the rest of my life.
Oh dear @SugarMagnolia - I'm so sorry to hear about your situation, nobody deserves to live with such a mentally abusive husband, and especially not you who got your own problems to deal with :( is it possible for you to leave him?
Can you go to some local crisis center for woman in abusive relationships and get help......does such a thing exist where you are? You shouldnt just take this mental violence, it will destroy you eventually......your much better of without him.
I am sorry that’s happening to you. I really don’t know what else to say, but I am really truly sorry. Here if you need to vent more. Sending *internet hugs*
@TheDanishGirl I have OCD. I'm afraid to leave my home. I'm afraid of people. I'm afraid of dozens of ordinary things in the world. When you say "crisis shelter" I hear "place of horror."
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