Holly1987

Hey Holly! Always here for you girl. How are you?? I just had to go to the eye doctor yesterday as I was experiencing double vision...thought it was maybe because of the new medication, but he does not think so... suxz getting old...lol

Sorry @OnceUponaTime I just saw this, how did your eyes go?

New glasses.. but still I get the double vision. Just have to take breaks in between reading....How are you Holly??

I did get a bus one time, that was a real highlight in my voting journey.

Voting is kind of addictive, hitting the vote button is so satisfying. I feel like I'm actually doing something that might help.

I hope we can keep that spirit up and focus on other projects as a community after the competition! :)

And emojis! Plus, I want other reactions than just Like. If someone is having a crappy day and posts that as a status, I want to be able to Hug or something else supportive.

Me too.

Oh my gosh that is awful, so sorry to hear that :(

I agree. I find about 98% of them cringe-worthy, but there are sometimes 1 or 2 I like.

Everybody in my country must sort/recycle their waste/garbage, and all danish households got this small green bucket a little while ago, that is only for food waste. Yesterday a danish fashion magazine had an acrticle that stated that this bucket was the IT-item for spring/summer, and I actually feel for it!! And then I had a good laugh......the fashion world is crazy enough, so it could have been for real.

I like that this magazine had the balls to take piss on the very industry that they represent. It was quite humorous.

I often find it interesting that people who engage in behaviour we find abhorrent in real life often make for people we find captivating in fiction. Take Don, for example. He's a serial cheater who hides things from his loved ones. You wouldn't want to be with him in real life, bu in fiction, we find him a captivating protagonist.

Because they're flawed, and therefore more like us.

Flawed people can be the most interesting, we realise with age. I think Don’s bad behaviour is meant to be a function of his inner turmoil as he’s also portrayed as kind/moral and remorseful.

About 7 years ago, my employer wanted us to have a team day out at the local zoo. My team couldn't possibly understand that I didn't want to go to the animal prison. I absolutely hate zoos for this reason.

I hate them too, it's so depressing.

One of my old flatmates went to the same zoo on MDMA. He said he could feel the animals' sadness. Fuuuuuuck that.

I compare mine to what I’d like to lose the most...T, depression or obsessive compulsive disorder. Having the 3 just feed each other.

I wouldn't sacrifice a whole limb, but definitely a finger or two.

el mismo pensamiento tengo yo tambien daria un brazo a cambio del tinnitus

Possibly fleeting t...or an LED light bulb. I thought I had a new tone from an LED bulb last week. Glad it's gone!

It hasn't returned but when it happened I started sweating and shaking, I felt like physically getting up and running away from it. Tinnitus is such a tormentor, nothing scares me more tbh.

I agree. It's scary because it's so unknown. I'm hoping with time I'll learn what to expect and always be cautious in noisy surroundings.

Are you on any drugs? Some can be killer for weight gain. My fast metabolism is gone since nortriptyline for pain

Holly you can do this! And I am sure you are a beautiful lady inside and out. :) I'd love to see your wedding pics.

@Agrajag364 no drugs, I just love food lol x

Most definitely not. I've seen a lot of people say he was probably gay and in denial. I think that's a possible source for his displeasure with his place in human society.

How sad :(

This is the song at the end, I like it
https://youtu.be/BPl6-dbIkiU

Check out this video on YouTube called bear sits next to guy https://youtu.be/rbE53XUtVw0 . For what it's worth I'm a firm believer in letting nature be. They're called 'wild' animals for a reason.

Holly I haven't seen any posts about this. Does that mean things worked out ok?

@New Guy thanks for checking, everything is fine, no spike! I feel a bit embarrassed I was so hysterical tbh :( it really scared me. Never again!!

Good to hear Holly.

usually 3-5 decibels higher than a professional db meter. But it also depends on the phone.

I do it in silence in my garage so it's not noise related.

Yes. The spike subsides tho.

That's so weird, I have the exact same thing! And only since acoustic trauma.

I don't get sore ears but wind noise is absolutely unbearable. It just sounds so damaging even if I'm just walking lol.

And I have had the some thought, that if I get to old age I will say fuck it and go to loud events all the time......even if T gets worse I will only have to endure it a shorter time period.

I feel you. I ventured out and decided to listen to music/sing a bit last night. It wasn't even for 30 minutes and my volume was at 3-4 bars, but my T was screaming after.... Can we not even enjoy life? :(

Dont we all!?

@Drone Draper can you simply buy that poison somewhere? I’m curious...

Yup. The finality of the euthanasia option would work well for me in this instance. I can probably manage what I have now for the rest of my life, but a sudden surge to the hell that Bam or dpdx describes is more pain than I could live with.

Interesting... I’m glad you’re doing better :). Let’s hope neuromod releases their device sooner than expected!

It's only taken me 2 years to figure this out but stress related spikes (so far) always go away after approx 3 days.

....he never writes - never phones...?

I have never used avocado! Does it make it creamy?

Not really. You really don't notice it is even in the mix.

I don't make them and rarely drink but chocolate, ice cream and avocado is bizarrely so good.

I've seen a few people on this forum say their partner left them. It's pretty terrible. This condition is one of the worst things I could imagine.

It is hard to maintain a relationship, especially if your partner doesn’t understand or care.

I feel like if my girlfriend dumps me, I will need to meet someone on a tinnitus dating site.

"I enjoy peaceful mornings, campfires, rain and fans. I also enjoy bi-modal stimulation and would like to have someone to share my time sitting still with a thing stuck to my tongue".

A flacon of antibacterial gel can be helpful ;)

You not down with the earmuffs outside life? I have decided I will wear earmuffs at in the street and public spaces except work for a while and see how I get on.

I always wear my x5a's in public facilities just in case.

And @Hazel !

Great you found it on Spotify - just posted about that in the Episode 1 thread in the Podcast category here on TT.

Thank you for the kind words holly!

Oh also I hope it doesn't sound like I'm minimizing mild tinnitus, it can be just as debilitating for some. I've just had it a while now so I am coping better.

I've noticed the t in my head gets louder before a quiet spell as well. I wonder why it works like that?

It's so weird!

@SugarMagnolia - so true that there are "fates worse then death" - there are many illnesses and conditions, severe T with H included, where I would certaintly prefer death. Death is not something I am to scared of......suffering endlessly is!

@SugarMagnolia spot on.

Absolute nonsense.

"Although not life threatening, tinnitus can ruin your ability to sleep and concentrate for life, akin to Chinese audio torture. In addition, it is a known cause for suicide".