John Doe

my T is the loudest thing in the room right now.

be good to others. it's all we can do

passed my 2-year mark a couple of months ago. feels like I had this for a lot longer

>_>

k logging off. bye for now

hey

first I get anxious, then nauseous, then anxious that I'm nauseous.

I could just scream, like really loud. bust up my vocal cords. and my ears.

finally re-acquainted with a song i haven't heard since I was really young. of course it's a depressive Linkin Park track >_>

I wish I didn't go to bed so early. now I'm wide awake my T is mad loud against the quiet of 3am

my ideal future is one where hearing can be regenerated

I hope to be happy someday. and for anyone else who isn't there yet themselves to be happy.

almost 19 months later, the noise hasn't let up.

it's the 'little things' that build up & wear you down

misplaced my good earplugs.... u_u

idk what to do

It sucks to have multiple bad dreams in a single night.

I want my hearing back

I followed frequency and decibel therapeutics on my linkedin like a good adult.

alone and sober on my 21st

:/

whenever I'm really stressed, my T mocks me by getting louder. it's like how in cartoons anger is represented w/ a whistling kettle noise.

not all right

getting worse!

we suffer together

constant discomfort and unease and uncertainty that it could get worse :/

Losing my hearing is inevitable. This noise will go on forever.

UFC last night was nuts.

not to be edgy but, living is enduring the death process.

People also scoff when I say I don't plan on drinking. That could induce vomiting- of which I'm phobic-and louder T, perhaps.