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I just can’t get out of fight or flight. Can’t believe this is happening again. Oct 4, 2023

1. SharonBell
  So do you hear yours in your head?
  
  Oct 16, 2023
  2. spedgas
    Yes, top center of head
    
    Oct 16, 2023
    
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  3. SharonBell
    Do you have hearing loss? I do in both ears. Mine buzzes-static 24/7. It’s debilitating.
    
    Oct 16, 2023
    
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  4. SharonBell
    Spedgas what kind of noise does yours head make?
    
    Jan 4, 2024
2. spedgas
  I just can’t get out of fight or flight. Can’t believe this is happening again.
  
  Oct 4, 2023
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3. spedgas
  Taking a break from the site. Focusing too much on the negative. Can’t go much lower. Two hours crying in the shower did me in.
  
  Oct 1, 2023
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  2. BrOKeN_1
    Hopefully bottomed out and only up from here. Fingers crossed better days ahead.
    
    Oct 1, 2023
    
    SarahMLFlemmer and tpj like this.
  3. SarahMLFlemmer
    Dang, I've been there.
    
    Oct 2, 2023
  4. SarahMLFlemmer
    ❤️
    
    Oct 2, 2023
4. spedgas
  Insanely loud, unmaskable, I’m in trouble here. Scared of what I’m capable of. Simply not compatible with life. I’m not going to make it.
  
  Sep 27, 2023
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  2. Tryn2BHopeful
    Can't mask either, I find nature sounds help. I use the Resound app on my phone. I like the underwater sounds
    
    Sep 28, 2023
5. spedgas
  Any attempt to mask met with louder tinnitus. WTF, why does this happen? Why would it get louder than the masking source? I’m fading fast
  
  Sep 24, 2023
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  3. Tryn2BHopeful
    @spedgas I know I have far less experience than most. I can say that while the reactivity hasn't gone away it has improved very slowly, that or I can deal with it better.
    
    Sep 24, 2023
    
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  4. spedgas
    @Tryn2BHopeful Yeah, I’ve had this reactivity before and had it completely disappear. Took forever(years). Couldn’t even watch tv. Was completely habituated and now back to this again. Worried it won’t improve again. I appreciate the support and reminder it can improve.
    
    Sep 24, 2023
    
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  5. SharonBell
    AnthonyMcDonald I don’t think I could make it if I didn’t mask so I’m not sure that I will habituate. My whole head buzzes electricity and sometimes sizzles so I’m not sure how I could put it in the back or however it is when you habituate.
    
    Jan 5, 2024
6. spedgas
  21 hours of therapy a week,all I think about is dying. I habituated very well before. Not sure why it feels impossible to do it again.
  
  Sep 20, 2023
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  3. spedgas
    I have a ritualistic pre-bed routine that helps calm things down.
    
    Sep 28, 2023
    
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  4. Juliane
    @spedgas I am relieved to hear you are getting some sleep. That is so important
    
    Oct 1, 2023
  5. SharonBell
    I use to not sleep good before and then I got in a routine with a certain bedtime, but when my daughter was out of school I was staying up late watching movies which I couldn’t ever do before and now I’ve got to get back use to going to bed at a decent time so I can get up and take my daughter to school.
    
    Jan 5, 2024
7. spedgas
  4 week spike. It's shaken me to core. Didn't need them before, but probably resorting to drugs. Almost ashamed to admit. Probably Buspar
  
  Sep 19, 2023
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  3. kingsfan
    @spedgas Yes always subsides. I'm very careful to very slowly taper up and taper down.
    
    @BrOKeN_1 I haven't tried that one yet. My psychiatrist recommended it, so it should be easy for me to get access.
    
    Sep 19, 2023
    
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  4. Mo8409
    Busphar caused my T in the first place!
    
    Sep 28, 2023
    
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  5. spedgas
    @Mo8409 This is my concern. Worsening more due to buspar and it not going away when I stop. Driving me nuts. Scared, but getting desperate.
    
    Sep 28, 2023
    
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8. Daniel Lion
  So sorry friend, hang tight and see if the spike disapates. Maybe take a sedative for temporaryv relief,. Prsyng for you
  
  Sep 14, 2023
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  2. spedgas
    @Daniel Lion Thank you sir. I hope you’re hanging in there and doing well. You’ve offered me helpful words before and I continue to think of you from time to time.
    
    Sep 28, 2023
9. spedgas
  Wife and kids only thing keeping me from suicide.Wondering how long that’s going to last. I’m done. I had this all figured out once, gone.
  
  Sep 13, 2023
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  2. BrOKeN_1
    Sry to hear your at a low point agian. I hope you get back on top soon. It certainly can be hard to manage. Family Def keeps me going as well.
    
    Sep 14, 2023
    
    Kabitz, Strawberryblonde, tpj and 1 other person like this.
  3. spedgas
    I just want to get back to where I was. Not cured, but darn close. Thoughts of spending years to get back there are breaking me. If it’s even possible.
    
    Sep 14, 2023
  4. SarahMLFlemmer
    Hang in there. I'm so sorry.
    
    Sep 28, 2023
10. spedgas
  From level 4 natural habituation(lost overnight) to nearly 4 week spike post COVID, meds being tossed at me by everyone, drowning in sorrow
  
  Sep 12, 2023
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  2. Utdmad89
    How did you get T to start with?
    
    Sep 12, 2023
  3. SarahMLFlemmer
    Dang.
    
    Sep 13, 2023
  4. SharonBell
    Sledges Im so sorry. I had Covid in 2021 and 2022 and had tinnitus both times just ringing in ears at night and it went away. I think that’s how I got mine and I had a very bad virus in January 2023 also. So I think all that affected my hearing and got Tinnitus again just debilitating this time, I havnt been able to work since August and I’m so scared of getting Covid because of it making my tinnitus worse.
    
    Jan 5, 2024
11. spedgas
  I haven’t had a setback like this since I first got tinnitus. I don’t know what to do.
  
  Aug 27, 2023
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  3. gameover
    I've not researched it heavily, but seems Covid induced T tends to go away, so hopefully some applies to spikes. Seems you made a tremendous progress previously, there is hope...
    
    Aug 28, 2023
    
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  4. spedgas
    It’s only been about 10 days. Have been experiencing lots of anxiety and stress around other aspects of life. May be contributing as well. Tons of anxiety just from getting Covid as well. Spike didn’t start until 10 days after positive test.
    
    Aug 28, 2023
  5. spedgas
    I just want to get back to where I was. Not perfect, but it was good enough.
    
    Aug 28, 2023
    
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12. spedgas
  I need help. This post COVID spike has driven me to the edge. From habituation to this overnight. I’m so lost and just want to end things.
  
  Aug 27, 2023
  2. SarahMLFlemmer
    Hang in there. One day, one moment, one second at a time.
    
    Aug 28, 2023
13. spedgas
  Lost 5 years of progress to habituation due to COVID. I don’t know if I can go through this again. Life was back on track. Gone
  
  Aug 23, 2023
  2. SharonBell
    What caused your tinnitus to start with was it Covid?
    
    Jan 5, 2024
14. spedgas
  Finally got COVID for the first time. Tinnitus is currently worse. Not sure if it’s the COVID or me worrying about it. Scared.
  
  Aug 20, 2023
15. spedgas
  First time I’ve needed antibiotics since tinnitus started. Probably over worried, but fingers crossed.
  
  Nov 17, 2022
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16. spedgas
  Sitting in dentist parking lot. Going in for some overdue work. Terrified since T started 6 days after last time I had work done.
  
  Jul 7, 2022
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17. spedgas
  Didn’t hear my tinnitus even once today. I’m sure it’s still there, but I’m not going to look for it.
  
  Jul 23, 2021
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  2. PortugalTheMan
    it's great that it stays that way. very well
    
    Jul 23, 2021
    
    sakrt, Steph1710 and aot like this.
  3. buttercake
    Small victories are victories!
    
    Jul 23, 2021
    
    sakrt, Steph1710, Christiaan and 1 other person like this.
  4. Mister Muso
    That would be a huge victory for me. Gives us all hope!
    
    Jul 26, 2021
    
    Kabitz and sakrt like this.
18. Drachen
  Hey there. Thanks for the follow! I haven't seen many recent posts from you, but your last two profile updates are fairly positive. Hope things have become only better since then!
  
  Jan 22, 2021
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19. spedgas
  Tinnitus went from center of head to just right ear. Trying to stay calm about this. Seems to be staying this way.
  
  Oct 23, 2020
20. spedgas
  Two years this week. I’ve got undeniable signs of improvement/habituation. Bad days mixed in there, but increasing optimism for the future.
  
  Sep 7, 2020
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21. Paul Hrvat
  Spedgas-
  I'm normally an off-line person, so having trouble navigating this site. Yes Dr. Marsha Johnson was the 1st audiologist I saw. Very good doctor, but not paid by my employer. Now seeing Dr. Maralyn Dennise Martindale Address 9735 Sw Shady Ln Ste 302, ,Tigard Oregon, 97223-5481
  Phone Number 503-227-3668
  Fax Number 503-227-223
  
  Jun 7, 2020
22. spedgas
  Best tinnitus day in 18 months. Hours when I couldn’t hear it, even when looking. Hoping this trend continues.
  
  Apr 22, 2020
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  2. aot
    Congrats!
    
    Apr 22, 2020
    
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  3. Bill Bauer
    Can you hear it in a quiet room (or when you wear earplugs in a quiet room)?
    
    Apr 22, 2020
  4. all to gain
    That's what I call a result! Good luck on continued progress.
    
    Apr 22, 2020
23. spedgas
  I wish I had found this forum earlier. My ignorance in the beginning cost me greatly.
  
  Jan 13, 2020
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  2. OnceUponaTime
    Me 2
    
    Jan 13, 2020
24. spedgas
  Statins and tinnitus. Anybody have thoughts about a possible relationship?
  
  Dec 30, 2019
25. Star64
  I have been waiting 18 years, so I feel your pain
  
  Nov 13, 2019
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26. spedgas
  Becoming convinced the medical/scientific community will never have an answer for this.
  
  Nov 13, 2019
  2. TheDanishGirl
    Never is such a strong word, but sadly I feel deep within that we are a long way from an answer. The brain is super complex and still a mystery in many areas.
    
    Nov 13, 2019
    
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27. Daniel Lion
  A decent week, be great full, your trend is moving in the right direction.
  You can fight this, and you will succeed. You can do this...hugs
  
  Sep 30, 2019
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28. spedgas
  Woke up today to horrible increase after a somewhat decent week. Absolutely no reason for it. I can’t fight this much longer.
  
  Sep 30, 2019
  2. InfiniteLoop
    Live for the good days to come.... Bad days are one of the ugly sides of this condition
    
    Sep 30, 2019
  3. Bill Bauer
    What matters is the monthly trend and the global lows. Setbacks are irrelevant as far as your long term outlook is concerned.
    
    Sep 30, 2019
    
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29. spedgas
  One year today. Things have improved slightly. I question everyday how long I can do this. Faking happiness as much as I can for my family.
  
  Sep 9, 2019
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  2. Daniel Lion
    hope your feeling better
    
    Sep 15, 2019
30. spedgas
  Lingering on first ten days I had this. Didn’t have an understanding of it and don’t think I handled it right. Blew my chance to get better
  
  Jul 30, 2019
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