Happy Birthday, I am very sorry to hear of your struggle, we do not deserve this. I am cautiously optimistic for the future. Hopefully you are getting the H treated if possible.
Thanks for the support, guys. Is this miserable way of living continue? I cannot and will not accept to be miserable for the rest of my life. H worsened to the point where my own voice causes me pain and every sound causes irritation as well, no matter how low in volume.
How can one continue living with this? It will make you loose your job, social life, contacts and will leave you lonely and suffering. Is this what life is all about? Is it really worth it the suffering and isolation? You will be handicapped and not able to do any normal activities.
This is not life, I would better be off than wait and hope for a miracle. Obviously my ear damage is so severe that it took 2 months to get to this point of constant worsening. It is scary and it robs your future entirely.
Every plan that you had is simply wiped out of your mind and your only thought is survival or death. I do not want to just survive the days, I want to live normally and do normal stuff, nothing extraordinary - socialize, go to work, go on vacations, buy a car, an apartment, have kids of my own.
Nothing is going to happen with these conditions. Severe H is much more deliberating than tinnitus. Because it puts you these invisible handcuffs and you can only find your way out if your are lucky enough but lets face it - pain hyperacusis is almost for life. It cannot be treated and you rely only on your luck. I am sorry for everyone that is going through this. No one deserve it, even my worst enemy!!!!!
Happy birthday! You must have hope that better days will come! Is there any friend you can talk to these days? From my experience, socializing is what helps the most. But it is very difficult with hyperacusis...
My dog got run over by a car on my 17th birthday...my Dad died on my 34th birthday and I got screaming tinnitus on my 40th birthday which by the way is groundhogs day (the irony was not lost on me). So, while I wish you a Happy birthday, the truth is that I now avoid everyone and hide out in a 6' deep concrete bunker when my birthday rolls around! Who needs birthdays anyway?
Keep going Freerunner...your suffering is only temporary...you will reach a place of acceptance with it. Believe me, I have had all of the same thoughts as you. But, I habituated once before after 6 horrendous months and I feel it starting to happen again after the last 6 months of being in a very deep dark hole. It's possible to let go of the pain...it just takes time.
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