Comments on Profile Post by Freerunner

Cheer up, bud. Things will change. Just believe in it.

Still,my feeling is that you are somewhat better. Am i right?

@aura I wish I were. I kept on worsening both T and H wise.
I had my cousin at home and spoke for two hours (with earmuffs on) and now LDLs are lower and T is spiked brutally. I also get ear pain from the hyperacusis. I loose hope everyday because I see that there is no improvement.

For first 2.5 months my H improved for low frequency sounds and I was able to go outside with plugs - no problem. Now I am stuck at home. I dont even go to work.

T increased so much that once I wake up it is impossible to go to sleep. It kept on changing constantly during these 4 months and I kept on "habituating" to every new level and sound. Now is just brutal. Super reactive, loud and and crippling H on top. Unfortunately, I am not a good story. At least for now.

So now you're taking Clonazepam and Deanxit?

@aura I am tapering of Clonazepam but will continue with the Deanxit as it has a good effect on my mood.

That's also important,having a better mood. Even if your T and H are bad, accepting them without panicking really helps! I remember having moments with my T screaming in my ear but being calm in the same time.

@Freerunner I had to give up on the idea of ever performing music live again. This has been my passion, career and entire life as far back as I can remember. But, I can either look at it as the end of my life or the beginning of something new.

I’m not done yet on this planet so as painful as it is to let go of everything I know and love, I try to choose every day to move forward into the unknown with the hope that answer to my new path will unveil itself.

You will find your way through the darkness my friend…don’t lose hope.