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lanterns&coffee

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I think it’d be much more rewarding if my T switched to like.. the noise you hear in a seashell or something, but that’s impossible Mar 24, 2024

lanterns&coffee was last seen:: Apr 17, 2024 at 4:17 AM

1. lanterns&coffee
  my friend claims that I research too much. I have raging tinnitus, that has nothing to do with my google symptoms searching. I’m suffering.
  
  Jan 12, 2023
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    @Lurius @Strawberryblonde @MindOverMatter @just1morething thank you for your advice. It really is a hard thing to comprehend, and as much as it’s cliche to admit, I’m too young to be experiencing this disaster, but pain knows no young nor old.
    
    Jan 18, 2023
    
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    To me it’s normal to search my symptoms up for most things because I suffer from hypochondria / health anxiety, and it becomes hard when you have OCD where you just ruminate and ruminate until it tears your brain to absolute pieces.
    
    Jan 18, 2023
    
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    But in the end I might accept it, eventually everything comes to an end and something that I’ve picked up as a coping mechanism is realising we’re all gonna die anyways, I don’t know if that’s even normal but I don’t care because it helps me cope lol. But yeah thank you everyone =)
    
    Jan 18, 2023
    
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  My friend tells me that we shouldn’t hate life but that can only be said when you don’t have tinnitus and don’t suffer 24/7.
  
  Jan 10, 2023
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3. lanterns&coffee
  Will be gone. Everything I dreamed of will be gone. Nothing in this life will be enjoyable. I’ll just rot away in my bedroom and cry.
  
  Jan 10, 2023
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4. lanterns&coffee
  I always seem to encounter a new medical problem. Always. I have so much potential with a lot of things I admit! Everything I wanted (2/3)
  
  Jan 10, 2023
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5. lanterns&coffee
  And I’m terrified I’ll never enjoy life like all those people around me are. I will NEVER have what I wished for in life because (1/3)
  
  Jan 10, 2023
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6. lanterns&coffee
  As if it couldn’t get any worse than this, depression, OCD, anxiety, IEM + a thousand more things
  
  Jan 10, 2023
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7. lanterns&coffee
  I have this horrible fear of my T getting worse, this horrifying image of anxiety attacks 1 after the other, this non-existing will to live.
  
  Jan 10, 2023
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8. lanterns&coffee
  17 and forced to face doom. I hate tinnitus.
  
  Jan 6, 2023
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  3. just1morething
    Sorry you got tinnitus at such a young age. I don’t know how you got it but hope you can get better.
    
    Jan 7, 2023
  4. lanterns&coffee
    @Lurius it’s something I have to force myself to live with for the rest of my life, and no amount of crying or talking abt it would do justice, but this is life and it wasn’t ever promised that I was going to be easy. Maybe time will heal :)
    
    Jan 10, 2023
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    @just1morething its either covid or sound induced, or a mixture of both. Maybe covid made it so so so much worse, and it was mild before that I didn’t even know it existed
    
    Jan 10, 2023
9. lanterns&coffee
  It’s like an inconsistent fire alarm in my right ear right now .. and it only gets louder & louder yikes
  
  Dec 24, 2022
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10. lanterns&coffee
  Randomly got a spike, FULLY convinced it’s because my youngest brother (3 y/o) screams so hard it feels like my eardrums would explode.
  
  Dec 24, 2022
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  Okay maybe I shouldn’t have used headphones, seriously, this is the last time. Just got a deep vibrating hum for a second. On my birthday.
  
  Dec 19, 2022
  2. Lurius
    Happy birthday, Archer :)
    
    Dec 19, 2022
  3. lanterns&coffee
    Woo a late thank ya!!
    
    Dec 24, 2022
12. lanterns&coffee
  And it’s my 17th birthday too woo
  
  Dec 19, 2022
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  2. Guywithapug
    Happy birthday!
    
    Dec 19, 2022
    
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  3. lanterns&coffee
    A late thank u !! :D
    
    Dec 24, 2022
    
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13. lanterns&coffee
  I relapsed and used headphones today for the first time since like a year
  
  Dec 19, 2022
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  Someone explain why I got such a terribly loud spike out of the blue .. it’s so much noticeable right now and I was so sure I habituated ..
  
  Nov 29, 2022
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  2. Lurius
    Probably a coincidence, but it's the chaotic nature of tinnitus. Your brain probably tuned in to it in a much greater degree, it happens to me all the time. I have it just like that today, for example. Try to focus elsehwere, it will lessen in 24-72 hours probably.
    
    Nov 29, 2022
    
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  3. lanterns&coffee
    @Lurius glad someone relates, not the best thing to relate to but thank ya man !
    
    Nov 30, 2022
15. lanterns&coffee
  Honestly letting go of earphones this year has been hard but I’d rather suffer less thank u very much
  
  Nov 19, 2022
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16. lanterns&coffee
  Be pulsatile tinnitus ,,, 3/3
  
  Nov 18, 2022
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  2. lanterns&coffee
    I don’t think so, none of the above sound like it’s happening at the moment. I know for sure that I keep getting spikes on my left ear though (my t is worse on the left). I found out it’s only there during nighttime, so no matter how hard I try to hear it in the daytime it’s not there.
    
    Nov 19, 2022
  3. lanterns&coffee
    Might be that, I didn’t get it last night though. It’s strange
    
    Nov 20, 2022
17. lanterns&coffee
  When I was laying down and I got the onset. I thought it was a change of tone and cursed the devil for that— but I’m terrified it might 2/3
  
  Nov 18, 2022
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  yoohoo it’s me again; yeah, new symptom. What’s this whooshing sound that sounds like a pulse in my right ear ? It started last night 1/3
  
  Nov 18, 2022
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  heya kid, how have ya been holdin up? it's been a bit—didn't expect to see myself back here but decided to check up on ya while i'm around ^^
  
  Nov 16, 2022
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    Yo!!! It’s been a while!! Hope you’ve been doing alright.
    I’m doing okay :) we start senior year headstart next Monday. I came back here because of a new symptom haha
    
    Nov 18, 2022
    
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  I’ve stayed in for 4/5 years, has mentally and psychologically abused me to the extent I developed depression, anxiety, OCD etc. (2/2)
  
  Oct 11, 2022
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  2. Uklawyer
    Can you change? I would put your health above everything else - nothing is more precious.
    
    Oct 11, 2022
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    @Uklawyer thankfully I switched schools this year so the one I’m in is like heaven to me. Ofc it’s hell to those who have already been attending before but I couldn’t have asked for any better than this :) thank you for your concern
    
    Oct 13, 2022
    
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  School is slowly taking my sanity away, they say enjoy Highschool but I’ve been in a private one since year 7. My first one, which (1/2)
  
  Oct 11, 2022
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22. lanterns&coffee
  If I can do 2 port folios, 80 pages annotated from top to bottom with mental illnesses, physical issues and TINNITUS then you can too.
  
  Oct 11, 2022
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  2. Leila
    That's the spirit!
    
    Oct 11, 2022
    
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    @Leila starting to believe everything really IS possible ! :]
    
    Oct 13, 2022
23. lanterns&coffee
  You’ll heal, they said. You’re still 16 they said. :( but I’m still here suffering with this terrible static noise.
  
  Oct 10, 2022
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24. lanterns&coffee
  I think I must’ve caught a cold, but I don’t have a runny nose… I don’t know what’s wrong but I know I’m VERY sick. I can’t really move :(
  
  Oct 6, 2022
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  3. silentnight
    hope you feel better soon!! :<
    
    Oct 6, 2022
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    @silentnight thank you !!!
    @Joe Cuber perhaps, I woke up today and the symptoms got so much worse. Medication didn’t really help
    
    Oct 7, 2022
    
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    @Joe Cuber i didn’t check, but it seemed pretty high. My forehead was steaming hot
    
    Oct 8, 2022
25. lanterns&coffee
  hihi;; vbery sleepy uu .. going to school now. Hope today won’t be a big drag :( (it will)
  
  Oct 5, 2022
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  2. silentnight
    good luck!! <3 you've had to put up with the utter bull**** that is tinnitus so you're way stronger and cooler than all those other kids!! i believe in you!! o/
    
    Oct 6, 2022
    
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    @silentnight thank you ^__^ eheheh
    Headache, think I got sick …
    
    Oct 6, 2022
    
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  Tinnitus is being really loud right now, don’t know how to feel. So much schoolwork, so little time ..
  
  Oct 5, 2022
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  Got told 2 go back 2 my country by the lunch lady. Didn’t bother me until my parents almost threw me out the window for not replying sobsob
  
  Oct 5, 2022
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  People think they can bother me at this time of day and age, sorry to burst your bubble but tinnitus does it worse :handshake:
  
  Oct 3, 2022
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29. lanterns&coffee
  I have an eng sac tomorrow .. I’m going to the doctors 4 a blood test instead ^^;; I can redo the sac as long as I have a medical paper ~
  
  Oct 3, 2022
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  2. silentnight
    hope your results are fine!!! c:
    
    Oct 3, 2022
    
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    @silentnight thank you!! Kinda hoping I have b12 deficiency or anything so it can be the reason for my fatigue, running away from possible CFS (chronic fatigue)
    
    Oct 3, 2022
    
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  OH also ! I went to the farm today and petted a little lamb,, it was so cute :3
  
  Oct 2, 2022
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Gender:

Female

Birthday:

Dec 19, 2005 (Age: 18)

Tinnitus Since:

2022

Cause of Tinnitus:

unknown

☕️ hello!! the names frills or lantern. Despite my name, I’ve never tried coffee before!
I’m a big animal lover & a bookworm. Favourite animals are red pandas & deers! I love the Redwall series by Brian jacques. My favourite quotes are;

“You will find joy, frustration and sorrow in your quest. Never forget that friendship and loyalty are more precious than riches...Happiness can be brief, but it knows no time in the land of dreams.” - Pearls Of Lutra

“Don't be ashamed to weep; 'tis right to grieve. Tears are only water, and flowers, trees, and fruit cannot grow without water. But there must be sunlight also. A wounded heart will heal in time, and when it does, the memory and love of our lost ones is sealed inside to comfort us.” - Taggerung

i also play both rhythm & otome games! Some of my favourite otomes are obey me & ikemen prince. Some of my other favourites which I don’t play but watch are; cafe enchante, collar x malice & piofiore.
I play arcaea, phigros, cytus II, enstars, arb (hypmic), bsts (blackstar) c more !! Most of these are set on high speeds ^_^
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