We went out to lunch to a restaurant that wasn’t loud, but had music playing in the background and people talking. We later visited my sister and her kids for a couple hours. Then came home and played a card game in my quiet living room where a lot a laughter took place and fun memories were discussed. No protection used at any point..
Today, my T is no worse than it would be if I was by myself yesterday on my quiet home, hyper focused on T and ruminating in my negative feedback loops and depression. And actually in some small aspects, it’s more manageable today than a few days ago…
Yesterday taught me a lot. First, I seem to be very blessed to have resetting T/T not permanently spiked by moderate level sounds. But even more so, I learned my mental state is so much of this. I need to distract myself, I need to try to inch towards some normalcy, I need to stop letting this run me/my life to the extent that it does if I don’t need it to…
Still take precautions and make “sound” decisions, but it seems I may have more wiggle room than I thought, so I need to work on taking these baby steps to do so. Praying my stem cell treatment kicks in, and if not, just got to make it so Susan Shore.
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