After i have gone through burn out, rsi, years of depression, my life was age 32 finally starting to go well. About a year ago a small whistle began to do its thing in my right ear. After about three months my left ear took up a high pitched tone, all this at a volume that was there, mostly at night, but didnt bother me that much.. maybe a little annoying for about 5 minutes before i could ignore it. Four weeks ago ive worked with a powertool, ofcourse using earprotection as i always did, but... apparantly it wasnt sufficient. That night i woke up around 3 a.m. with a hellish loud tone. Over the next 2,5 weeks or so it seemed to settle down. During this time my hearing was so sensitive too any kind of noise, i wore earplugs for most of the time. Every usual, insignificant sound went thru my head like a knife. But also that was wearing off, to my relieve. For a couple of days i thought it was to reach its original level, which was more than i could have hoped for, beacause, as you all know, being deprived of sleep and constantly being haunted by that sound, makes the meaning of 'despair' very real. Unfortunately since this week the tones have gone up again, just a little... just enough to keep me awake... And now together with somekind of 'white noise' as i could only describe it. The sleepmedication i got from the doctor doesnt do the trick well enough, so i am going for a heavier one. This night i used the sound 'River and cicada' from this website.. i believe that helped somewhat. At daytime its not hard to mask it, although i miss silence. I love silence.. The struggle to sleep makes me scared of going to bed, being tired makes me feel hopeless. It touches depression i have had for years.. During my life so far, i have learned how to stay optimistic in the worst of times. I have seen the bottom before... but somehow i cant see a positive way out now. But i am trying.