Argh! I Freaking Hate This Noise in My Ear!

Discussion in 'Support' started by Keith D Mitchell, Nov 24, 2015.

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    1. Keith D Mitchell
      Worried

      Keith D Mitchell Member

      Location:
      Claymont, Delaware, USA
      Tinnitus Since:
      10/20/2015
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      No Idea
      Despite this being a little of a month since this annoying ringing in my ear has started and despite my best efforts to get over it, to ignore it and get on with my day to day, I'm finding that I'm failing. More than I'd like to admit. More than I'd like to show my wife and kids, I hate for them to see me break down and cry because I can't stand this damned sonic screwdriver in my ear.

      So frustrated with this damned ringing, buzzing and clicking, as well with my self. I did everything I was supposed to; I don't drink alcohol, I don't smoke, I don't do drugs, I'm courtesy with everyone, I was a typically cool person.... until a month ago. Now I don't know what to do, other than just giving up :(

      I can't imagine how those who've had this longer than me can cope. I can't get past the idea that eventually my brain will get used to this and push it into the background, not with this noise, I can't see it.

      I just want things to go back to the way they were and for me to get on with my life.

      ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Human body perfection......... my ass.
       
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    2. Nucleo

      Nucleo Member Benefactor

      Tinnitus Since:
      02/2011
      Have you considered enrolling in the AM-101 trial?. It is pretty much the only legitimate medical treatment option available right now.
       
    3. billie48
      Sunshine

      billie48 Member Benefactor Hall of Fame Ambassador Team Research

      Location:
      Vancouver, Canada
      Tinnitus Since:
      03/2009
      Or consider masking your T so you won't be so stressed. Anxiety and stress are bad for T. So give these a try.

      TT's audio player:
      https://www.tinnitustalk.com/audioplayer/

      If you need more masking sounds, here is free ‘aire freshener’:
      http://www.peterhirschberg.com/mysoftware.html

      Rain sounds are soothing indeed. How about making your own rain sounds with this rain generator:
      http://mynoise.net/NoiseMachines/rainNoiseGenerator.php

      And if you need DIY notched Acoustic Coordinated Reset Neuromodulation (ACRN):
      http://www.tinnitus.org.uk/acoustic-cr-neuromodulation
      http://www.generalfuzz.net/acrn/

      Another way to reduce stress is to read up the success stories as many as you can. Many members have gotten better, some with other problems besides regular T, such as H, PT, ETD, Meniere, etc. Here are some stories for example:

      My own story, 'From Darkness to Light...', surviving severe T & H & relentless panic attacks:
      https://www.tinnitustalk.com/thread...w-i-recovered-from-tinnitus-hyperacusis.3148/

      The most read success story ‘Back to Silence’ with a simple effective strategy by IWLM:
      https://www.tinnitustalk.com/threads/back-to-silence.7172/

      Jade’s success story with T louder than the 800-tonne trucks she drives:
      https://www.tinnitustalk.com/threads/6-months-tinnitus-still-going-strong-but-so-am-i.3226/

      Dr. Hubbard’s success story from a doctor's perspective:
      https://www.tinnitustalk.com/threads/how-cbt-helped-me-live-again-dr-hubbards-story.4608/
       
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    4. MCB
      Sunshine

      MCB Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      02/2011
      I've been where you are now and sometimes feel like I'm still there even after 4 years of this. You use the word cope, I use the word accept. When you accept, you learn to cope.
       
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    5. liquefact
      Balanced

      liquefact Member Benefactor

      Location:
      Seattle, WA
      Tinnitus Since:
      09/25/2015
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Loud Indoor Rock Concert
      Maybe it'll not go away but you'll be much less concerned about it. I got T from a indoor concert ~ 2 months ago and the first month was like hell. I had panic attacks, crying a lot, depressed, not talking to anyone. When i saw that my little girl was so sorry seeing me like this, i decided to resist this f**king downward spiral i was going into.

      Right now, even though the T loudness did not change a lot, i do not freak out, and handling it in a much better way. It's ironic that the brain, which is responsible of increasing the gain to hear from the damaged cells thus creating the noise, is adapting to the sound, seeing that it's harmless and putting it into a lesser important bucket of sensory stimuli. Which means, if there is a more important sensory stimuli around, you'll not hear the T.

      For your brain to be able to do this though, you need to stay calm. It's hard in the beginning, almost impossible to do, but it'll be like this. Try your best to stay calm, and not to obsess with T. Take anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds if you need. Try to sleep as much as possible. Do not give up eating (avoid sugar though, it's guaranteed to give me loud T 5 minutes after eating sugar), take supplements and work out to get into a better physical shape. Even though the supplements are generally folly, they'll play as placebo and with the hopes of they'll help, they'll help.

      Also, consider participating into AM101 if possible. It has a 3 months window of opportunity after onset.

      Do not read disaster stories here and there, instead read all the success stories over and over, they'll help you believe that you're life is not over. It's guaranteed that you're thrown into this hell in the beginning and you'll get over it and you'll be better. There are support groups for T, joining them and seeing that the people are living good lives with T can help as well.

      As the last thing, know that there are a lot of investigation and research going into T right now. I feel myself lucky, luckier than the people who got T, say 10 years before. In 5-10 years there'll be a cure for T. It's coming, just hold on until then.
       
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    6. JohnK
      Lonely

      JohnK Member

      Location:
      San Francisco
      Tinnitus Since:
      10/26/2015
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Who knows?
      If I knew a cure was coming,even in years, this ordeal would suck a great deal less!
       
    7. Keith D Mitchell
      Worried

      Keith D Mitchell Member

      Location:
      Claymont, Delaware, USA
      Tinnitus Since:
      10/20/2015
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      No Idea
      I did in the beginning and was told I didn't qualify. I'm actually talking to them again about now, seeing it's been over a month. THough with the trial, I thought it was 3 month or under, so not sure why I didn't qualify the first time.
       
    8. liquefact
      Balanced

      liquefact Member Benefactor

      Location:
      Seattle, WA
      Tinnitus Since:
      09/25/2015
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Loud Indoor Rock Concert
      It's coming mate, there are too much research going on right now. A treatment is inevitable, we'll have some sort of relief in years. My guesses are;

      Years - Chances of an Effective Treatment
      2 10%
      4 30%
      7 60%
      10 80%
       
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    9. hoper
      Happy

      hoper Member

      Location:
      AUSTRIA
      Tinnitus Since:
      08/2014
      My ENT saidto me:,,They said we will have a cure in 5 years, 20 years ago.''
       
    10. liquefact
      Balanced

      liquefact Member Benefactor

      Location:
      Seattle, WA
      Tinnitus Since:
      09/25/2015
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Loud Indoor Rock Concert
      We all know that ENT's know nothing about T, do not listen to them :)
       

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