It has been 7 months now since my severe tinnitus returned due to being prescribed Tegretol and I am feeling very hopeless. Every waking moment of every day is one of suffering and there is no end in sight. The sad irony of my situation is that my tinnitus was caused by medications that were prescribed to me for depression, yet the result is that I am more depressed than ever and unable to function because of the tinnitus that completely rules my life. My former psychiatrist was completely convinced I have Bipolar II disorder. I have seen several more psychiatrists since terminating with her, and not one has agreed with this diagnosis. I am so angry that I agreed to take Tegretol, after it was Lamictal (same class of drug: anticonvulsant) that caused my severe tinnitus in the first place. Here is my story for the full details. The only reason I have not committed suicide thus far is the pain I know it would cause my family and friends. I know what horrible depression feels like and I would not want my loved ones to go through this because of my death. However, I have reached a point where my entire life is one of suffering and it does not feel like one worth living. I have been told that suicide is a "permanent solution to a temporary problem". But this problem seems to be a permanent one. And what am I supposed to do? Turn back to psychiatry? Psychiatry caused my tinnitus, which has destroyed my life. I take joy in nothing that I do and have a life full of pain. Every moment of every day hurts, and it has been this way since my tinnitus returned in June. I was self-medicating with alcohol for several months, but have since cut that out of my life as an attempt to get better. All it has done for me is removed the escape I had from my tinnitus and the suffering caused by it that drinking allowed. My life has been stolen from me, and I feel that I have very few reasons to live, so I am seriously considering ending it all.