Habituating to Fluctuating Tinnitus

My god. What an awful ride this T. is.

How can I ever habituate to T. that one day presents itself as a piercing hurting higher than a dentist drill like torture sound and the next day is much more quiet.

Ok, I get it, I should enjoy the more quiet times but all I do is be afraid and depressed and wait for the dentist drill to arrive. I wake up extremely nauseated, with adrenalin rushing through my body and I completely freeze, can't seem to move. Then depression sets in and I think of ways I'm going to end my life. To be reminded that is not an option because I have children.

And only 9 month ago I was mentally completely healthy....

Is it even possible to habituate to T. that fluctuates this much?

 

I know how you feel. I have several sounds at the same time and it fluctuates every single second. Never ever stable. I have never had a single moment where it stays the same. And it also flutuates hughely from day to day in intensity. It's soon been a year and I haven't habituated at all more than that I accepted it a tint bit more. But it feels absolutely impossible to habituate to something that always changing. I suspect it might be cochlear hydrops which gives it a chance to develop to Meneires...

And I got pretty severe visual snow, floaters, ghosting and glare on top of that. You can say I'm pretty ruined as a person but I will not give up. I will slowly collect money for LLLT, stemcell treatment and anything else that might work.

Wish I was more positive but it's a struggle to say the least. Whatever happens, no matter how hard it is, never give up <3

 

I won't give up. My father did, I wil never surrender.

 

Hi my T also fluctuates a lot it is a real nightmare every days. It is very hard.
Good luck.
Cheers