Hi, I am in a mess and wanted to hear from anyone who has felt as bad as I do and has then gone on to be ok again. I am having constant panic, severe depression and suicidal thoughts. I have tremors and hyperventilation. The doctor has given me an antidepressant (Citalopram). I am unable to get out of bed in the morning or do things anymore. I cant think even of the list of chores that need to be done. I am wading through thick mud when I try and do anything. I feel so bad its just not worth living like this. Its a living death. Has anyone gone this low because of T and then come back? Louise.