I have joined the club of tinnitus suffers about 3o days ago...and I can honestly tell you that it feels like I've aged about 20 years in those 30 days...I'm 59 years old and built my life and family around peace and tranquility. The T has ripped it from me almost immediately and has sent me down a roller coaster path of anxiety, despair and frustration...Some days I feel like I have a handle on it and am doing the right things (eating, exercising, meditation, venting (carefully), in therapy)...other days I'm a basket case and wonder why I'm alive...I've discovered that the Neurotic Self takes over during Anxiety and all kinds of negative thoughts and symptoms bubble up and stay 24/7...Combine that with a lack of sleep (or at best a disturbed in-out sleep) and you have one strung out person...I'm very careful not to reveal much to my family -- for obvious reasons...It's hard enough on them, so I work out most of my issues off to the side...or vent/cry in private...I hate taking any medication for anything...but I'm looking at sedatives, sleep aids and natural relaxers just to get me through the day. I am, however, in the process of learning about personal growth...character, courage, acceptance - not capitulation. I feel some of the time (not always) that this will progress towards a positive end...I just don't know when or how...Right now, it's very raw and this seems very distant...but somehow I think that the human spirit takes over... I pray for everyone on this thread that they may achieve enlightenment and peace.