I feel broken and unable to fulfill my life's purpose. Im tired of crying everyday, every year is harder then before, and my tinnitus gets worse. I hope everyday that today is the day, someone accidently crashes into my car, someone murders me, or a terminal illness develops in me. My body has run out of energy and my mind has had enough after 7 years, I lost who I am, I dont even recognize myself anymore. I wish I could be aborted, I've never wanted this pain to end so badly like I do right now. Im scared for tomorrow and everyday after that. Everyday seems surreal, I sometimes cant believe tinnitus exists, its so horrible.