I got hit with T four months ago. I am 68 but everyone says I look much younger....probably because I stayed in good health all my life. Ate healthy, no smoking or drinking, jogged for over 40 years and worked in government for 35 years. Never thought something like this would bring me down as I was enjoying my retirement after buying my first home, enjoying the outdoors and peace and quiet with my two kitties. No problem with my hearing only very slight drop in one ear but nothing I had even noticed. Been to acupuncturist, chiropractor, MRI, different doctors, etc. and of course nothing was found wrong. I have been suffering with high pitch squealing that builds up during the day. It seems to be adrenaline based because any loud noise or getting upset will kick it up a few notches. So now I feel like I am walking on egg shells trying to keep it down. It stays real loud for a couple days and then gives me a little relief but lately I am noticing that even on good days it doesn't drop to the low buzz I was getting before. I have a buzzing constantly but when it's real bad it is chirping which drives me crazy. Also get severe neck tension when it's real loud. Take Buspar twice a day and doctor just upped my dosage and then take Hydroxyzine to get to sleep at night or if it gets unbearable and I begin to freak out. Not sure I am taking the right meds but they seem to be helping me a little with the panic. I am such an active person and can't deal with how much this has slowed me down when I wasn't at all ready. What I can't understand is some days it will be just a loud buzz which I have learned to tolerate by keeping busy but some days it ramps up so loud I want to die. I live alone by choice....I enjoy my solitude and being independent. I have found that being alone now is terrible.....I get panic attacks and pace the floor and think if I only had someone to take my mind off this. I was always a pretty uptight person with a little OCD but kept my fears and emotions hidden and always in control. I was told by a counselor I have PTSD from a lot of bad things happening in my past. So then I was told stress may have brought this on but in researching I see it can just happen and no one knows why. I have pretty much accepted it will not go away. If it's this bad it doesn't seem possible it will one day be gone. But anyway......it's Xmas and I couldn't even decorate my house because it reminded me how much I enjoyed the holidays last year and this year it's been so awful. I am thankful for this forum but it surprises me so many people are in the same misery....funny how I have never heard anyone going through this ever......slight ringing in the ears everybody gets now and then but this is so much more insidious the way in creeps into your very soul and lets you know it has the power. I keep reading that it will someday get better but it's Xmas and I'm alone and wondering when that day will be.