first, I want to say thank you to everyone on here, I feel so much better when I read success stories. But to be honest, I'm having a real hard time and I just have to vent, I stopped talking to my friends and family about it and I look very strong on the outside but deep down I'm so broken, I've cried every day. Last night, I didn't know my boyfriend heard me crying and he came into the room and comforted me, I know he cares but I just don't want him to see me like this all the time. I have had T for a month now, and I'm back at work and trying to fake my happiness but I can only do so much. I'm just so scared for the furture, I hate that I can't be normal anymore and I always have to think about protecting my ears. tears are running down my face and I'm tired of pretending. I go here and let it all out. I just don't know how much more I can handle. I want this to go away but I just don't think that's going to happen. I have no hearing loss so that's good but I just want my life back.