I think it is in my best interests, despite what I said in my "Success Story" thread, to quit music for a long while. The other day I was helping set up for an event, and before I could put my earplugs in, someone starting riffing on their guitar with the amp near me cranked up to 115 db. I lost more hearing and have gain a tinnitus tone so painfully high pitched that I'm back to where I was when I first joined this board a year ago. I have to semi-habituate again and I have a new demon to wrestle, I now have H. So after I finish this quarter of college I'm quitting choir. I'm still a music major and I only have one year left that I need to finish. Luckily the last classes I need to take involve business stuff and no played music. This is extremely hard for me as I have been singing and listening to music since I was very very small. I had just sorta kinda not really habituated to this demon and now I must climb that hill again and give up the one thing that I have loved for my entire life. I can't even listen to music softly as it triggers my reactive T. This high pitched shrill in my head is so psychologically and physically and emotionally painful. God knows what's going to happen when I get my wisdom teeth out soon. I don't know what I'm gonna do for work. So back to square 0. Goodbye music. I didn't appreciate the silence I had before while I had it. I didn't appreciate a lot of the things I had before. I regret so many things now.