Really Bad... Torn...

It has been like a year since I have known this girl, we do go out bowling together, i am in a tourney with my fellow friends and family.

Anyways i thought she said that she was in love with me, but i do not know what "love" is anymore, been bathed in brime, and endless clatter off the hand. But there was countless times of where she said "I love you" to me many times,well she got married a bit ago.

I just kept on talking with her, she seem very confortable around my bowling team anyways, still she has been on my mind forever though.

I am slightly sad and torn since she went away with her husband back home though for the winter time..

I am one hung over emotionally drained person anyways, I keep hurting myself more times then a new series launched on the television.