Hello everyone. I am a male, now aged 53 in decent physical shape. However, 4 years back I had to have emergency surgery on my left kidney (the only one I have). On the second day from recovery, I awoke to almost total deafness. I thought for sure my ears were just full of wax and ran out and purchased a water bulb and wax softener. Returned home and did the drops, a few hours later I did a warm water flush in each ear. Barely any wax or dirt and still deaf. Totally scared me half to death. So naturally I went to my GP and was referred to an Audiologist as well as an ENT ( Ear Nose Throat ) specialist. Had a dozen different tests as well as a full MRI on the brain. Good news...... I have a brain..... Bad news, no answers for my sudden hearing loss. To top it off, I suffer the worst Tinnitus you can imagine. So dealing with trying to cope with my hearing loss, as well as the screaming in my head 24/7/365 is almost enough to drive a sane man over the edge. I had Tinnitus before the hearing loss but was not quite as bad. Also having the ability to hear helped mask the Tinnitus at the time. Now I have no way to mask it and it never shuts off. Been on various drugs for anxiety etc but totally hate any medications and use them very rarely. I am currently trying to qualify for a Cochlear Implant. First step in the process was positive and now I meet the surgeon this month for a few tests to see if he feels I can go thru this operation. I am quite confident I will qualify just fine however the waiting list once you qualify is massive. May take up to 2 years before I get the call for surgery. My local hospital that does this surgery gets funding for 120 surgery's per year and there are 200 people in line for the implant. So this means dealing with total hearing loss for up to another 2 years and the non stop screaming in my head. I am just trying to keep it together long enough to get this surgery. I have lost my job, am now living with a relative in very cramped conditions and collecting a small disability monthly. I am totally stuck trying to move from here and know the strain I am causing family and friends. Even gone as far as to research living out of my minivan and the best ways to do this while still maintaining oral hygiene and sanity. I have applied for gear to income housing but that list can be over 20 years long. Never in a million years would I have ever dreamed I would end up like this. Worked all my life and always managed well. Now I barely scrape by and am pretty much shunned by family. Fingers crossed I can maintain my sanity long enough to have the implant done. I know once I have some hearing back, many other areas of my life will improve. Any one with some input here would be most greatly appreciated.