My tinnitus started 3 months ago (no idea why) but it appeared and I latched on the little sound that I heard in my ear which got worse over the days and weeks ahead. When I plug the noisy ear I can hear the noise there like someone is blowing through my eardrum. I used to just hear nothing - like what you'd hear if you put a shell to your ear. After wearing earplugs for years due to hating external noise (such as traffic) I got bouts of Swimmers Ear (Ottitus Externa) and had to use eardrops (Soradex and Optimize) but I stopped using those in January and the tinnitus appeared in March so I don't know if there was an ottotoxic element to these ear drops I got but I heard it could only cause an issue if your ear drum was perforated. Mine wasn't; I would have known. I didn't have tinnitus in January after the ear drops or Feb. I am terrified which each day that passes because my t on my right ear sounds like a tone two fast flute and fax machine. It flits between that and a one tone whistle all day every day. I know when it's doing it's 'mad thing' because I hear it more and I know when the whistle is there because it's less noticeable. I have started getting it in my other ear too. After 3 months it's now starting in my left ear. This makes me petrified!!!!! I am eating well, albeit nervous as hell and living life on a knife edge every day, but this monster is wrecking my life. I am a shadow of my former self because of tinnitus and it stresses me out hearing the noise. I feel like I have no control and it's just THERE - doing what the fuck it wants when it wants and no ENT doc or anyone can help. It's utter bull shit in this day and age that no medicine or treatment can help it but 'play roulette with this mad shit sound' that you know is so unpredictable. What scared me the most though was the story of that Gaby woman in Holland, she developed it so bad it sounded like a train in her head. She killed herself. So, do we all sit and wait to end up like her? I started to see a slight improvement 2 weeks ago but then I woke up with it back to the shitty fax machine again and loud. I have no idea why because I don't drink caffeine anymore, rarely drink alcohol, eat healthy and take vitamins. What else can I do? I was made redundant in January and it's not helping that I am not working at the moment but I wasn't destitute when I left my last job, I was coping with it. I lost my mum to Cancer in 2014 and I coped, no tinnitus and yet it just appears and I have been through much worse stress than I have in March to be landed with this hideous affliction. Any support/help would be welcome. Habituation I am unclear of - is this when your perception of the sound goes down? mine does go quiet in the mornings when I first wake up then as the day goes on, BOOM, here it is again - till I eventually go sleep.