my name is lisa. it started with just one ear...not too bad at first though it gave me headaches. since march of this year, this has developed into full blown pulsatile tinnitus. I have had to quit my job which I only started 2 months prior. I suffer from hellish headaches and worst of the worst now is that I am unable to sleep. it took over 10 medical appointments before it was diagnosed although I had self diagnosed myself by searching the web about the symptoms. in june month, there were a few days where I would not able to sleep at all literally watching each hour until morning came. I was given anti depressants, told that nothing can be done, that I have to live with it....at this point, I could learn to live with the noise since I started using white noise, any kind of noise to mask the horrific sound.. but what was ruining my health was the lack of sleep. I became very weak in my body where I could not even hold a cup of tea. the pulsing in my ear was so loud, it vibrated my ear and it hurt. in my head itself it was so loud that I felt I would go crazy. I went from being a strong grounded Christian to losing all faith and hope. in july I attempted suicide because of all the hopelessness and darkness. see, I developed another hellish medical condition call vulvodynia just one year ago. this too is another one where there is no cure just suffering and pain. I have tried everything I could. for the tinnitus I try different teas, I heard cherry tart juice is good. its like my body has forgotten how to sleep. at night I am wide awake at all hours. I travelled to Trinidad recently where I saw a doctor for the headaches and though he too could not help, the meds he gave me help me to get atleast 4 hours sleep now. I hate being on sleeping pills but its either that or I don't sleep. I still hope that someday I would learn to sleep again. until then I have to take the chance of ruining organs with all these pills so that I can get some sleep.