Hello All, It's been a while since I posted here. Please excuse my english and my grammar. English is not my first language. Anyhow I just wanted to let you know that while I am 95% habituated I still find myself struggling from time to time. This month will be my two year anniversary with T and it is especially bad for me. I now seem to be losing hearing on my left ear sporadically which is causing a spike in my T. I am afraid that this might be an omen of my near future. I got my T when I forgot to bring earplugs to a two hour rehearsal. I knew something was wrong but being a professional musician I kept my mouth shut and kept on playing. That was two years ago. Now I have completely stopped playing in a band and also stopped teaching and shooting guns altogether. Because of this I can say that T has completely changed my life. For the most part I am very lucky to have this ailment. I mean I could have cancer or heart disease but then again I am still young. (knock on wood) My point to this post is just to vent a little bit on how I am feeling these days and to share my slightly depressing situation with my T. I have learned to embrace and accept that I have this. It just sucks that I am afraid to do the things I use to love to do. Anyhow thank you for listening. Even though I rarely visit here. I still love this site. I was just telling my brother how important these support groups are to people like me. Even the Facebook one that I am a member of is great. Thanks again and best regards to all.