Two Year Anniversary with Tinnitus

Discussion in 'Support' started by Alxtan, Jun 1, 2015.

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    1. Alxtan
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      Alxtan Member Benefactor

      Tinnitus Since:
      06/26/2013
      Hello All,

      It's been a while since I posted here. Please excuse my english and my grammar. English is not my first language. Anyhow I just wanted to let you know that while I am 95% habituated I still find myself struggling from time to time. This month will be my two year anniversary with T and it is especially bad for me. I now seem to be losing hearing on my left ear sporadically which is causing a spike in my T. I am afraid that this might be an omen of my near future.

      I got my T when I forgot to bring earplugs to a two hour rehearsal. I knew something was wrong but being a professional musician I kept my mouth shut and kept on playing. That was two years ago. Now I have completely stopped playing in a band and also stopped teaching and shooting guns altogether. Because of this I can say that T has completely changed my life.

      For the most part I am very lucky to have this ailment. I mean I could have cancer or heart disease but then again I am still young. (knock on wood) My point to this post is just to vent a little bit on how I am feeling these days and to share my slightly depressing situation with my T.

      I have learned to embrace and accept that I have this. It just sucks that I am afraid to do the things I use to love to do.

      Anyhow thank you for listening. Even though I rarely visit here. I still love this site. I was just telling my brother how important these support groups are to people like me. Even the Facebook one that I am a member of is great.

      Thanks again and best regards to all.
       
    2. Lovelyhead

      Lovelyhead Member

      Tinnitus Since:
      04/2007
      Your story sounds just like mine! Had it 8 years, pretty much habituated but sometimes it spikes or changes tone and I freak out bigtime!

      Also like yourself, I used to enjoy gigs and socialising, but I've become really withdrawn, never go out to meet friends or go to parties where I know it will be loud. Highly paranoid about causing further damage.

      When you say you're losing your hearing, is it like a temporary feeling that you lose hearing in one or both ears and suddenly hear a very high pitched noise, which usually lasts between 10 seconds to a few minutes?
       
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    3. FuzzyFrey
      Dreaming

      FuzzyFrey Member

      Location:
      Scotland
      Tinnitus Since:
      04/2009
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Sustained loud noise through headphones
      Six years ongoing for me and I feel more or less the same as you about this at times. Most times I am alright and habituated, but on occasion something comes up and I get stuck in the anxiety loop again for a while. Fun! I don't have the same love for concerts and loud events as I used to, even though I tend to wear good earplugs for such things. I refuse to let T stop me from getting out and doing things.
       
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    4. soundmachine
      Buzzed

      soundmachine Member Benefactor

      Location:
      USA
      Tinnitus Since:
      03/2014
      Cause of Tinnitus:
      Acoustic + Ototoxicity
      Happy anniversary! In a few months, I'll have the same. Time to grab a beer and drink to a new sound of music. I pretend it is an electrical instrument from a grunge band. So much for being one of 70% that have no tinnitus after a year. We are special and should be proud!
       
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    5. linearb
      Psychedelic

      linearb Member Hall of Fame

      Location:
      East Coast USA
      Tinnitus Since:
      1998
      Eighteen year club checking in.
       
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    6. Alxtan
      Approved

      Alxtan Member Benefactor

      Tinnitus Since:
      06/26/2013
      Thank you for not making me feel alone.

      To answer Lovelyhead's question. I lose my hearing on my left ear for hours at a time. It made me realize that we also use our hearing to gauge distance and what is next to us. A couple of times I didn't know there was someone standing next to me. One time I almost bumped into a wall because I didn't sense that there was one behind me.

      It's disheartening to think that I am going to lose my hearing on my left ear but like usual I will soldier on. After all it sure beats the alternative.
       

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