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BlueMoon86

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I put a portable fan to my working ear and didn't hear my tinnitus. I put said fan against my decibel metre. 82.8 decibels. I want to die. Jul 19, 2024

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    1. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      I put a portable fan to my working ear and didn't hear my tinnitus. I put said fan against my decibel metre. 82.8 decibels. I want to die.
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    2. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      I remember when 40ish db sound therapy would sort of cover it. Up at 60-70db these days, T towers over that.
      1. streifzug likes this.
      2. LukeYoung
        LukeYoung
        This is my levels during spike's it's TOUGH, hope it comes back down for you. usually 30-40db covers it, 20db more makes a difference
        Jul 17, 2024
      3. Pinhead
        Pinhead
        Mine is only covered by 68db now. It used to be 63. I can measure it increasing, and with each increase, it's like watching my life slip away at the hands of some sadistic monster.
        Jul 17, 2024
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    3. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      Audiologist tried to say that is normal but it's not. Tinnitus has been way worse as well, sounds like a bi-plane is flying next to my ear.
    4. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      My hearing has now dropped 15db into the moderately severe range at 250hz. From 45db to 60 in a few days.
    5. SharonBell
      SharonBell
      @BlueMoon86 mine was caused from Covid. I had Covid twice and tinnitus both times just ringing in ears it went away both times. Came back the next year 10 times worse. Buzzing, static electricity both ears and my whole head. I went to ENT and tinnitus clinic. I have extended high frequency cochlear sensorineural hearing loss and tinnitus. They said my hairs inside are damaged.Mine is never quit always 24/7.
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    6. SharonBell
      SharonBell
      @BlueMoon86 I know how you feel so sorry you went through that. My LULU died at home with my husband and I was at work. She had been to vet a few days before and was giving her medicine then she almost quit eating so I had to quit medicine. I was devastated when I found out.
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    7. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      Of course when I woke up again 2 hours later it was the usual hellish 10/10 nightmare level.
    8. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      For about 5-10 minutes, it was like it wasn't there. That hasn't happened since December last year.
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    9. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      Had a drink last night before bed. Woke up at 6 in the morning because I was thirsty and oh my god my T was virtually silent.
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      2. Juliane
        Juliane
        I have also tried this after drinking alcohol
        Jun 19, 2024
    10. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      Jet just flew over my house. I COULD HEAR THE T OVER IT. I don't know why I'm still here at this point.
      1. Stayinghopeful
        Stayinghopeful
        Probably just because your tinnitus is a higher freqency then the jet. Can you clearly hear it over a fast running tap or high pressure shower?
        Jun 11, 2024
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      2. BlueMoon86
        BlueMoon86
        My T is low frequency. I hear it over everything.
        Jun 11, 2024
    11. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      I'm going to try and sleep now. I hope I don't wake up.
    12. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      Blue Moon came from a blue glass moon ornament a family friend gave me. She died of cancer and I miss her. This noise is so loud.
    13. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      I love dogs. My drinking problem started when one of them died her name was Lulu and I loved her.
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      2. SharonBell
        SharonBell
        @BlueMoon86 aww I m so sorry about LuLu I had a hunting dog that my daughter and I picked up one day she was starved by and had her for years and her name was also LULU we lost her about a year ago. I like to drink also it helps me deal with it and yeah sometimes I drink too much. Do you know what your T is caused from?
        Jun 13, 2024
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      3. BlueMoon86
        BlueMoon86
        My Lulu was 17 and had dementia. I wasn't always so patient with her towards the end and she was shying away from me. I had to have her put down because she stopped eating for 2 days. When they took her away to place a catheter they brought her back in and when she saw me her whole face lit up and she wagged her tail thinking she was going to go home now but I couldn't take her home this time.
        Jun 14, 2024
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      4. BlueMoon86
        BlueMoon86
        The guilt just ate me alive and I drank a lot to cope. Unfortunately the drink also takes the tinnitus down so I have double the reason. My tinnitus is caused by a sudden hearing loss I had last year.
        Jun 14, 2024
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    14. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      I have had a lot to drink. Too much. It's not helping. No one will be around tomorrow. My name is Vikki.
      1. Juliane, weehiru and snizzleberry like this.
    15. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      What do you do when the thing that makes your nightmare a bit more bearable also kills you bit by bit?
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      2. Juliane
        Juliane
        If alcohol helped my T, I know I would drink too.
        Jun 15, 2024
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    16. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      When I say I can hear my T over something it's because my T is the bigger noise, i.e the chainsaw from yesterday. Is that what others mean?
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      2. RunningMan
        RunningMan
        When I say I can hear my T over things, I mean the sound doesn't mask the T, and I can still hear the T. My cricket/katydids sounds I listen to at night don't mask mine, but they help keep me from focusing on T when trying to sleep.
        May 29, 2024
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      3. Varda
        Varda
        Its a way to objectively compare the severity in the suffering contest. Like if you can't hear yours in the shower that means you have mild T and have to bow your head and show respect to people that can hear it in shower.
        May 30, 2024
      4. 4Grace
        4Grace
        @verda - I can hear mine in the shower with no protection. 5 water heads going. I don’t even have to look for it. I do have to bend my neck just an inch. If I don’t bend my neck it’s still loud but moments of masking depending. This is my worst unimaginable nightmare.
        Jun 3, 2024
    17. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      I've started to wonder what people mean when they say they can "hear their T over something".
      1. AfroSnowman
        AfroSnowman
        I think it means, does an external sound drown out the internal sound. Some lucky souls can’t hear their T over the shower or when they are in a noisy environment.
        May 29, 2024
    18. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      Someone next door is cutting down a tree with a chainsaw. I can hear the T over it despite having sound therapy noises playing.
      1. 4Grace
        4Grace
        @BlueMoon86 - what I find interesting. My T is very loud. However I can still hear the smallest of sounds. My hearing test was almost perfect. I could hear those small sounds despite my T blasting.
        Jun 3, 2024
    19. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      My T currently sounds like a sped up, distorted, and of course obnoxiously loud version of the "duh-nuh, duh-nuh-duh-nuh" sound from Jaws.
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    20. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      No one wants to come near. Don't blame them. I've always been a coward but I'm not feeling so cowardly these days. These nights....
    21. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      I had habituation and I can tell you my original T was not mild. At all.
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    22. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      To think I was once able to sleep with no sound around, now I cling to it like a lifeboat even though it's useless.
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    23. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      Another night of horrible pulsing roaring hairdryers in my head. Clonazepam really does do nothing now, even when I drink.
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      2. 4Grace
        4Grace
        How long have you been taking clonazepam?
        Jun 3, 2024
      3. BlueMoon86
        BlueMoon86
        For almost 2 months. No more. It is making me scared and giving me auditory hallucinations even at .5mg. It also doesn't work anymore. I never took it every day but I will still try and taper off it.
        Jun 4, 2024
    24. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      I don't even have spikes anymore. "Spike" has been my baseline volume since March.
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    25. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      Had acupuncture yesterday at my mum's behest. Did fuck all aside from force me to listen to my hairdryer loud tinnitus for like an hour.
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      2. Pinhead
        Pinhead
        Yep. Like therapy, or a massage, or a doctors appointment. Just useless moments of total immersion in this auditory hell. Let me stay home and blast my water noises instead.
        May 17, 2024
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      3. BrOKeN_1
        BrOKeN_1
        I was talked into trying cupping during those early months. Also did fuk all besides leaving big stupid hickeys on my ass. Lmao!
        May 17, 2024
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    26. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      Just had a 20 minute bath and HOLY SPIKE FROM HELL. Can't even have a bath now.
      1. 4Grace
        4Grace
        We are alike. What a nightmare.
        May 12, 2024
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    27. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      I've had 2 seemingly permanent increases since March and I'd say it's about 4 times the volume it was.
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      2. RunningMan
        RunningMan
        Sorry to hear that. I went through a sudden multi-fold increase in tinnitus 27 months ago. Any suspected cause for your recent worsenings?
        May 5, 2024
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      3. Hardwell
        Hardwell
        Mine seemed to increasingly get louder and more volumes in the first 6-8 months of worsening. I’ve had quite a few stretches of quiet tinnitus since, ‘quiet’ being subjective
        May 6, 2024
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      4. BlueMoon86
        BlueMoon86
        My problem is some kind of inner ear fluid issue, not just hearing loss. I didn't just lose hearing and that's it, dead ear. I often have this full, clogged feeling where everything is muffled. Sometimes it even hurts.
        May 7, 2024
    28. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      It's my 6 month tinniversary. God, the level I had then was a blessing and I didn't even know it.
    29. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      2 days later, silence and inner peace was lost to me forever.
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    30. BlueMoon86
      BlueMoon86
      6 months today, after 37 years of perfect hearing, I lost 50% of the left ear for no reason and my comfy little insular life ended.
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    Gender:
    Female
    Location:
    UK
    Tinnitus Since:
    12/2023
    Cause of Tinnitus:
    Sudden Hearing Loss