So my tinnitus has taken another turn for the worse and now its loud and super high pitched in both ears. These past 5 months have been the worse ever for me but now I feel like its getting extreme. The past 4 days I can't sleep now at all which is a new one for me. I look back and can't believe how I got to this point. Ever since 2001 I've had tinnitus but it was never this bad before (started getting worse back in sept 2015) My mum is very upset as shes always crying since there's nothing she can do to help me and she sees me visibly upset. I know I make her upset when I talk about it but if I don't it's like im bottling it up and I feel like im going to explode. I think about suicide alot now its just so fucked this problem we all have. I wish I had my old tinnitus back. I really feel like theres no light at the end of the tunnel for me now. I really can't live with it at this level and I still havnt worked since when it first started getting back end of last year so Im just bumming around at home making no money and getting more stressed.