Hey everyone, I stayed away for a while and I quit my video journal I was doing and fell into a deep dark place. I have PTSD from being over seas during OIF and I occasionally go through flash backs and vivid dreams of things I couldn't unsee. Any way I my T took over my life to the point where I would plug my ears all day to see if I could still hear it. I had cold sweats and shakes all over. All this in about 5 months. I finally had something in me break and I took my T and threw it in the trash where it belongs. I wasn't going to live like this and put my son and wife through it. My T since pushing myself and telling myself to stop this nonsense has gone down about 80%. I feel I have habituated pretty damn well so far. I still have a ways to go but if I can do it I'm telling you that you can too damn it. Don't let this beat you.