Tinnitus Means Your Soul Is Crying.

It is believed, in my culture, that the ringing in your ears means that your soul is crying. Crying for something in the past, or crying for something that may have yet to come. Who knows. I am not a spiritual person. But I do like to indulge myself in these thoughts from time to time.

I have once, found my self lying my head on the lap of my mother, while she brushed back my hair back, and whispered into my ear in our native tongue, "Little soul, please don't cry. Mother is here. Everything will be alright."

As silly as that sounds, I felt it as a beautiful mother-daughter bonding moment that I would not trade away.

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My Tinnitus started last year, 2014, around late March, early April. Around the same time, I also had a swollen lymph node on my neck. I told my mother about those two issues, and she was more concerned about the temporary lymph node, instead of my possible lifelong Tinnitus.

I did not have Medi-Cal at the time, so I paid about $ 80 just to go to a (terrible) family clinic, and the doctor was literally looking up my Tinnitus condition on her phone in front of me (oh and she told me to wait out my lymph node). So my money just went down the drain.

When I finally was approved of Medi-Cal, I was already feeling a little depressed. I told my doctor about how I felt, and she dismissed me, insisting that I didn't need counseling, and advised me to just take Claritin because my Tinnitus may have just been caused by congestion.

I'm no doctor but I know for sure I have not been congested for a whole year. She disregarded my request to be seen by a specialist/audiologist/ENT (or whatever they're called), and rescheduled me to come back for an appointment for a non Tinnitus related purpose. On my second visit, I made it pretty damn clear I wasn't about to leave until the issue was addressed properly and that her Clariton trick did not work. So then she decided to prescribe me Amitryptiline, an anti depressant, to ease the Tinnitus. She finally ordered to have me referred to a specialist, but this was months ago and I've heard no word since.

I'm not sure how I feel about taking antidepressants, mainly because of the drowsiness. When I had an appendectomy a few years ago, the doctor prescribed me Norco, and after two days, I gave up taking Norco because I'd rather be awake and bear the pain.

Anyway, I promise you, I didn't mean for this post to sound like a Yelp review on my sucky doctors. The reason why I wanted you to know of my experience is because I felt that every one that I went to for help did not take me seriously, and it makes me feel even more alone. Sometimes the Tinnitus drives me nuts, and sometimes I can just forget about it. But one thing I know for sure is that I have a fear of losing any of my senses, especially hearing.

I am here to hopefully see that I am not alone in this.

 

You are not alone with the doctors. Many people here myself included have been brushed off by doctors. My first doctor googled everything as well :/ Even the ENT was pretty much useless. Sadly, most cases of Tinnitus currently have no official treatment so that is usually why doctors just brush us off. For me coming to this site was the best thing for me. So many friendly people who are in the same boat as us

There are some promising treatments currently in trial, the one everyone is anxiously awaiting is Autifony's new drug that has already been reported by one person here to have dropped their volume by about 75% while they were on trial. Hopefully this means a treatment or cure is on the horizon.

If you ever need someone to talk to, im here as well as any of the other guys/gals here.

 

Zeee, don't ever forget that moment. There is no greater love in the world than a mothers love.

 

I like that belief your culture has. I also think that for some T can indeed be a sign to alter their life. That mother moment you had... cherish it.

 

Tinnitus is hyperactive neurons in the brain, has nothing to do with your soul crying. Also Amitriptyline can help lower tinnitus but it's also ototoxic to the hair cells, therefore can cause tinnitus. The only real treatment is trobalt at the moment, but it's hard to get and has unfavourable side-effects. Also, tinnitus cannot affect your hearing so don't worry about that. There's drugs which will come out hopefully soon, such as Autifony's drug and other treatments.

Personally, I would use nortriptyline as it can help with tinnitus and has less side-effects compared to amitriptyline (it's not a benzo), it's a second generation version. Hope that helps.

 

@Zeee

I simply love that descritpion and in fact in some cases believe that to be truth Very beautiful and poetic and to be honest I've spoken with many people over the last 2 years and many of them suffered with pre existing depression or anxiety. so an emotional imbalance pre t..

Yes I do believe that would indicate the soul crying out.

I am "spiritual" and find this spot on.

Thanks for sharing.

oh and what culture are you from?

 

Well, in India they believe that tinnitus is God communicating with you.

 

Thyroid? Just sayin'...

 

Hey, whether it's God, the angels, my soul crying, or something as mundane as my brain being hypersensitive, it's my T and I'm going to own it... I've gone through several primary care docs, ENTs, audiologists, and even went to Gallaudet University in search of some relief. I learned a few things - a lot of docs and practitioners don't know a lot about T; they've all be willing to learn with me; and the best therapy for what ails you is being touched by someone who loves you. Keep the faith!

 

I could teach them a thing or two.

 

Thank you for the kind offer! It's good (well not that good) to know I'm not alone in my experience with doctors. I just wish they could be more sympathetic, but then again, I suppose there's not much that can be done about the situation

 

Agreed! I'm very lucky to have such a mother.

 

Thank you. If anything, it has been slowly altering my lifestyle because I try my best to ignore it. I may just have to work with it, I guess.

 

T as an effect of a sad soul is just a simple belief in my culture, and I wasn't trying to pass it off as a fact, so try not to take it too literal.
I am also in the learning stages of treatments and such, so thank you for passing on some information. I've only done a little bit of google research on Amitryptiline, but I can agree that the side effects are undesirable. My doctor just prescribed it to me as something to try out before I go see the ENT, but it is still in my medicine cabinet, untouched. I will definitely look into nortriptyline though. Thanks!

 

You're welcome.
As for my ethnicity, I am Hmong. Hmong people originated from the hills of south east Asia. Our culture and religion consists of animism and shamanism. We believe that one person has many souls, and the main cause for sickness is because that person has lost a soul, and therefore require a Shaman to search for it and bring it back.
Although I'm not very spiritual, my parents definitely are, but I do find it interesting.

 

Interesting!

 

No, it wasn't the thyroid. The swelling was more on my skin, beneath my left jaw. It felt like a (sorry for the description) ginormous deep zit and a marble beneath my skin. Lol

 

Definitely! thank you for your words of wisdom.

 

Well, hopefully we can all help you! I know for sure we can help. Anything you need just ask!

 

May be the soul is crying. I sure know that I cry all the time sometimes the release feels good. Other times not so much. Some one the other day told me its a spiritual crisis. What ever it is it stinking sucks. I hope the two meds on the horizon offer us some relief.

 

Someone get God an Iphone or something , he can call me when he wants , no need to communicate like this.

 

Awesome! I dig it! I am very much into shamanism right now. All I know about the Hmong people is what I learned from that Clint Eastwood flick I saw awhile back..Was a very good film but the name slips me right now.

Well I simply really like the description. .fits me anyways.

 

wow..effect of a sad soul..how beautiful. .and me..lol..thanks so much for sharing Zeee ..I'm so glad you joined..I hope you find relief soon

just to add..my issues began after my cousin died..I was in a great time of grieving. ..however. .there are other variables..something to think about anyways

 

Gran Torino?

 

Yes! thank you. haha..memory is shite these days.

 

Thank you for the kind offer. Will def take you up on that.

I feel ya man. I find it interesting how T relates to spirituality though. It's nice to see different views of it.

Amen!

Gran Torino tho.... Lol.. Although a good movie, a lot of innacuracies. I'm glad you dig it though. I sometimes feel like I should know more about my culture, but I dont. My knowledge is very limited, sadly.

My parents would say that is most likely the cause , and that you're still grieving in some way. But you're right, there are other factors that contributes. But T from stress is not unheard of. And I'm so sorry to hear about that.

 

Sorry..first time I had heard of Hmong people/ culture..Too bad it wasn't more accurate, but hey that's Hollywood right? :/

and thank you

 

Zeee, who knows you're beliefs may be right, a sad soul is a depressed soul, depressed soul is followed by, or goes hand and hand with anxiety and stress, we all know how stress and anxiety make T worse. Makes sense to me.

 

35, like all the different avatar you have!

 

Yea..pretty much....guess I'm not feelin like a dreamer today.