The last 4-5 days have been some of the best this year. I really felt that habituation was happening. My T just wasn't on my mind as much and I've begun to socialize again and put a few more things into my diary. It's still only really noticeable in quiet environments but it does wind up each time I'm out before going down again at home. However, I took no Valium for 5 days until today when I took three in 24 hours. Today has been bad again and I'm so upset because I really thought I had it sussed and was beginning to understand what it's pattern and limitations were. I don't want to go back to where I was months ago and I'm terrified it will get worse. My ears have been itching terribly at times recently although my doctor can see nothing wrong and they sometimes feel 'full' when I'm anxious with the occasional spasm of pain. I'm due to see my audiologist in a couple of days. I really thought that I was starting to get my life back and I still have spells of silence or near silence. I just can't get used to spikes because they're so unpredictable and remind me that my T is still there and capable of ruining my day. I got my T in October 2014 and I'm STILL not habituated. That's all I want for Christmas.