@Freerunner We have to leave the past in the past and only look ahead. I've also wanted to build a time machine to prevent these turn of events, but we can't. Additionally, we would probably have developed tinnitus anyway, sooner or later. We're the unlucky predisposed. Wishing you well buddy. Go on sick leave if you have to and rest your ears. If you have pain H, go for complete silence.
H is getting a little bit better. It has ups and downs. However I have distortions and T has gotten so much louder and multi tonal. I do not know how I can take this any longer. I liked my life and was happy, but until a year ago when shit started happening to me with a fast tempo. The cherry of the pie was this eternal plague. If I had a gun I would have probably pulled the trigger by now.
I have to live a solitary live when I needed socializing the most - after my gf left me and I had ocd. I needed distractions but no. Life had to screw me even bigger time.
I've dreamed of going back in time and not going to that concert in 2009, or not taking that job in a music venue in 2007, on so many occasions.
But as he said, it's an irrelevance. Simple fact is, I was susceptible to tinnitus, and would likely have developed it somewhere down the line, whatever I did.
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