I 'acquired' my T in what I believe to be in the exact same way. It took a long time of self-loathing, that I had nobody else to blame but myself. (It's so much easier to except the fault of others & not your own!), but.. You'll learn to accept it as I did, given time. Until then, try & go easy on yourself :)
Don't blame on yourself. It never helps. Life happens, you were not consciously trying to get T. Stop giving emotional meaning to the T and anything related to it.
I can relate,I didn't cause my T but I partly blame myself for the utter mess I'm in now.I stare at myself in the mirror with utter disgust at myself,I hate myself.I feel I was given chances and I managed to fuck everyone up and now I deserve every bit of suffering I'm going through now.Its hard to accept it and K doubt I ever will:(
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