Zora
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Zora

Member, Female, from Germany

All I want is my T to be gone :(( is that too much to ask for as a 20 year old ? :( it still makes me sad Nov 25, 2016

    1. Zora
      Zora
      All I want is my T to be gone :(( is that too much to ask for as a 20 year old ? :( it still makes me sad
    2. Zora
      Zora
      I started uni a couple of days ago. All my friends are going to a student party in a disco, but I cant join them :((( thanks to f*cking T :(
      1. Julien87
        Julien87
        that really sucks... but you made thr right choice
        Oct 13, 2016
      2. rzhang
        rzhang
        Stay in and watch movies with friends! You don't need to be bored with T zora.
        Oct 13, 2016
    3. Zora
      Zora
      Not habituated after 9 months. In every other aspect of life I am happy. But I hate my T :( it scares me and makes me sad
    4. TtotheInnitusBoy
      TtotheInnitusBoy
      Hey! Thanks for the follow! Did you know that makes you the only T acquaintance I have in life aha. Hope you're doing ok.
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      2. Zora
        Zora
        Hey :) yes,I really like your attitude towards having T :) I am doing good, yes. What about you?
        Aug 29, 2016
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      3. TtotheInnitusBoy
        TtotheInnitusBoy
        Wooo glad to hear you're are doing good! It sounds like you're making progress :) Ye I think attitude is key, I just accept I have T and try not to let it change things too much for me - Don't get me wrong though, I still have my occasional moments like getting annoyed at motorcyclists as they roar past my ear haha
        Aug 29, 2016
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    5. TtotheInnitusBoy
      TtotheInnitusBoy
      Hey Zora, I hope I did not offend by my posts on my thread. I have re-read what I have written and completely get where you are coming from. In the same thread, I have also posted a video that made me habituate so quickly. I hope this helps.
      1. TtotheInnitusBoy
        TtotheInnitusBoy
        Also, T could be worse. At least it's not contagious making us all socially feared! I had to habituate quickly, as my depression was effecting my parents too. *Big Hug*
        May 28, 2016
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    6. Zora
      Zora
      I cannot forgive myself for listening to music that loud and giving T to myself. I hate myself for that. I cannot accept or forget it.
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      2. InfiniteLoop
        InfiniteLoop
        Don't blame on yourself. It never helps. Life happens, you were not consciously trying to get T. Stop giving emotional meaning to the T and anything related to it.
        May 10, 2016
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      3. bill 112
        bill 112
        I can relate,I didn't cause my T but I partly blame myself for the utter mess I'm in now.I stare at myself in the mirror with utter disgust at myself,I hate myself.I feel I was given chances and I managed to fuck everyone up and now I deserve every bit of suffering I'm going through now.Its hard to accept it and K doubt I ever will:(
        May 12, 2016
      4. Sailboardman
        Sailboardman
        What's done is done and you can't reverse the past. I've beat myself up for the same stuff and it doesn't help.
        May 12, 2016
    7. Zora
      Zora
      I dont want to do this anymore. its causing me so much stress and my Derealization isnt making things easier! :-((
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      2. Zora
        Zora
        May 2, 2016
      3. John G
        John G
        More like a spaced out feeling. Hard to concentrate. T and H. I know the ETD probably causes these symptoms.
        May 2, 2016
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      4. John G
        John G
        Although I have never really read up about that derealization thing. I may have it also haha
        May 2, 2016
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    8. Zora
      Zora
      One fucking day I will habituate. It might take time and patience, but I will, and I want to!
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      2. daniel1111
        daniel1111
        @Zora <ine's quite mild and always has been. I've been playing soccer (football!) TOO.
        Apr 27, 2016
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      3. Zora
        Zora
        @daniel1111 do you also play matches? how do you deal with the referees whistle?
        May 1, 2016
      4. daniel1111
        daniel1111
        @Zora yes I do, the whistle doesn't seem to be a problem for me. i just looked up the spl of those whistls and it seems like you'd need one going off right next to your ear for a full 30seconds+ to cause any damage. that just doesn't happen.
        May 1, 2016
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    9. Zora
      Zora
      T since 3 months today. Not one step closer to habituation although I am very busy in the last few days. I even eat healthy and Exercise :(
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      2. InfiniteLoop
        InfiniteLoop
        Be patient. Three months is very short time.
        Mar 26, 2016
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      3. AnxiousJon
        AnxiousJon
        Woo hoo! Killin' it gurl!
        Mar 27, 2016
      4. Mario martz
        Mario martz
        Eating healthy and Excercise is great!
        Mar 29, 2016
    10. Karen
      Karen
      Hi, Zora,
      I agree with you about the different levels of tinnitus. For some people, tinnitus is not bothersome and mild. But for others, it is a miserable and life-changing condition. I hope you are doing well today!
      1. Zora
        Zora
        @Karen thats exactly what I was trying to say
        Mar 19, 2016
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    11. Zora
      Zora
      I decided that I will take ADs bc I cant live with my depression anymore. Anyone I can chat to? There are so many different opinions on ADs
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      2. just1morething
        just1morething
        Okay, maybe a mood stabilizer would help?
        Mar 11, 2016
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      3. Zora
        Zora
        Maybe..do you have experiences with some?
        Mar 11, 2016
      4. AnxiousJon
        AnxiousJon
        I recommend SSRI's. I use Paxil; amazing for my anxiety. They take 2-4 weeks to kick in though; you'll want something immediate in the meantime like Klonopin or a non-serotonin supplement like L-Theanine.
        Mar 12, 2016
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    12. Zora
      Zora
      Since T started, I read on TT every day. Focussing on T. My challenge: one week without TT. Trying to distract myself.lets see how it goes
      1. Blackbird26
        Blackbird26
        It's a good idea...and will help.
        Mar 7, 2016
      2. InfiniteLoop
        InfiniteLoop
        Yes, TT is very addictive. One has to keep the balance to get knowledge and support without becoming more obsessed about T.
        Mar 7, 2016
    13. Zora
      Zora
      I need to learn how to stop listening to my T. I dont have a job atm and no friends, so distracting becomes hard.
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      2. Zora
        Zora
        @just1morething maaate! i dont understand what your saying? Are making fun of me again? Are you asking me to skype with you? Hah sorry but I really dont get it. I do speak english as I had English for 8 years in school, and spent 1 year abroad in Australia. SomI definitely speak good english but I still dont understand what you want from me :D
        Feb 25, 2016
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      3. just1morething
        just1morething
        @Zora, I'm new to Skype and was just seeing who would try it with me that has T. I don't want anything from you Zora. I'm not making fun of you lol. Skype voice I meant.
        Feb 25, 2016
      4. Zora
        Zora
        Sure we can try it
        Feb 25, 2016
    14. Zora
      Zora
      I didnt cry since a very long time...now I cant hold back the tears "What doesnt kill you makes you stronger" I dont think so..I want to die
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      2. Sailboardman
        Sailboardman
        Most likely, your T will soften after awhile and slowly ease it's way out of your life. It probably won't totally leave, so prepare for that. You're young enough to bounce back and see a treatment, so don't despair and think this is for life. As JimH commented, seek out an AD and don't give up! I know you don't have to much belief in God, but it might be time to start? Can't hurt. Stay cool!
        Feb 23, 2016
      3. Zora
        Zora
        Thank you @Sailboardman I hope so..what kind of treatment? Actually I have 0 belief. And I cant force it. I already tried. I will :) you too, thanks
        Feb 23, 2016
      4. Sailboardman
        Sailboardman
        There are so many researchers working on finding a treatment or cure, someone has to hit on one eventually.
        Feb 23, 2016
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    15. Zora
      Zora
      Just got refused from AM 101, because my T is not explosion induced :((( dont know what to do..
    16. Zora
      Zora
      I just found out I have a sister 14 yrs older than me...I always thought I was an only child...
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      3. del
        del
        Though I understand it could be hard to come to terms with something like that he might need a friendly and supportative (and lil' bit persistent but gentle) nudge perhaps? ;)
        Feb 20, 2016
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      4. Zora
        Zora
        absolutely!! I will do that :D thank you
        Feb 20, 2016
      5. del
        del
        I wish you both the best of luck in this adventure <3
        Feb 20, 2016
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    17. Zora
      Zora
      anyone here I can talk to concerning anxiety issues?
      1. Dutchy
        Dutchy
        I think there's a lot of people here that qualify to that request,what's your problem?.
        Feb 14, 2016
      2. Zora
        Zora
        I think my T is not that bad. I mean its horrible, but in comparison to other people I think my T is mild and I should be happy. But my mind is on constant high alert. and I cannot calm my unconscious mind down. I tried meditating and craniosacral therapy. Nothing helps
        Feb 16, 2016
      3. Zora
        Zora
        what Im tryna say is my anxiety is really fkng strong. and thats what I cant calm down although atm I am laying in my warm bed, being totally relaxed but my subconscious mind is not! should I make a thread for that?
        Feb 16, 2016
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    18. AnxiousJon
      1. Zora
        Zora
        Yes I read it. Great for him, but didnt work for me. Did it work for you?
        Feb 13, 2016
      2. AnxiousJon
        AnxiousJon
        Not as a magic cure, but It is helpful to me if I keep doing it everytime I feel bothered.
        Feb 13, 2016
    19. Zora
      Zora
      This is torture!! Dont know how to distract myself anymore..
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      2. AnxiousJon
        AnxiousJon
        Right but it's mormons that believe in eternal sexual relations and procreation. I thought that's what you were trying to reference.
        Feb 13, 2016
      3. just1morething
        just1morething
        So what religion are you then may I ask? I had a jk after my sentence.
        Feb 13, 2016
      4. AnxiousJon
        AnxiousJon
        Protestant Christian(Amillennial Calvinist-Baptist)
        Feb 13, 2016
    20. Zora
      Zora
      Now my therapist officially diagnosed me with Depression. GREAT!
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      2. Zora
        Zora
        I dont want to take meds. it doesnt help longterm.
        Feb 7, 2016
      3. AnxiousJon
        AnxiousJon
        Yeah I didn't either, till it destroyed my health, and I had nothing left. And now I'm doing great with a drug that is safe and effective "longterm". Maybe taking pride in your ability to make it without them will become less important as you reach the end of your rope.
        But hey, I hope you can get better without them.
        Feb 7, 2016
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      4. just1morething
        just1morething
        Could be worse, you could have tinnitus and depression.:-) I haven't figured out a good coping method with tinnitus yet either and that is depressing.
        Feb 13, 2016
    21. AnxiousJon
      AnxiousJon
      Adding you to my prayer-list :-D
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    22. Zora
      Zora
      I just wanna scream, and cry, and die and get drunk. I have No-one. I am so alone :(
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      2. Richard zurowski
        Richard zurowski
        You are not alone. We are all in this together.
        Feb 4, 2016
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      3. Sailboardman
        Sailboardman
        opt for getting drunk and then find somebody to love! };-)
        Feb 4, 2016
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      4. AnxiousJon
        AnxiousJon
        You'll find a different side of yourself. A more restful side that can chill on your own.
        Feb 5, 2016
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    23. Zora
      Zora
      T after listening music on maximum volume for 7 days.
      1. Sailboardman
        Sailboardman
        That will do it!
        Feb 2, 2016
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  • About

    Gender:
    Female
    Location:
    Germany
    Occupation:
    Nothinh
    Tinnitus Since:
    12/2015
    Cause of Tinnitus:
    1st time: Megaphone ;2nd time: headphones too loud
    Hi,
    First time I had tinnitus was after someone screamed in my ear with a megaphone for about 1 hour while I was driving (long story)
    That was March 2014 after that my ears were were already damaged. i had MASSIVE T so fucking loud for 3 days straight, didnt go to the doctor though.
    But after 4 days it calmed down. So much that I didnt hear it. But in discos I always used to wear earplugs.

    Then in december 2015 I had 1 week when I was really depressed. So I listened to music on my Iphone on MAXIMUM volume for about 1 hour each day for 7 days straight. My ears were already ringing on the 3rd day but I kept ignoring it. I have H as well now... ia m only 20...
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