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  1. PennyCat

    Well on the “bright side” I’m no longer freaking out about my normal T because my PT is...

    Well on the “bright side” I’m no longer freaking out about my normal T because my PT is back/acting up and now I have to deal with that and look into whether I have another stenosis that needs surgery. I want to die.
  2. PennyCat

    I keep thinking I'm hearing some faint whooshing from my PT again (which I had 2 surgeries for)...

    I keep thinking I'm hearing some faint whooshing from my PT again (which I had 2 surgeries for), and my right ear feels full. I can't tell if it's actually happening or if it's because I'm so hyper aware of all sounds and sensations. It seems unlikely it would randomly get worse at the exact...
  3. PennyCat

    It’s really hard to believe that I’ll be okay. I really really hope I will, but it’s so hard to...

    It’s really hard to believe that I’ll be okay. I really really hope I will, but it’s so hard to believe in it.
  4. PennyCat

    @BrOKeN_1 Thank you. I’m trying my best. I’ve seen improvement with my dysacusis before and I...

    @BrOKeN_1 Thank you. I’m trying my best. I’ve seen improvement with my dysacusis before and I think the anxiety stirred it up, so that’s my biggest barrier right now. My therapist thinks I need more intensive help right now. I’m probably going to be seeing an OCD specialist. My OCD about my T is...
  5. PennyCat

    I should’ve clarified I believe this is a spike 100% caused by anxiety. There was no noise...

    I should’ve clarified I believe this is a spike 100% caused by anxiety. There was no noise exposure. I started fixating on my T again, and the longer I’ve stayed fixated the worse the T has gotten
  6. PennyCat

    Can spikes last a month (or more) and eventually subside? I think I’m seeing slight improvement...

    Can spikes last a month (or more) and eventually subside? I think I’m seeing slight improvement as my anxiety slowly comes down, but I don’t want to jinx it. Hopefully it will continue to improve.
  7. PennyCat

    I don’t know what to do

    I don’t know what to do
  8. PennyCat

    I genuinely don’t know what to do anymore. I reached habituation and then the rug was pulled...

    I genuinely don’t know what to do anymore. I reached habituation and then the rug was pulled from under my feet and now I’m worse off than I’ve ever been. I keep getting new tones because my nervous system is shot. I can’t calm down, can’t stop obsessing, researching, crying.
  9. PennyCat

    I didn’t stay away very long. I don’t know how to get through this. The distortions are driving...

    I didn’t stay away very long. I don’t know how to get through this. The distortions are driving me crazy. Clonazepam made it temporarily louder. Vomiting daily. Crying all the time. I’m so scared
  10. PennyCat

    @BrOKeN_1 Thanks for the insight, I really appreciate it. I haven’t been able to pick it up yet...

    @BrOKeN_1 Thanks for the insight, I really appreciate it. I haven’t been able to pick it up yet because my pharmacy and their warehouse are apparently out of stock, so I have to try to find a different pharmacy that has it and then wait for my psychiatrist to send in a prescription there. The...
  11. PennyCat

    I’m going to try to stay off of here for a little while. I know anxiety is not the cause of my...

    I’m going to try to stay off of here for a little while. I know anxiety is not the cause of my tinnitus but it sure as hell is making it sound 10x worse right now. I need to stop fixating and calm my nervous system down because I’m in a really bad place. I’ll check back in at some point...
  12. PennyCat

    Along with the gabapentin, I got prescribed clonazepam today. I’m scared due to risks of both...

    Along with the gabapentin, I got prescribed clonazepam today. I’m scared due to risks of both, however they are only for me to take as needed when my anxiety is severe, not consistently/daily. So I think I’ll be okay. Don’t comment anything suggesting otherwise lol, thanks
  13. PennyCat

    @DimLeb It’s not ‘just’ anxiety. It’s so severe and debilitating, I can’t stop vomiting multiple...

    @DimLeb It’s not ‘just’ anxiety. It’s so severe and debilitating, I can’t stop vomiting multiple times a day and crying all day. Nothing is helping. If I don’t have the support of medication I don’t think I’ll be here much longer
  14. PennyCat

    Ah okay @DorianP that makes sense, I only ever come here on mobile and was wondering why I...

    Ah okay @DorianP that makes sense, I only ever come here on mobile and was wondering why I couldn’t get it to work
  15. PennyCat

    Is gabapentin safe for tinnitus? My psychiatrist really wants me to take it right now because...

    Is gabapentin safe for tinnitus? My psychiatrist really wants me to take it right now because I’m so severely anxious but I’m scared of worsening even more
  16. PennyCat

    I need my fan to sleep but the distortions scare me so much. I’ve vomited 3 days in a row from...

    I need my fan to sleep but the distortions scare me so much. I’ve vomited 3 days in a row from anxiety and I can’t stop crying all day every day. I don’t know how to get through this anymore
  17. PennyCat

    The thing causing me the most issues rn is dysacusis. I keep getting more distortions over my...

    The thing causing me the most issues rn is dysacusis. I keep getting more distortions over my fan and it gives me a lot of anxiety. Does this usually improve?
  18. PennyCat

    Okay I lied. 1 more post. THE Penny cat laying in me earlier while I watched Bob Ross to try and...

    Okay I lied. 1 more post. THE Penny cat laying in me earlier while I watched Bob Ross to try and calm down :)
  19. PennyCat

    Okay last post for now. Sorry I haven't replied to everyone, I read all of your messages and...

    Okay last post for now. Sorry I haven't replied to everyone, I read all of your messages and appreciate every one, I'm just too overwhelmed to reply a lot of times. Thank you everyone, seriously.
  20. PennyCat

    Hi @Hardwell, long time no see. Thanks for taking the time to write to me. It’s oddly comforting...

    Hi @Hardwell, long time no see. Thanks for taking the time to write to me. It’s oddly comforting seeing some familiar people who were with me at my worst. It’s been really hard dealing with the loss of habituation and the new distortions/tones but I’m doing my best to plug along. Hopefully I...
  21. PennyCat

    Also, random, but how do you react to posts now?? I only see the like option but sometimes I...

    Also, random, but how do you react to posts now?? I only see the like option but sometimes I wanna use a different reaction. I’m not used to the updated site yet lol
  22. PennyCat

    Thanks for the words of encouragement everyone. It means more than you know. I turn 25 in a...

    Thanks for the words of encouragement everyone. It means more than you know. I turn 25 in a little less than a month and hope I’ll be feeling better by then. I was a scared 22 year old when I first got T. Now I’m a scared near 25 year old… lol
  23. PennyCat

    I just want someone to help me. But nobody can help with this and I can’t help myself

    I just want someone to help me. But nobody can help with this and I can’t help myself
  24. PennyCat

    I genuinely can’t get through this. It’s worse and worse every day. I don’t know what to do. I...

    I genuinely can’t get through this. It’s worse and worse every day. I don’t know what to do. I can’t do it I really can’t
  25. PennyCat

    Can severe anxiety cause a spike/cause new tones to appear? And can those said tones go away...

    Can severe anxiety cause a spike/cause new tones to appear? And can those said tones go away again once anxiety settles or am I fucked forever now with a new perma worsening from my anxiety?
  26. PennyCat

    The more I freak out, the worse my T gets (or seems). And then I freak out more. And then it...

    The more I freak out, the worse my T gets (or seems). And then I freak out more. And then it gets worse. I threw up 3 times today from anxiety. I’m worried I won’t get thru this this time
  27. PennyCat

    I’ve been crying on and off all day with some severe panic attacks. Woke up in a cold sweat due...

    I’ve been crying on and off all day with some severe panic attacks. Woke up in a cold sweat due to anxiety as well. I don’t know what to do :( My OCD about my T is killing me
  28. PennyCat

    @kingsfan Last week my T didn’t actually seem any worse, I was just more aware of it. But now it...

    @kingsfan Last week my T didn’t actually seem any worse, I was just more aware of it. But now it seems much worse, altho my guess is it’s because of how anxious I’ve been. My nervous system is definitely on high alert. I’m having panic attacks left and right
  29. PennyCat

    @BrOKeN_1 Thank you :( I guess I didn’t really think of this as a spike but it makes sense. All...

    @BrOKeN_1 Thank you :( I guess I didn’t really think of this as a spike but it makes sense. All of my spikes have been permanent increases, but this seems like just a falling out of habituation. Although now that my anxiety has been elevated for a while, my tinnitus does seem much worse and seem...
  30. PennyCat

    @SpiralPath @tpj Thank you both. I’m having a really hard time right now. A bunch of distortions...

    @SpiralPath @tpj Thank you both. I’m having a really hard time right now. A bunch of distortions that previously settled/lowered are back with a vengeance, I’m sure due to my anxiety. I just want to get thru this :(
  31. PennyCat

    I miss all of my friends from here, you all always encouraged me to keep going when I didn’t...

    I miss all of my friends from here, you all always encouraged me to keep going when I didn’t think I could. I really need that right now. IDK how to do this all over again.
  32. PennyCat

    I don’t understand how I managed to fall out of habituation so randomly and suddenly. Every...

    I don’t understand how I managed to fall out of habituation so randomly and suddenly. Every little sound is freaking me out. I can’t stop listening to the orchestra of tones no matter how hard I try ;(
  33. PennyCat

    @OneRingyDingy I don’t see a link. I have tried a different maneuver that was suggested to me...

    @OneRingyDingy I don’t see a link. I have tried a different maneuver that was suggested to me, but haven’t tried the Epley. It seems hard to do but I might give it a go. Thanks for telling me it helped, that’s reassuring to hear!
  34. PennyCat

    New problem: sudden onset vertigo and nausea. Urgent care says it’s benign positional vertigo...

    New problem: sudden onset vertigo and nausea. Urgent care says it’s benign positional vertigo, which is fairly common. Hoping it subsides and isn’t anything more severe
  35. PennyCat

    I just want to be okay. I want to get back to my mostly habituated state, where my T was just a...

    I just want to be okay. I want to get back to my mostly habituated state, where my T was just a nuisance and not causing me an “oh shit, I’m freaking out” moment every 2 minutes.
  36. PennyCat

    My T is making me anxious again and all I can focus on is the sounds in my ears. I thought I’d...

    My T is making me anxious again and all I can focus on is the sounds in my ears. I thought I’d moved past this
  37. PennyCat

    Long time no see everyone. My tinnitus is back to making me extremely anxious because for some...

    Long time no see everyone. My tinnitus is back to making me extremely anxious because for some reason I’m hyper aware of it again. I’m sure it will pass, I’ve been thru this before. But I’m really scared
  38. PennyCat

    Haven’t had my TTTS flare up in a long time but it’s back today. Frustrating, but scrolling thru...

    Haven’t had my TTTS flare up in a long time but it’s back today. Frustrating, but scrolling thru my own posts helps reassure me that it always does eventually settle after a few days.
  39. PennyCat

    It really sucks because I struggle so bad with my mental health. I can’t and don’t function. But...

    It really sucks because I struggle so bad with my mental health. I can’t and don’t function. But so many mental health meds can aggravate existing tinnitus or even cause it. I’m damned if I do and damned if I don’t.
  40. PennyCat

    Today is day 5 of taking lamictal/lamotrigine. Last night I noticed a new tone in my right ear...

    Today is day 5 of taking lamictal/lamotrigine. Last night I noticed a new tone in my right ear that is still there today. Could just be a spike but if it persists tomorrow I’m probably going to stop the medicine.
  41. PennyCat

    @TheCapybara Thanks, I hope you are too! My T is ever present and still bothers me sometimes...

    @TheCapybara Thanks, I hope you are too! My T is ever present and still bothers me sometimes. Most of the time it’s just a nuisance that I try not to think about but I do have moments where it brings me anxiety. An ongoing battle as I’m sure you know!! Hope you’re hanging in there.
  42. PennyCat

    @henkess I’ve also seen incidents where it has helped people’s T, and others where it has no...

    @henkess I’ve also seen incidents where it has helped people’s T, and others where it has no positive or negative impact on it. It really is just individual. Hoping it at least doesn’t worsen mine. I don’t have much of a choice as I need to take this med.
  43. PennyCat

    Due to my mental health, I have to start taking the mood stabilizer lamictal/lamotrigine. I’m...

    Due to my mental health, I have to start taking the mood stabilizer lamictal/lamotrigine. I’m terrified that it’s going to make my T worse. I have a friend who takes it and also has T and said it didn’t make it worse, so that’s good I guess.
  44. PennyCat

    Hey all. Hope everyone's hanging in there. Thought I'd pop in and say I'm having more anxiety...

    Hey all. Hope everyone's hanging in there. Thought I'd pop in and say I'm having more anxiety with my T, which happens every few months but eventually settles. Thinking about you all.
  45. PennyCat

    Yesterday was 2 years with T. It’s been making me anxious again lately. IDK if it’s actually any...

    Yesterday was 2 years with T. It’s been making me anxious again lately. IDK if it’s actually any worse or if I’m just more aware of it. But for the most part I handled my T much better this year than the last. Hoping each year is easier. Hang in there guys <3
  46. PennyCat

    2/2 I’ve never had spikes, mine have always been permanent increases. How do you know if it’s a...

    2/2 I’ve never had spikes, mine have always been permanent increases. How do you know if it’s a spike? How long do yours last?
  47. PennyCat

    1/2 I think I’m having a tinnitus spike? A tone I haven’t heard for a long time is back and...

    1/2 I think I’m having a tinnitus spike? A tone I haven’t heard for a long time is back and pretty obnoxious. Sounds like a tornado siren.
  48. PennyCat

    Thank you!!

    Thank you!!
  49. PennyCat

    @Zigs Of course, anytime! And thanks :)

    @Zigs Of course, anytime! And thanks :)
  50. PennyCat

    @BrOKeN_1 @snizzleberry @kingsfan Thanks everyone!

    @BrOKeN_1 @snizzleberry @kingsfan Thanks everyone!
  51. PennyCat

    My TTTS settled for a bit but it’s been back again for my birthday which sucks. Hopefully it...

    My TTTS settled for a bit but it’s been back again for my birthday which sucks. Hopefully it dies back down
  52. PennyCat

    @tpj @4Grace Thank you!!

    @tpj @4Grace Thank you!!
  53. PennyCat

    Sorry to hear you’re feeling similar to how I felt last year ;( I think what helped me on my...

    Sorry to hear you’re feeling similar to how I felt last year ;( I think what helped me on my worst days was doing things that could offer distraction from my T even if it was only for a few moments at a time. Video games (low volume), reading outside, watching vids from my fav youtubers (on...
  54. PennyCat

    Officially 24. Second birthday with tinnitus. I hope this year is better for me mentally and...

    Officially 24. Second birthday with tinnitus. I hope this year is better for me mentally and physically.
  55. PennyCat

    @kingsfan And sorry that we both have to be a part of the super fun tinnitus club

    @kingsfan And sorry that we both have to be a part of the super fun tinnitus club
  56. PennyCat

    @kingsfan Thank you. It definitely sucks :( Looking back, I think I’ve had mild T for a long...

    @kingsfan Thank you. It definitely sucks :( Looking back, I think I’ve had mild T for a long time. I remember thinking “silence is so loud” when I’d go to the bathroom at night. Just sucks that it got worse very suddenly. But it brings me less anxiety these days altho I still hear it often. I...
  57. PennyCat

    @TheCapybara Thank you :) How are you doing? I hope you’re doing alright.

    @TheCapybara Thank you :) How are you doing? I hope you’re doing alright.
  58. PennyCat

    I turn 24 in a little over 2 weeks… oh boy

    I turn 24 in a little over 2 weeks… oh boy
  59. PennyCat

    @snizzleberry Hang in there. You and I have similar issues, with distortions and TTTS and all...

    @snizzleberry Hang in there. You and I have similar issues, with distortions and TTTS and all of that. Mine improved after the first year, and my TTTS was absent most of this year. Having a flare up of it right now, but it’s happened before and eventually goes away. Hopefully yours subsides!
  60. PennyCat

    I feel like I’m going to have a huge breakdown over it any minute now :,(

    I feel like I’m going to have a huge breakdown over it any minute now :,(