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  1. PennyCat

    @SpiralPath @tpj Thank you both. I’m having a really hard time right now. A bunch of distortions...

    @SpiralPath @tpj Thank you both. I’m having a really hard time right now. A bunch of distortions that previously settled/lowered are back with a vengeance, I’m sure due to my anxiety. I just want to get thru this :(
  2. PennyCat

    I miss all of my friends from here, you all always encouraged me to keep going when I didn’t...

    I miss all of my friends from here, you all always encouraged me to keep going when I didn’t think I could. I really need that right now. IDK how to do this all over again.
  3. PennyCat

    I don’t understand how I managed to fall out of habituation so randomly and suddenly. Every...

    I don’t understand how I managed to fall out of habituation so randomly and suddenly. Every little sound is freaking me out. I can’t stop listening to the orchestra of tones no matter how hard I try ;(
  4. PennyCat

    @OneRingyDingy I don’t see a link. I have tried a different maneuver that was suggested to me...

    @OneRingyDingy I don’t see a link. I have tried a different maneuver that was suggested to me, but haven’t tried the Epley. It seems hard to do but I might give it a go. Thanks for telling me it helped, that’s reassuring to hear!
  5. PennyCat

    New problem: sudden onset vertigo and nausea. Urgent care says it’s benign positional vertigo...

    New problem: sudden onset vertigo and nausea. Urgent care says it’s benign positional vertigo, which is fairly common. Hoping it subsides and isn’t anything more severe
  6. PennyCat

    I just want to be okay. I want to get back to my mostly habituated state, where my T was just a...

    I just want to be okay. I want to get back to my mostly habituated state, where my T was just a nuisance and not causing me an “oh shit, I’m freaking out” moment every 2 minutes.
  7. PennyCat

    My T is making me anxious again and all I can focus on is the sounds in my ears. I thought I’d...

    My T is making me anxious again and all I can focus on is the sounds in my ears. I thought I’d moved past this
  8. PennyCat

    Long time no see everyone. My tinnitus is back to making me extremely anxious because for some...

    Long time no see everyone. My tinnitus is back to making me extremely anxious because for some reason I’m hyper aware of it again. I’m sure it will pass, I’ve been thru this before. But I’m really scared
  9. PennyCat

    Haven’t had my TTTS flare up in a long time but it’s back today. Frustrating, but scrolling thru...

    Haven’t had my TTTS flare up in a long time but it’s back today. Frustrating, but scrolling thru my own posts helps reassure me that it always does eventually settle after a few days.
  10. PennyCat

    It really sucks because I struggle so bad with my mental health. I can’t and don’t function. But...

    It really sucks because I struggle so bad with my mental health. I can’t and don’t function. But so many mental health meds can aggravate existing tinnitus or even cause it. I’m damned if I do and damned if I don’t.
  11. PennyCat

    Today is day 5 of taking lamictal/lamotrigine. Last night I noticed a new tone in my right ear...

    Today is day 5 of taking lamictal/lamotrigine. Last night I noticed a new tone in my right ear that is still there today. Could just be a spike but if it persists tomorrow I’m probably going to stop the medicine.
  12. PennyCat

    @TheCapybara Thanks, I hope you are too! My T is ever present and still bothers me sometimes...

    @TheCapybara Thanks, I hope you are too! My T is ever present and still bothers me sometimes. Most of the time it’s just a nuisance that I try not to think about but I do have moments where it brings me anxiety. An ongoing battle as I’m sure you know!! Hope you’re hanging in there.
  13. PennyCat

    @henkess I’ve also seen incidents where it has helped people’s T, and others where it has no...

    @henkess I’ve also seen incidents where it has helped people’s T, and others where it has no positive or negative impact on it. It really is just individual. Hoping it at least doesn’t worsen mine. I don’t have much of a choice as I need to take this med.
  14. PennyCat

    Due to my mental health, I have to start taking the mood stabilizer lamictal/lamotrigine. I’m...

    Due to my mental health, I have to start taking the mood stabilizer lamictal/lamotrigine. I’m terrified that it’s going to make my T worse. I have a friend who takes it and also has T and said it didn’t make it worse, so that’s good I guess.
  15. PennyCat

    Hey all. Hope everyone's hanging in there. Thought I'd pop in and say I'm having more anxiety...

    Hey all. Hope everyone's hanging in there. Thought I'd pop in and say I'm having more anxiety with my T, which happens every few months but eventually settles. Thinking about you all.
  16. PennyCat

    Yesterday was 2 years with T. It’s been making me anxious again lately. IDK if it’s actually any...

    Yesterday was 2 years with T. It’s been making me anxious again lately. IDK if it’s actually any worse or if I’m just more aware of it. But for the most part I handled my T much better this year than the last. Hoping each year is easier. Hang in there guys <3
  17. PennyCat

    2/2 I’ve never had spikes, mine have always been permanent increases. How do you know if it’s a...

    2/2 I’ve never had spikes, mine have always been permanent increases. How do you know if it’s a spike? How long do yours last?
  18. PennyCat

    1/2 I think I’m having a tinnitus spike? A tone I haven’t heard for a long time is back and...

    1/2 I think I’m having a tinnitus spike? A tone I haven’t heard for a long time is back and pretty obnoxious. Sounds like a tornado siren.
  19. PennyCat

    Thank you!!

    Thank you!!
  20. PennyCat

    @Zigs Of course, anytime! And thanks :)

    @Zigs Of course, anytime! And thanks :)
  21. PennyCat

    @BrOKeN_1 @snizzleberry @kingsfan Thanks everyone!

    @BrOKeN_1 @snizzleberry @kingsfan Thanks everyone!
  22. PennyCat

    My TTTS settled for a bit but it’s been back again for my birthday which sucks. Hopefully it...

    My TTTS settled for a bit but it’s been back again for my birthday which sucks. Hopefully it dies back down
  23. PennyCat

    @tpj @4Grace Thank you!!

    @tpj @4Grace Thank you!!
  24. PennyCat

    Sorry to hear you’re feeling similar to how I felt last year ;( I think what helped me on my...

    Sorry to hear you’re feeling similar to how I felt last year ;( I think what helped me on my worst days was doing things that could offer distraction from my T even if it was only for a few moments at a time. Video games (low volume), reading outside, watching vids from my fav youtubers (on...
  25. PennyCat

    Officially 24. Second birthday with tinnitus. I hope this year is better for me mentally and...

    Officially 24. Second birthday with tinnitus. I hope this year is better for me mentally and physically.
  26. PennyCat

    @kingsfan And sorry that we both have to be a part of the super fun tinnitus club

    @kingsfan And sorry that we both have to be a part of the super fun tinnitus club
  27. PennyCat

    @kingsfan Thank you. It definitely sucks :( Looking back, I think I’ve had mild T for a long...

    @kingsfan Thank you. It definitely sucks :( Looking back, I think I’ve had mild T for a long time. I remember thinking “silence is so loud” when I’d go to the bathroom at night. Just sucks that it got worse very suddenly. But it brings me less anxiety these days altho I still hear it often. I...
  28. PennyCat

    @TheCapybara Thank you :) How are you doing? I hope you’re doing alright.

    @TheCapybara Thank you :) How are you doing? I hope you’re doing alright.
  29. PennyCat

    I turn 24 in a little over 2 weeks… oh boy

    I turn 24 in a little over 2 weeks… oh boy
  30. PennyCat

    @snizzleberry Hang in there. You and I have similar issues, with distortions and TTTS and all...

    @snizzleberry Hang in there. You and I have similar issues, with distortions and TTTS and all of that. Mine improved after the first year, and my TTTS was absent most of this year. Having a flare up of it right now, but it’s happened before and eventually goes away. Hopefully yours subsides!
  31. PennyCat

    I feel like I’m going to have a huge breakdown over it any minute now :,(

    I feel like I’m going to have a huge breakdown over it any minute now :,(
  32. PennyCat

    I literally have evidence of TTTS going away because it’s gone away many times for me. But my...

    I literally have evidence of TTTS going away because it’s gone away many times for me. But my OCD is like “nope, it’ll never go away again”
  33. PennyCat

    Just used my gua sha on my cheek/jaw muscles for a solid 20 minutes. Didn’t realize how tense my...

    Just used my gua sha on my cheek/jaw muscles for a solid 20 minutes. Didn’t realize how tense my jaw is. So many tender spots. Def recommend
  34. PennyCat

    Day 4 or 5 of TTTS flare up. If I remember correctly, past flare ups were ~ 1 week. Hope it...

    Day 4 or 5 of TTTS flare up. If I remember correctly, past flare ups were ~ 1 week. Hope it settles soon. My anxiety is def making it worse
  35. PennyCat

    @GG_Ear I do, I have TMJ issues and clench my jaw pretty bad at night. Recently started using a...

    @GG_Ear I do, I have TMJ issues and clench my jaw pretty bad at night. Recently started using a gua sha to massage my sore facial muscles and am going to incorporate some TMJ exercises as well to see if it helps anything. Not sure if my T or TTTS are related, but it seems reasonable.
  36. PennyCat

    @snizzleberry My tinnitus is actually worse than it was at onset; I had periodic worsening every...

    @snizzleberry My tinnitus is actually worse than it was at onset; I had periodic worsening every 3 months for the first year. However, for the most part, I cope with it better. The distortions have lessened over time as I mentioned. My TTTS was bad for the first year; it’s been mostly...
  37. PennyCat

    I’ve had that for a little over a year. Fans and running water (toilet flush, shower, etc)...

    I’ve had that for a little over a year. Fans and running water (toilet flush, shower, etc) especially. It has lessened over time though, the distortions/beeping becoming quieter
  38. PennyCat

    Trying not to worry about my TTTS reappearing is harder than I thought. I just want to be okay...

    Trying not to worry about my TTTS reappearing is harder than I thought. I just want to be okay, I don’t wanna go through this again
  39. PennyCat

    @SamRosemary Ugh I’m sorry, it’s the worst :( I’ve noticed when I wake up lately, my jaw is so...

    @SamRosemary Ugh I’m sorry, it’s the worst :( I’ve noticed when I wake up lately, my jaw is so sore from how tight I’ve been clenching it in my sleep. So I’m wondering if there’s a correlation for me
  40. PennyCat

    My TTTS has made a reappearance. It’s hardly happened at all this year. Trying not to stress…...

    My TTTS has made a reappearance. It’s hardly happened at all this year. Trying not to stress… it’s settled before, it can/will again
  41. PennyCat

    Obviously, I was hoping for a full fix, but I’ve exhausted all options; had thorough scans of my...

    Obviously, I was hoping for a full fix, but I’ve exhausted all options; had thorough scans of my arteries and veins, had them scoped with a camera and scanned some more, had a CT of my temporal bones. Nothing else has been found. But some relief is better than none.
  42. PennyCat

    Given the hell I’ve gone thru w my PT - the years of trying to get the right doctor, the many...

    Given the hell I’ve gone thru w my PT - the years of trying to get the right doctor, the many scans & painful diagnostic procedures, the hell of the 2 surgeries & ICU stays, the first surgery not working, the nightmare month following the 2nd surgery where it was thought I had a stroke, brain...
  43. PennyCat

    @eldudebro Unfortunately not gone entirely. But I think the 2nd surgery thankfully helped a...

    @eldudebro Unfortunately not gone entirely. But I think the 2nd surgery thankfully helped a decent amount, since the 1st surgery didn’t do much at all. Over all, I think I hear the pulsatile T less frequently than I did before my 2nd surgery.
  44. PennyCat

    Also update re: my pulsatile T surgery a few months back. Throat complications have gone. Follow...

    Also update re: my pulsatile T surgery a few months back. Throat complications have gone. Follow up with laryngology to reassess in 2 weeks
  45. PennyCat

    Thinking of you all. It’s 4am & my tinnitus is screaming a bit louder than usual. But I know it...

    Thinking of you all. It’s 4am & my tinnitus is screaming a bit louder than usual. But I know it will settle soon & am not panicked. Progress
  46. PennyCat

    Anxiety from Tinnitus: How Have You Managed?

    Of course! It definitely was gradual for me. I remember last summer, I was getting back into Skyrim, and I could hardly focus on the game because of how much I was actively listening to and checking on my tinnitus. The stretches of time where I wouldn’t think about it or “hear it” were very...
  47. PennyCat

    Anxiety from Tinnitus: How Have You Managed?

    I’m not sure if there’s any particular thing that helped me; I think it was a combination of things. I focused a lot on distraction. I watched a lot of YouTube and TikTok, read a lot of books, played a lot of video games, discussed my tinnitus in therapy, and did an outpatient anxiety program...
  48. PennyCat

    However if it were to worsen again I would be back at square 1. But for now I am adapting and...

    However if it were to worsen again I would be back at square 1. But for now I am adapting and habituating somewhat.
  49. PennyCat

    I’d say I currently go maybe 90% of my day without thinking about my T. It’s still there...

    I’d say I currently go maybe 90% of my day without thinking about my T. It’s still there, multi-tonal and unchanging, but I am… adapting?
  50. PennyCat

    @sakrt Not sure about reactive T but I do get distortions over certain sounds like fans. Sounds...

    @sakrt Not sure about reactive T but I do get distortions over certain sounds like fans. Sounds like sporadic, low pitched beeping. I still have my pulsatile T unfortunately, no change there. Not much improvement from my surgery :(
  51. PennyCat

    @TheCapybara Thank you. It’s really scary and stressful :( I’ve been in a massive depression...

    @TheCapybara Thank you. It’s really scary and stressful :( I’ve been in a massive depression episode ever since my surgery, and even more now that I’ve learned there is something officially wrong with my throat.
  52. PennyCat

    If I think/focus too much on the orchestra of sounds in my ears, I get anxious. But I am doing...

    If I think/focus too much on the orchestra of sounds in my ears, I get anxious. But I am doing better with it this year than the last.
  53. PennyCat

    I haven’t noticed anything either way

    I haven’t noticed anything either way
  54. PennyCat

    Complications from Jugular Bulb Diverticulum Stenting and Coiling

    I’ve had pulsatile tinnitus for several years (right-sided). I underwent a stenting procedure in October 2023 for my Venous Sinus Stenosis. This did not cure my pulsatile tinnitus, but I did not have complications. My interventional neuroradiologist found a jugular bulb diverticulum and another...
  55. PennyCat

    Symptoms: difficulty speaking and swallowing (which have improved maybe 85% since onset). Also...

    Symptoms: difficulty speaking and swallowing (which have improved maybe 85% since onset). Also nasal regurgitation - water goes up my nose when I drink and sometimes fully drips out my nostrils. This has not improved.
  56. PennyCat

    Saw a specialist and due to my surgery I have an almost fully paralyzed right vocal cord and...

    Saw a specialist and due to my surgery I have an almost fully paralyzed right vocal cord and partial paresis on part of my palate.
  57. PennyCat

    My surgery for my PT was May 1st. I’ve since had a complication and it’s not looking good. Too...

    My surgery for my PT was May 1st. I’ve since had a complication and it’s not looking good. Too long to post update as a status lol
  58. PennyCat

    10 days until my surgery. Trying not to be pessimistic about it, but also don’t want to get my...

    10 days until my surgery. Trying not to be pessimistic about it, but also don’t want to get my hopes up either. Hard to balance it!!
  59. PennyCat

    Anxiety from Tinnitus: How Have You Managed?

    Your story sounds similar to mine, although I don’t think my tinnitus is reactive (but certain sounds cause distortion - I hear a Morse code beeping over fans, A/C, etc). I had pretty severe TTTS to the point where I couldn’t even talk without my left ear thumping. My ear burned from the...
  60. PennyCat

    Any good vibes would be appreciated. My PT bothers me more than my T. It would be a relief to...

    Any good vibes would be appreciated. My PT bothers me more than my T. It would be a relief to finally get this cured after 2 surgeries