crescentsky

I would like the peaceful exit right now.

This hits home. Could not have said it better myself. So sorry for all of us.

if tinnitus sufferers were just allowed to euthanize themselves then how would audiologists make their living?

@Varda, even if there was a suicide booth like in Futurama, most tinnitus sufferers wouldn't go there. The vast majority of those with tinnitus still enjoy life and do not want to die.

@2noist I doubt the people with tinnitus that still enjoy life aren't knocking down the doors of the audiologists' office wanting to try every latest snake oil tongue zapping beeper gizmo they have for sale.

@RunningMan ugh so true, only T and probably some other unfortunate ones are left like us to rot and suffer.

@4Grace same this life has gotten so exhausting to just breathe.

What would the other health issues be?

@Juliane could be anything that is not T lol. I think I rather choose that. I was fine managing my non-T health issues.

I get it. I haven't had a haircut in almost 5 years. My hair is now about 2 inches below my nipples.

Don't under any circumstance get it cut with clippers. That's what caused my first catastrophic spike.

I asked my hairdresser to turn off his radio and not use the hair dryer on me. He did it because he is very nice

Such a harsh situation.. thoughts about self conclusion.. it's harsh. I have it too, and also more 'lightly' thought that life would take me away ('then it's not my fault').. I had this idea.. it's not natural for any organism, to wish to harm itself. Somehow this t pain.. pff just wish to escape. Wishing to not have to suffer.. man.. (i tell myself too) trying to go easy, a new day

@L along the way I have the same "romantic" idea about a peaceful ending caused by some sort of natural disaster. Not quite sure what kindof natural disaster is peaceful LOL

alien invasion lol, they can just kill me and use my dead body for experiments.

Sorry to read brother, same here. During the day, i go for walks, and immerse myself sometimes in gaming. While immersed in a game, it kinda makes me forget about life for a while. At night, sleep has been difficult, because then there is the auditory stressor/pain/damage. I try to let my thoughts calm down, and sometimes use sleeping meds.

But well.. the idea that it wouldn't get better, is so rough. Hope & faith..
I've heard about acceptance, and i do find it an inspirational idea, but when there is really such pain/noise, i ask myself.. how can anybody 'accept' this? It's just so discomfort pfft.. I guess.. enduring would be more the word than acceptance for me.

If i can at least sleep well, that be a really good thing. Sorry, it's a bit of a ramble.. going day to day.. may we be well some day again

I'm suprised she doesnt, all that air mileage and concerts must take a toll on her hearing.

She might have it to some extent. They don't often talk about it.

SIGH

It’s difficult but possible, who knows

sigh

don't think so :( I tried to contact Mayo clinic but they told me to pound sand.

I kinda feel this way too. I feel damaged. The only thing that helps me.. is the hope (with plenty of rest, and natural lifestyle) that it can get better somehow some day. What else can we have but hope.. gosh.. please try to go easy on yourself. Going day by day..

Good sign. People did improve well past 2 year mark after having no improvements. Man, you are among many I'd like to see improvements. You had no sound trauma. You gotta improve at some point. I just cannot see how you would not.

Yeah, my memory is also deteriorating. It sucks.

I wanted to respond to this post a week ago and forgot about it. lol.

You wouldn't be the first one here to succumb.. I believed synapsext was gonna cure me and dropped a couple Benjamin's.

I would love nothing more than to so believe some multivitamin would cure me that the placebo effect would trick my brain into suppression of tinnitus.

Never a bad idea to clean up your diet and if tinnitus bothers you less then what a nice bonus.

Well.. just to share my experience, i switched to plant based diet, and it improved my overall health. But the t hasn't healed.. ups and downs.. but i do believe that it's best to live healthy lifestyle (healthy food + lots of rest that is for me), that in that way, there is more possibility of healing t.. for it to get better over time.. that's what i tell myself anyways

Lived a relatively clean lifestyle prior to T and the first 10ish months of T. Didn't help at all.I was that annoying person that would peel off the skin of fried chicken if I had to eat it. Lol. Yeah nope, still got T!

Not soon. I'd guess maybe next year at earliest.

Sleep is such basic need.. personally anything (not too harmful of course, supplements or something) that helps for a good night's rest i'd go for.

This is a condition I can't accept. I rather someone just kill me.

Yeah, with you @crescentsky. I am giving myself another 2-3 years, so total ~3-4. Unless it improves (maybe Shore device will help if it comes), I am checking out. Unless I worsen rapidly. I had a scare, I thought I was days away from checking out. So far I am here. I will see how long.

@crescentsky Pfft i do understand what you say.. but it's a depressing thought too.. in such moments where to land to find a sense of natural wellbeing. For me.. when in agony, i can also not really find acceptance.. the only thing that helps me is the hope that it get's better with time.

I’m nearing 2 years too. May 2nd

Such a sad and horrible anniversary:-(

I haven't gone to the gym in nearly 4 months.I went regularly for years. Exercise now increases my ringing exponentially, and I've received permanent new noises from working out. It's like my efforts to improve myself are being punished.

@Pinhead it's like T wants to kill you any way it can. Harmless my ass.

^ 1000% you can do everything right and it still spikes. Nothing can change my mind that T is one of the worse.

Hmm.. sorry.. it feels so difficult sometimes.. going day by day i tell myself

I feel you. I don't go outside unless for doctor appointments.

The unfortunate reality is that ADs can help a certain percentage of us. I believe mine help me not to completely fall apart on bad days. As long as I stay on a very low dose and keep it consistent I have no adverse side effects.

They are so clueless. Clueless and abusive

yeah T is like hell on earth. not even sure if it'll even let me go in death.