My tinnitus is around 8-10 khz, but I barely hear anything in that range, so masking it is hard. It's crazy, the noise was always there and pretty loud, but over time I only noticed it when I focused on it. The brain can do a lot... but right now, it feels impossible to imagine that kind of relief again.
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@tomytl, at my breaking point. On one hand, I'm thinking about my surgery, on the other hand, about breaking up with my girlfriend. At the same time, I'm feeling desperate because I can't find a suitable job, and I'm trying to find rent that fits the benefit I'm receiving. My life has become a total mess. I'm going through things that no one with even a little bit of human dignity should have to experience.
Work is really tough for me right now because I'm the one responsible for bringing in the orders... but I just can't do it anymore... Everything's a complete mess. And then there's the constant whining from people who don't even have real problems, it makes you feel like you're stuck in an asylum.
Yes, these ear problems are really very limiting. You just feel constantly bad and have to put in a thousand times more effort for everything, even just to sleep.
Today, both of my ears are already hurting from all the ringing and pressure… it's unbelievable that even after 20 years of having this condition, there's still no proper medication for it.
How did I cope? When I realized the ringing wasn't getting better after 3 days but worse, I was desperate, crying, and wandered in the woods, isolating myself. I sat at my PC, researching any healing methods I could find, but none worked. The only ones benefiting were the people who took my money, offering false hope.
By month 4 or 5, I returned to work, and it was absolute horror. Everything rattled and whistled, nothing was like it used to be. I often felt desperate, sitting there alone at night, programming. And that's how things went on for quite a while.
The first event I attended was almost unbearable. I had a hard time understanding people, and everything caused pain in my ears. Afterward, I was so frustrated and completely devastated.
But at some point, and I don't remember exactly when, probably around 2005 or 2006, things got better, and I could live again. Sure, my hearing was much worse on the left than the right, but the hyperacusis mostly faded, and the annoying tinnitus moved to the background. It just didn't bother me anymore.
Unfortunately, in 2007, I spent too long in a loud place, which was too much for my hyperacusis-affected ears, and I struggled for months after. Then in 2014, I misjudged things and spent 4 hours in a noisy, crowded restaurant without ear protection. And now, this recent event with earplugs has set me back again. I'm so angry at myself for it... I could really kick myself.
I know you don't want to hear this, but 3 or 4 months is nothing in terms of ear recovery. It can take longer for the brain, or whatever, to rewire itself. I can tell you, it was really bad back then. I saw no way out, and I wondered why I had to suffer so much. I feel the same now, but somehow, I'm just tired...
If you have any questions, please feel free to ask.
It's so unbelievable, I know many people but not a single one with hearing problems... and many of them never take care to their ears, drinking, partying every weekend..... and I walk around with this shit.... I just know just one guy who got a tumor around one ear, so he lost one side, he is deaf on one side...also very brutal.
It's so unbelievable, I know many people but not a single one with hearing problems... and many of them never take care to their ears, drinking, partying every weekend..... and I walk around with this shit.... I just know just one guy who got a tumor around one ear, so he lost one side, he is deaf on one side...also very brutal.
no, I don't have kids, lived a long time with my gf… Kids are toooo loud for me.
Cypres might sound good, chill on the beach is a pleasure for the ears, the waves might mask you T and you can listen to the waves, which is good for the nervous system.
Cypres might sound good, chill on the beach is a pleasure for the ears, the waves might mask you T and you can listen to the waves, which is good for the nervous system.
When I am swimming in our lakes, I also think my ears are like new ones, the sound of water is the best for our damaged ears…
It's almost like a joke that other people are unaware of these ear problems, constantly partying and being exposed to loud sounds, yet continuing their lives without any issues. Until this happened to me, maybe it's hard to believe, but I never heard or saw anyone who had such a problem due to headphone use. Are you still living with your girlfriend? Which lake are you swimming in?