Tinnitus Talk Support Forum

what's new on my condition, when I wake up I have this additional humming 80 Hz sound left and my head feels stuffed. I can sleep well at the moment, but waking up is like crashing into hell.

@tomytl, No, there is no improvement for me. I cried all day today. I also slept to escape from hell. Only when I sleep, if there are no interruptions, can I find relief. What do the doctors say about your condition? Are they able to help?

It really really hurts my soul to hear that. A minimum improvement would give you some basic power for further improvement. I really hope you can see a doc very soon as you experience dizziness too.

@tomytl, Breaking up with my girlfriend, trying to find a new house, trying to convince the jobcentre that I can't work due to tinnitus, my upcoming surgery date, landlords not renting to people on benefits, my girlfriend constantly crying and moving into her friend's place, my inability to sleep, and feeling unsteady when I go out to the store or walk outside.

My hearing issues, the fact that not having money makes everything harder, being alone during my surgery, and dealing with all of this while the endless screaming in my ears continues. On top of that, I'm living in a different country with no one to rely on, no family, no friends, and coping with the end of a five-year relationship.

All of this convinces me every night that the only solution is to die. All of these problems stem from my ear condition. Before, my life was wonderful. I still can't believe everything that has happened. Life will only get harder for me.

A new shared house, new people, surgery, months of dressing changes, I won't be able to work, and on top of all of this, I'll have to deal with the constant screaming in my ears. I want to tackle things step by step, but death always seems like the only solution. However, I don't want to hurt my family or those who care about me.

I want to solve all of these tangled problems step by step, but how long can I go on like this?

I hope still have good relationship to your (exj-girlfriend and that she will help you as a friend at least.
Indeed, your current circumstances are tuff, not easy at all. You are really very strong guy and I know your step by step approach will end in a better situation.

You urgently need assistance in coping with the T, maybe to meet someone in real in London having similar issues as long the health system is not available. Or why not asking someone on a good hearing aid shop for help or tips?

Maybe someone will be helpful for once.
Audiologists might have a better understanding than ENT specialists when it comes to treating tinnitus, or perhaps someone knows someone else who can help you without having to put money on the table right away

These are just a few ideas, even if they may be unrealistic. I don't know the situation in London, as I was last there 20 years ago, but here something like that might be possible at best. They can't just leave you hanging

tonight I will try a half of Temesta, Xanax does not have same effect I think.

@tomytl, Thank you for the recommendations. I need to proceed step by step, first by setting appointments, then scheduling surgery, and after that, finding a place to live, etc. But breaking up with her is what hurts me the most. She had wanted to marry me for a long time, but because of my health problems, she couldn't handle it anymore.

She has done so much for me, and we shared many beautiful memories together. She is also unable to work right now due to some health issues, and since she couldn't manage to support both of us and seeing me like this, trying but failing to help, we had to break up. It really hurt me, my friend.

@tomytl, Up until four months ago, I really had a peaceful and happy life. Has tolerance developed to Xanax? How long have you been using it?

no tolerance to Xanax, I just took about 10 pills over 4 weeks, so not really much. I just find it didn't have the same calming effect for the ear. I can't really describe, I thought Temesta works better for the relaxing of T and maybe the Tensor Tympani Muscle, but this is all guessing

I'm so sorry about you and your GF. Maybe you will come together again, maybe it was too much change at one moment.

Yes, do it step by step, that's a good plan.
The frustrating time is the beginning, while maybe there is no really an advance or a change. The body is always in alarm mode..

So now I woke up and no change in pressure or T after taking a half of Temesta.
Since I can sleep anyway, I guess it just helps against more T because of anxiety.
So I have no helpful effect.