omg it just doesn't seem like it's getting better for some of us. I'm so sorry you have it so bad. I too am very bad. I can't believe how loud tinnitus is. My hyperacusis is worse. Thankfully I got over my ocd and I think you can too but it was difficult. I was stuck at home for years with ocd, now I'm stuck at home with tinnitus. I'd rather have the ocd than this. Now I've got to take antibiotics which I know will make me worse and I too feel very suicidal. I'm not sure I'll make it to the end of this month. Just taking it one day at a time. Feeling your pain and hoping one day we'll all see light at the end of the tunnel x