Dij111

Dij111

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  • Coldinhere
    Hi Dij111, Good to make acquaintance although not the greatest circumstances. I heard that your T started from a fire alarm incident too? Do you mind telling me what happened? Many thanks
    Dij111
    Doc found my right ear can be seen physically beating, I guess I have pulsatile tinnitus?
    Dij111
    That's the ear that has a moving sound instead of just a monotone ring/hiss like my left ear... guess it's correlated somehow, getting a CT scan to check.
    ruusupuska
    Hi, I'm curious about how your right ear is currently? :)
    Dij111
    When your ENT doctor tells you: "Just learn to ignore your hyperacusis.", not sure how to respond ;)
    Dij111
    Update: It's been 5 months since onset, almost 6 now. Coming to terms with the fact that the tinnitus will not go away.
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    Dij111
    It will come at the cost of sleep and added sounds/volume in my head, but what else can I do? Can't keep living like this.
    Dij111
    @dpdx It has gotten better in left ear, worse in right as far as I can tell. I mean, it's more so that the sound is like a tune that's going up and down so it's harder to ignore.
    H
    I know the feeling. My baseline is actually pretty low but I get scared of spikes and loud noise in general. I want to defer my dissertation to improve my hyperacusis. My main reason to stay living is for FT and other developments. It does relive me that I won't have to live with this forever, even if I will have to for a long time.
    Dij111
    Keep on pushing, trying to stay away from this forum as much as I can, glancing at success stories when feeling anxious.
    jjflyman
    Hang in there. It will fade!!!
    Dij111
    Holding on hope with every part of my body :( today was a fairly good T day, managed to watch a movie without thinking about T, I've been noticing volume reductions every month since onset.
    Dij111
    I also can't say for sure yet but it seems as if I lost some of the extra tones I had, I've only heard my 1 tonal T today with no other sounds.
    jjflyman
    Thats great news! It is so slow to fade, it's tough to form a point of reference. You will get through this, but it may take up to 2 years. I'm 18 months in now (acoustic trauma) and am aprox 90% faded. I *hope* to be fully healed by the 2 year mark. You will get better.
    Dij111
    Emotional setbacks this week, a whole tantrum of them. Negativity is leaking from all my posts, I'm sorry if anyone is/was offended.
    Dij111
    Just need to keep going, push forward somehow - fake it til' you make it, as much as I hate to say it.
    Contrast
    Just be so honest and open about yourself that it causes neurotypicals to question their societal sculpted mindset. A autistic person on social capita that makes memes in photoshop, dicks around with internet friends and watches cartoons all day can live a happier life then a hard working, church going, married man with kids and a wife and high income job.
    Dij111
    Dij111
    I woke up at 5 AM and instantly my mind played up the events leading up to my Tinnitus, I almost threw up.
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    Dij111
    You get used to it, people say, everything will be fine.
    The beginning was better because at least I was fed with false hope.
    Dij111
    I just know I am going to suffer from insomnia this week, this is how we get to the addictive anti-depressant pill stage, I get it now, I feel sorry for everyone here.
    jjflyman
    Don't give up hope, you will most likely greatly improve over the next 12 months. Lots of people with noise caused T completely recover.
    Dij111
    I slept for 2 hours today... lost hope :(
    Dij111
    I just walked 40 mins to the beach with double ear protection, maybe I can catch some sleep here, with skin cancer as a bonus.
    Dij111
    The only way I can live with this condition is to change my purpose in life, I can no longer live for myself because there's no joy in it.
    Dij111
    Need to keep going so my mother doesn't grieve for me.
    Dij111
    The only person in my life that truly matters and cares.
    Dij111
    I would've been miserable if she was not around during these 2 months.
    Dij111
    Prisoners who serve a life sentence have it easy, our life sentence is way worse.
    Dij111
    Where did it all go wrong, in the span of a few months...
    R
    watch OZ show, so you can see if they have it easy ;) you might even reconsider your situation
    threefirefour
    Sorry about the guy above me. You get those types around here :)
    Dij111
    Waking up tired... with a headache, because the brain keeps needlessly working, without a shred of will to get up... thanks T
    Dij111
    Almost ready to give up with how I'm feeling this morning... this is going to be a great day.
    Dij111
    Always physically feeling my brain or ears, I am exhausted of this feeling.
    Dij111
    Will need to suffer for a few more months to see if there's improvement.
    Dij111
    I've spent this day being distress-free :) , another day almost burnt - just need to get some sleep today, back pains are killing me.
    Dij111
    Can neighborhood doggo please stop barking? it's been 4 hours, he starts right on schedule when construction work ends.
    Dij111
    I wonder if life in this neighborhood was always like that... guess I've been coming off work and diving straight into headphones so I did not notice the sounds.
    JodieStephens
    Hehe doggo
    Dij111
    I think I'll just go to the beach today and just lay there listening to ocean sounds for 8 hours instead of hiding from construction work.
    Dij111
    The waves aren't masking my T... this is the saddest disease in the world...
    Dij111
    Should do this more often, natural ocean wave sounds feel so good on the ears.
    Dij111
    I want to kill myself.
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    Dij111
    @Contrast but then who will fill this forum full of memes :(
    Contrast
    @Dij111 I already wrote a script that can post 3 pictures of Obama dancing every several hours. Once i'm dead I can just have scripts do all my posting with a large plathora of memes and random content. However I don't know if I can find a computer to keep running if I do it. In the mean time just appreciate me while I'm a live.
    Contrast
    literally shitposting from the grave would be hilarious on my part
    Dij111
    Scared to go back to the pool tomorrow... actually noticing some very good improvements to my T and I don't want to ruin it.
    Julien87
    You will be fine. Avoid the screaming kids and keep your distance with the lifeguards, they might use their whistle. Have fun ;)
    Dij111
    T in my good ear sure is fine, really no reason to be paranoid from normal everyday noises for us.
    Dij111
    It seems to be subsiding as the ear fullness is going away, if it won't I will go crazy.
    Dij111
    Kids screaming at the pool today... couldn't swim for more than 20 mins, my ears hurt even with earplugs.
    Dij111
    I really hope this spike is just because of the exercise and not the kids... I got out of there 5 mins after they got into the pool and started screaming.
    Dij111
    Maybe I should really go the @Bill Bauer way and become a hermit to protect against sounds throughout these first months.
    Dij111
    Just as construction work ended, a dog started barking loudly all over the neighborhood for the past 3 hours :) positivity is KEY :)
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    Dij111
    No idea, the proximity of his voice was coming closer though, the barking stopped now, and the upstairs neighbors are playing music, yay me :)
    AZeurotuner
    I don't worry about my T for stuff like that, I worry about my general sanity... Bad neighbors are the worst.
    AZeurotuner
    Love my pitbull... She only barks at mean cats, lol.
    Dij111
    T is very low today, even after exercise which spikes it, time to be happy joyful and hopeful only to be let down a few hours later :)
    Dij111
    I thought my T disappeared when swimming today, turns out the earplug just popped out a bit :) happy memories
    Dij111
    Positivity is KEY :)
    Dij111
    I am starting to accept that T will not go away... I am also starting to accept that I will not live with T if it does not go away.
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    Dij111
    But most of what we get are side-stories - a friend of a friend of a friend whose T went away.
    Dij111
    I believe most figures in all these studies about T disappearing completely for 70% of people simply had temporary threshold shift and not real tinnitus.
    Dij111
    Sorry but I just feel like venting out my frustration today.
    Dij111
    Great... spent the whole night moving around from back pain and T being so loud I felt my head spinning.
    Dij111
    The side-bar "New Profile Posts" is just one depressing post after another... here's a smiley face to balance it out :)
    Dij111
    I wonder if there will come a day, that I will be able to enjoy playing video games the same way I did before... my true passion.
    Dij111
    Yesterday I had fleeting T in my good ear, then it started to have very faint T(some slight tones transferred, no ringing really).
    Dij111
    And the T ear sound turned high pitched, it is still the same very faint volume, just changed pitch, wonder what this means.
    Dij111
    All of that happened in the quiet, I was not exposed to any noises throughout the day.
    Dij111
    Strangely, this is the lowest in volume it has ever been.
    Dij111
    Wow, faint hiss T for the entire duration of the night, didn't even need to distract myself, slept like a baby.
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