I realize it's pretty quiet in this section of TT, but I'm having a very bad day and I need to vent before I explode or pop a clonazepam and I don't want to do that as I am tapering. First of all, I have barely slept for two days. I have been taking nightly walks and wonder if it is increasing my T? It has definitely increased since I decided to leave my bedroom and rejoin the living. I know some will dispute this, but my T can be reactive..it will react to noises as in, go, "beep, beep" loudly in sync with a ticking clock..or other sounds.. However today it is the constant bells in both ears and hissing in my right ear too, that woke me up out of sleep. I am sitting in silence because I am now becoming afraid that maybe I have overexposed myself to normal noises, thus making my T increase. My laptop is acting up, and it's hard to type, but basically I am in hell and going crazy. Everyday it seems like my H and T change and it has definitely gotten worse since onset. I have not been around any LOUD noises. I can't continue this way. Also, I have noticed something odd..when I awake in the night and use bathroom or whatever,sometimes, it seems like my T and H are not there anymore??!! This happened last night, but within minutes,the T got SUPER loud...it has now gone down a bit, but still there and I know it will get loud again tonight and tomorrow morning..like clock work. My doctor gave me remeron, I am afraid to take it. I wish I had not used clonazepam for my nerve pain, and now I wonder if it caused this..however nothing I can do now..but I am afraid of meds..Also I took advil last night, could that of increased my T? I don't know how to do desensitization and think I am making myself worse. I feel like I am trapped in a hopeless situation until I can hopefully do TRT, but what if before then I become worse?