Bilateral Tinnitus After a Single Band Rehearsal without Hearing Protection

[RattleKat]

Sorry to hear that. When and how did yours start? Was it from acoustic trauma? How is your general tinnitus?

 

[DamagedJoe]

I came to this forum to say something about this. I think I have the same thing, dysacusis. It's hard to say how similar it is, but it sounds very familiar. My life feels like it's over with this as well. When I'm outside, distant traffic creates either a white noise or a tonal sound.

I am very sorry to hear that. No one should ever carry this burden.

When was your onset, and why?

I also have an update to share.

Unfortunately, my mental state has continued to deteriorate. I was having increasingly dark thoughts, so I went to see the doctor again to be on the safe side. He has now diagnosed me with reactive depression.

I was prescribed Sertraline, which I took for the first time today. Of course, I'm afraid that this will make my tinnitus even worse, but if I don't try it, nothing will change anyway. If this life is determined to finish me off, then it should just do it already.

For the last few weeks, I've felt like a soulless robot, a broken one. Numb, limited to nothing but its function. I'm slowly beginning to understand. It's really too late, isn't it?

In addition, my medical rehabilitation program was approved. Let's see when the invitation from the clinic arrives. But it probably doesn't matter. They can't help me anyway.

How lonely one feels with this disability. Sometimes these waves of futility and indifference overwhelm me, and then I somehow pull myself together and fight against giving up.

It's a strange thing, this survival instinct.