Controlling My Tinnitus

My experience with Tinnitus started 7 days ago.
Day 1: Previously, I was not aware of any sound in my ears or mind. Seven days ago, I noticed a tiny sound in my mind. I tried to listen to it. It was difficult to listen except giving full attention and concentration to this sound. Then I tried again few times to listen this sound and every time the intensity of the sound went increasing.

Day 2: Intensity of the sound went increasing further. First I thought I am listening the sound from both the ears but later on I concentrated more and I found that the buzzing sound is coming from my left ear only. Sound increased at night before sleeping and I woke up at night few times and early in the morning due to this buzzing sound in my left ear. My sleep was very much disturbed due to this buzzing in my ear.

Day 3: I started searching on the internet and found that I have tinnitus and there is not any proven cure for this problem. At evening I went to the ENT specialist. He checked my ears and said that my ear drum is intact, there is not any issue with my ears and that I am all OK. I left that hospital and went to another ENT specialist. He also checked my ears and said that there is not any wax in my ear and that ear drum is also OK but he said that I may have the tinnitus. He wrote antibiotic tablets (Augmentin) and one wax removing ear drop for me.

Day 4: There was not any difference in mu buzzing sound in my ear even after regularly taking the medicines. Working in office was really difficult due to silent atmosphere. When I was bowing down then, as some position, I was feeling vibration in my ear drum. I started listening the audio sounds for T at home through headphone to get some relaxation from the buzzing sound in my left ear, especially during sleeping. Still getting good sleep was a real challenge for me.

Day 5: After office hours, I went again to the ENT specialist and informed him that still there is not any difference in my T. He wrote Augmentin 1.2g injection for 3 days, morning and evening. I came back home and searched for using the prescribed injection for T but did not find any convincing proof so I decided not to go for it.

Day 6: My condition with T was worsening, disappointed about my future. Sound intensity in my ear was maximum 7 out of 10, irritation due to this sound was maximum 7 out of 10 and fear of becoming deaf due to this sound was always there in my mind. I was having difficulty in concentrating and thinking in deep about any topic.

Day 7: With same condition, I tried to sleep at night with earphone on my ears. But due to frequent and prolonged use, my earphone became faulty, leaving me with buzzing sound in the ear, without any other option to save myself from this sound. I slept thinking about this buzzing sound in my ear. Then I decided to do some experiment with my this sound. I started to concentrate on other sounds in the room instead of thinking about buzzing sound in my ear. First I concentrated on the sound coming from the nearby Air Conditioner compressor. It was very difficult to concentrate on the AC sound because the sound in my head was ear was loud as compared to the sound coming from the air conditioner. After some struggle I became able to concentrate on the AC sound by forgetting the sound in my ear. I adjusted to the AC sound and felt some comfort. Then I decided to further go below the AC sound and tried to concentrate on the little sounds coming from the outside and air sound in the room. I became able to listen these little sounds and the sound in my ear decreased accordingly. Then I tried to listen to listen to silence behind all the sounds in the room and in my ear. I succeeded somehow. At that moment I felt that the sound I was listening for last 7 days is actually in my mind. Since that realization, little sound became has become limited into my mind and I do not listen any any buzzing sound in my ear. At present sound intensity in my mind is maximum 2 out of 10, irritation due to this sound is maximum 1 out of 10 and I do not have any fear of becoming deaf due to this sound. I can work now in the office without any disturbance due to previous buzzing sound.
At the end, I am of the thought that the T sound is basically a psychological disturbance in our mind which we shift to our ear(s) and make our life worse. I also hope that the remaining little sound in my mind will go after some time. If not, still I can manage with this little sound.
I wanted to share my experience with T with others.

 

I found a reference:
Ringing in the ears 'is all in the mind'
http://www.hearnet.com/features/articles/artist_article_tinninmin.shtml

 

The Brain: "Ringing in the Ears" Actually Goes Much Deeper Than That
http://discovermagazine.com/2010/oct/26-ringing-in-the-ears-goes-much-deeper